Does anyone else like not cry?

[femcelloser]

Title above but I want to share my experience. I don't cry like ever? I'm immensely sad at all time. Sometimes when it gets really bad the most that'll happen is I choke on my tears a bit but I can't get myself to cry? The few times I have it's been very cathartic and a kinda nice feeling. Does anyone else have this issue? I wish I could cry more lol

 

[Namelesa]

I wish I could cry more but I am able to when the mental pain is at its most intense and overwhelming and at that point I am crying a lot uncontrollably and very loudly and screaming in pain for quite a few minutes. Otherwise I am not able cry with stuff that is less than the highest amount of pain I can feel.

 

[Lavínia]

I think the last real outburst I had was a year ago. When I feel really bad, with sadness consuming me, a few tears come out... I realize that I'm finally crying... and it stops completely. I keep trying to force it but it doesn't work. I don't know if it's a lot of internalization, in my case I used to hold it in a lot. I can't say if that's why

 

[arandomname]

I wish I could cry more as well because I feel like it helps. Didn't cry since childhood but recently (last 2 years) I've cried over concerns about someone I love (thinking they lied to me about a cancer diagnosis, them repeatedly leaving/heartbreak).
It's similar to what Lavinia mentioned above where it's not uncontrollable (couple of tears) and when I realise it just stops but then I try to force myself to continue but can't. I savour those moments though because it tells me what I feel towards that person is different to what I've felt towards anyone else and can focus on understanding that feeling.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I haven't been able to cry since I became severely depressed about 6 months ago. It's like the sadness became too intense so my brain had to turn it off. I still get tears sometimes, and when I try to talk about my children I often choke up and get very close to crying.

 

[taysontheory]

Me

 

[CatLvr]

The last time I remember crying was my one-month old grandchild's funeral. Almost 23 years ago now.

 

[onthefence]

When I was on an SSRI for 15 years I never cried. I stopped it almost 2 years ago.
Lately I usually only cry when I'm alone but haven't been able to since starting a stimulant a couple weeks ago.
I did end up crying in front of my therapist just before I started the stimulant- they said it looked cathartic. From my end it was more like I was realizing how messed up I am and that I am close to losing my freedom. Afterwards I was so dissociated that I could hardly walk.
The stimulant has helped with my symptoms enough that I can act more normal and keep myself out of the hospital. The trade off of not being able to cry is totally worth it at this point.

 

[Agent_PS]

I can kind of relate to that. The only time I cry is when I'm having a full on mental breakdown or very randomly when I conjure up a imaginary tragic scenario in my mind. But most of the time I just feel frustrated, disappointed and angry at myself and the world

 

[Peace2peace]

Due to my severe depression have always been crying but lately have stopped crying maybe because am starting to embrace ctb

 

[avoid_slow_death]

I mean, I tear up a bit on occasion. Once in a while one or two fall, but generally, no. Conditioned myself to stop doing it a while back. Cried way too much in my lifetime and not going to freely anymore.