Venting Does anyone else feel like a child

[finish.me]

I dont know how to describe it but I really feel like I haven't aged passed 12 or even before then. My dad tells me it feels like he's talking to a kid when he speaks to me. like, remember being a little kid and being freaked out when you see someone in a new light, like when you know your mom or someone close to be sweet and bubbly but you catch a glimpse of then behind closed doors while they're angry and upset and it's like they're an entirely different person? I feel like I'm constantly feeling that with everybody. last year at my old shitty job when i fucked up enough my coworkers would just straight up ignore me like i was a kid that spilled something and now they have to clean up the mess. When i'm on call with my boyfriend i literally don't know what to do besides sit in uncomfort when he gets annoyed at something and puts on that angry voice like that silly side of him i love wasn't ever there and now it's just someone i'm completely unable to please. It's scary. It feels like everyone has this side them that I don't have. I can't turn it on. I don't know how to be serious or angry when I'm supposed to, like i don't know how to show it. I don't know how people do that or how to handle it when they do.

 

[MeltedJello]

I too, feel like a kid that is just trapped in this body. Mentally, I'm like 13-15 years old, & I'm tired of it. I can't adult either, so ctb is my only solution. It hurts a little knowing that others have something inside them, that you don't, so just know, you aren't alone in this feeling.

I'm sorry you have to feel this way. I'm not sure what to say myself, but I hope you come across better & more peaceful days.

 

[ClownMe]

I've found Growing up to be quite bizarre, you are psychically your age but mentally you feel like a kid still.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

like, remember being a little kid and being freaked out when you see someone in a new light, like when you know your mom or someone close to be sweet and bubbly but you catch a glimpse of then behind closed doors while they're angry and upset and it's like they're an entirely different person? I feel like I'm constantly feeling that with everybody.

I thought this was just me. I feel this fucking deeply.

last year at my old shitty job when i fucked up enough my coworkers would just straight up ignore me like i was a kid that spilled something and now they have to clean up the mess. When i'm on call with my boyfriend i literally don't know what to do besides sit in uncomfort when he gets annoyed at something and puts on that angry voice like that silly side of him i love wasn't ever there and now it's just someone i'm completely unable to please. It's scary. It feels like everyone has this side them that I don't have. I can't turn it on. I don't know how to be serious or angry when I'm supposed to, like i don't know how to show it. I don't know how people do that or how to handle it when they do.

This too. I feel like I'm just the foil to everyone else's whim and that I get painted black in an instant. Or maybe I'm the one painting black. I can't tell.

I feel as though mentally I didn't age past around 18. Addendum to this, I look younger than I am (admittedly I don't look 18 anymore) and people generally take this as carte blanche to talk to me as if I'm an idiot no matter what capabilities I demonstrate. As you point out, this is particularly hard to take in the work place and strays into outright abuse.

It's a special kind of mindfuck to be preserved in aspic, I agree. I don't feel like I'm a real person.

 

[Freedom Believer]

I've always been a child, I'm 21 but I look like I'm 16.

 

[stygal]

I recently seen an picture of my ex with a new partner and I just thought: "Daaamn they look old" and then I thought: "Wait a minute that means I probably look old too rn" :D

I feel like I'm still 10 years younger than I am. It's weird - like @ClownMe said: physically I'm an adult but mentally I'm a teenager (not a child anymore tho).

 

[DocNo]

I recently seen an picture of my ex with a new partner and I just thought: "Daaamn they look old" and then I thought: "Wait a minute that means I probably look old too rn" :D

I feel like I'm still 10 years younger than I am. It's weird - like @ClownMe said: physically I'm an adult but mentally I'm a teenager (not a child anymore tho).

even my grandfather at age 80+ did say that mentally he feels like a younger man. i guess to some point that is a pretty natural thing. maybe cause time flies by pretty quickly when getting older.

maybe also cause our mental development gets slower and we experience fewer new things in life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not sure if I feel like a child but other people treat me like one. I have not aged at all in years and I look younger than my age. I am not good at being an adult, I simply cannot cope with life and I am not meant for this world. I just want to sleep forever.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Me too! I really relate to so many post here. I feel I haven't mentally aged since 14 I just been stuck in my teenage phase possibly. I also look young for my age and people treat me like a kid. Why I haven't moved out of parents home and so much more. Anyway adulting is too stressful and so is socializing

 

[Buried_Kid]

I understand those feelings.
Usually I feel like I'm very immature and childish, and that makes me feel dumb, stupid, and a lot of other negative feelings.
I feel like everyone likes mature and grown-up people who is rational, kind of artistic, mysterious, and those other adjectives. I would love to be like that, but I'm just a shitty childish guy who does everything wrong and has a mid of a 13 years old kid. Even with the same (or similar) knowledge.

You can PM me if you want to talk. I promise I'll try not to judge you.

<3

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

I'm pretty sure my brain stopped growing sometime in middle or high school. I still don't know how to be an adult and deal with responsibilities properly. This world is simply not for me.

 

[demuic]

I'm kind of the opposite. I was always too mature as a kid and could never relate to people my age. I feel the same as I ever did since I was kid, but I never thought of myself as a child then. So in that sense I can relate to not feeling as though I have developed. I find "adult" responsiblities to be useless and painful, they only exist so that someone can extract value, monetary or otherwise, out of you.

I also look much younger than my age, so that is frustrating.

 

[motel rooms]

I'm 40, but I'm always a child in my nightmares & flashbacks

 

[Snake of Eden]

I have a form asperger's so it seems my brain stopped maturing at teenage years and it really shows with my very low emotional intelligence

 

[LonelyBrazilian]

Yes, I feel like I didn't go through the rites of passage from adolescence to adulthood.

 

[Shadowplay]

Yes I have the worst of both worlds; as an emotionally neglected child I never had a childhood, but I'm not a functioning adult. Thanks life!

 

[Makko]

What exactly separates children from adults? I've never felt the supposed transition.

 

[Shadowplay]

Yes I have the worst of both worlds; as an emotionally neglected child I never had a childhood, but I'm not a functioning adult. Thanks life!

The cute kid in my avatar depicts this perfectly which I guess is why I picked him.

 

[Pen>Sword]

I feel like a child. I want to live like an adult, but my stupidity hinders me to be one. All of my entry-level jobs such as fast food, electronic, security jobs, I didn't last long because they said that I'm slow. This is why I feel like a kid. I can't progress to adulthood.

I'm in nursing school who has no job or responsibilities, and yet I'm the one failing. These mothers who has tons of responsibilities are way ahead of me. I still live with my parents, totally dependent to their incomes and such. I'm such a burden at this point. Why am I still alive? A stupid person like me should've died.

 

[TheHatedOne]

One time when I bothered to look at the messages on my classroom group they were all talking how they all gave up on their childish addictions like playing video games non stop and things like that and overall how mature they became. Well, I realized I've became the opposite of that. When I was a teenager I was very wise, mature and always studying for my ''future'' but now it's completely the opposite. All I want to do is play, drink and just rest. I don't get adulting. Probably never will. I don't know if I should miss when I was an actual child and just playing day to night because I lived in an abusive house back then, but I kinda long for those times.

 

[Enigmatic Sailor]

Yes

 

[charlotte_]

I try to act as an adult and take on life challenges maturely, but deep inside I know I'm still just a child. I don't know shit about how the world, society or economy works and not too interested about finding out either. I don't want to go to work, I don't want to spend all my time just writing papers. I just want to be free and do whatever I want