lagoona-a-go-go
La tristesse durera toujours.
- May 25, 2023
- 16
Now that I've really started planning things out, and have my method, I realize that I'm somewhat excited in a sense to finally CTB. Earlier today as I thought about which outfit I'd wear and having freshly washed and soft sheets and blankets in my bed while being surrounded by my dolls and plushies as I go brought me some semblance of happiness. Of course I'm still miserable and exhausted, and the thought of the impact my death will have on my close friends and girlfriend makes me feel worse, but the thought of my last moments no longer frightens me. In fact, it not only excites me a bit, but brings me some sort of happiness and peace at the thought, more than anything else I have lined up in my life right now (all of which are surprisingly good things) Anybody else ever feel like this?