Mixo
Blue
- Aug 2, 2020
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I used to meet criteria for BPD. That made most of my 20s pretty painful emotionally and while I protected my closest friendships from myself, I still pissed off a lot of people at work because I was standoffish, moody, and generally unsociable. This led to being bullied by coworkers. It's one of my worst social phobias - a group of people in a public setting shitting on you and generally agreeing about it. That happened to me before - once when I was in the same room and was heard/seen. I think back on those times and they still haunt me. I don't let people's actions or words fuck me up as much now, but thinking of all the times I didn't fit in in the past still hurts. Anyone else relate?