My immediate and extended family is full of problems. I think my suicide will be a sign to them that it's a viable option and that suffering through life is completely pointless.
Passersby
Trapped in space and time
- Aug 29, 2019
- 1,640
Hello Volatile, yes I have this concern too. I am worried about my moms suffering after I do it. I don't think she could go through with it but she might and even if she didn't then she would be really bad off. Also concerned that my dad would have another stroke. I know though that he wouldn't kill himself 98% sure but nothing is 100%. These are valid concerns. However my problems are very significant and have ruined my life and I am tormented 24-7 so I will have to just not think about these things and go through with it anyway when I am ready. I hate it but it's how it is. It will be alright and time will go on. I have a lot more yrs to be alive than them and it would be easier if they were already gone but I do not wish this at all just saying. Ctb is tough no matter what. You just have to look at the suffering and decide how much you can take and if there is no other options but you already know this. Everyone situations are different but for me I wouldn't ctb unless I absolutely had too but unfortunately that is my reality. Hope whatever your struggling with can somehow work it's way out.
Pony
Sad transgirl
- Sep 2, 2019
- 98
Im worried my boyfriend might ctb if I do, he has some mental illness which is undiagnosed but to me it seems like bipolar and also he has problems with drugs :/
woxihuanni
Illuminated
- Aug 19, 2019
- 3,299
My parents will probably die through either something brought on by grief, or possibly by suicide.
SuicidalSymphonies
I think I'll take a dirt nap.
- Oct 13, 2019
- 1,028
As it stands, my mother doesn't ever hear from my brother and neither do I. So when I ctb, both of her children will be "gone". She will grieve heavily. My father will be sad. But as he always tells me, "Everybody dies."
Rachel74
Enlightened
- Sep 7, 2019
- 1,716
I worry a bit with certain family members that it could, I also had a friend that ctb right after everything hit the fan for me and we had talked a bit. No one saw it coming, tbh I was a bit jealous and was looking back then for a way to succeed. It blew my mind people saying her life wasn't that bad, she was so smart and she could have been a model. But with some things that she did I can't say I knew everything bad that happened with her. I'm not saying she set off a reaction for me but having someone I knew that did it. Kinda inspired me that it could actually be done.
I visualized this chain as a forest fire, somehow imagining it as a cleansing process where only parched lands burned, in the same way that recessions force bad companies to close up shop and recycle their assets to better use. Sometimes you have to take out the trash.
BridgeJumper
The Arsonist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 1,194
Low chance. All the people I knew who would of gone through it too already killed themselves. And my family members happen to be the 'depressed but cant imainge ever killing myself' type
EndItQuickly
Member
- Oct 30, 2019
- 88
I'm really worried that my mother will and possibly my little brother. My wife wouldn't, but I'm terrified it will crush her and ruin her forever. Life is cruel.
I worry about my sister and my father. I think his heart would be broken beyond compare and I feel bad doing that because I love him so much and would hate to be without him, yet heres me hoping he will be okay without me.
My fear of what it will do to my family and friends is the reason I am still here. I have an almost overwhelming desire to no longer be alive so that I will either rejoin the love of my life or no longer feel this grief, but I am so afraid I will just put my brothers, sister, parents or friends in the same spot I am now. I wouldn't wish this on someone I hated and putting it on my loved ones...they don't deserve that. But it is very hard for me to think about the effect it will have sometimes, because all I feel is this pain.
Kodama
Experienced
- Oct 11, 2019
- 209
Yes worried about what my wife and boys may do but can't help my feelings to go because of the mess I have made
CrushedHopes
Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
- Nov 3, 2019
- 471
I doubt my CTB would start a chain. As far as I am concerned, plenty of people want me gone.
I am ready to go to I am going to travel away from home and family to do what I have to
Anyone got a quick way to go
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trynacbt
Arcanist
- Sep 28, 2019
- 476
My mother ctb'd earlier this year so I guess I wouldn't be starting a chain but contributing to one 
I don't think any of my other family members or close friends would ctb... but you never know...
I don't think any of my other family members or close friends would ctb... but you never know...My sister's honestly the only reason I live. I love her so much.
Same.
Ame
あめ
- Nov 1, 2019
- 322
I worry about this a lot.
My immediate family has been under a lot of stress and my siblings are also suffering from mental illnesses. I know that my passing would cause them a great deal of pain and I do worry about it driving someone over the edge (my sister especially...we are two years apart and are essentially one another's best friend). However, I also know that there will be an undercurrent of relief of not having to worry about me anymore. I have robbed them of enough of their happiness. I just hope that they realize it sooner rather than later so that they can move on.
My immediate family has been under a lot of stress and my siblings are also suffering from mental illnesses. I know that my passing would cause them a great deal of pain and I do worry about it driving someone over the edge (my sister especially...we are two years apart and are essentially one another's best friend). However, I also know that there will be an undercurrent of relief of not having to worry about me anymore. I have robbed them of enough of their happiness. I just hope that they realize it sooner rather than later so that they can move on.
Chalken
Decaying
- Nov 20, 2018
- 214
I hope not. I wouldn't want anyone to go through the same pain that I am currently going through. I think my family is stronger than me so they will probably cope.
Wreck-it-Riley
My demon will see me undone
- Oct 20, 2019
- 269
My friend probably will. my boyfriend might go back in the closet and never move out of his mothers house. probably crush him and ruin the things he loves that define him. (stuff he only shared with me, and we explored together. might never feel safe opening up again)
Detour
Detour Ahead
- Oct 25, 2019
- 60
Just my mom I'm worried about. She has severe depression. Sometimes I get jealous of people with parents who don't like them. It would make it easier to ctb
TearyEyedQueen
In the wrong timeline
- Nov 14, 2019
- 366
I feel my family might take it really hard and I feel sorry for them. They wanted a child badly but had no idea how to raise one besides the basics. I feel terrible knowing they might think about ctb but there's only so much despair one could take. Enough is enough.
Sad_Autistic_boy_101
When I die, you'll love me.
- Nov 19, 2019
- 453
No, The only person that cared about me died by suicide, so in a way, i'm a part of his chain. Which is wierd to think but hey ho.
SHThrowAway213
That's the hell I live with
- Apr 19, 2018
- 658
I'm worried that my husband would.
He has depression too.
But even when I'm alive my mental health does affect him anyways.
I know my family wouldn't but would be worried about the effect it would have on them
He has depression too.
But even when I'm alive my mental health does affect him anyways.
I know my family wouldn't but would be worried about the effect it would have on them
Detour
Detour Ahead
- Oct 25, 2019
- 60
I know, it was probably dumb what I said. But wanting to ctb when you have parents who love you is really hard
I'm sure it makes it easier in some cases. It makes it more difficult in mine because my parents are the ones who ruined my life
Detour
Detour Ahead
- Oct 25, 2019
- 60
But wouldn't you not feel that guilt of hurting your parents when you ctb since they were the ones who made you feel this way ?
