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soulkitty

soulkitty

Just a shell of who I once was.
Apr 6, 2024
331
I'm just at a point in my life where I'm crying everyday multiple times a day. I just feel so defeated and utterly exhausted. I know I'm at one of the lowest points in my life and I want nothing more than to claw my way out of it. I've lost so many people dear to my heart. I don't have anyone that I'm even close to anymore. Everyday is just a vicious revolting cycle of the horrible mistakes I've made in the past couple of months. it's a pain so intense, you know the silent sobbing that is a result of so much emotional pain that it's unbearable, where you're crying really hard but no noises come out. Has anyone else experienced this?
 
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Mi Mi

No One Special
Mar 18, 2024
138
I'm just at a point in my life where I'm crying everyday multiple times a day. I just feel so defeated and utterly exhausted. I know I'm at one of the lowest points in my life and I want nothing more than to claw my way out of it. I've lost so many people dear to my heart. I don't have anyone that I'm even close to anymore. Everyday is just a vicious revolting cycle of the horrible mistakes I've made in the past couple of months. it's a pain so intense, you know the silent sobbing that is a result of so much emotional pain that it's unbearable, where you're crying really hard but no noises come out. Has anyone else experienced this?
Yes..I cry everyday..multiple times a day.
It's new to me because in my past I didn't really cry.
It's like I went from being stone to trying not to cry around others and completely break down when I'm alone.
 
blueming

blueming

if we can stand outside the borders of time
Sep 21, 2018
224
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm pretty much in a similar situation, many events over the past year have led to what is currently probably the lowest point in my life. I've distanced myself from my friends and my family have all left me. These days, at times I just feel such an intense wave of pure anguish rising in my chest and I start crying out of the blue and I try to scream but no sound comes out, it feels like I'm drowning in my own pain. It's a dreadful feeling.
 
soulkitty

soulkitty

Just a shell of who I once was.
Apr 6, 2024
331
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm pretty much in a similar situation, many events over the past year have led to what is currently probably the lowest point in my life. I've distanced myself from my friends and my family have all left me. These days, at times I just feel such an intense wave of pure anguish rising in my chest and I start crying out of the blue and I try to scream but no sound comes out, it feels like I'm drowning in my own pain. It's a dreadful feeling.
That's so horrible, I really hate that feeling so much. I hate that you have to go through so much torment as well 💙 If I could take all the pain away from you I would in a heartbeat. It really is a dreadful feeling and I'm hoping very much that this low point in your life ends soon 🫂
 
blueming

blueming

if we can stand outside the borders of time
Sep 21, 2018
224
That's so horrible, I really hate that feeling so much. I hate that you have to go through so much torment as well 💙 If I could take all the pain away from you I would in a heartbeat. It really is a dreadful feeling and I'm hoping very much that this low point in your life ends soon 🫂
Yes it's really a nightmare I wouldn't wish on anyone. Thank you so much for your kind words :heart: I hope the same for you too, that your situation will improve in any way possible. Sending hugs <3
 
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ClaudeCTTE

ClaudeCTTE

Misunderstood...
Aug 22, 2023
265
I don't usually cry, mainly because antidepressants make me feel flat or apathetic.

However, in high school, sometimes I wanted to cry because I was alone and none of my classmates wanted to work with me. It made me sad to be ignored and excluded by my peers. I used to hold back the urge to cry because I was embarrassed for my classmates to see me cry, as where I live it's common to say that "men don't cry," so I just limited myself to shedding tears silently...
 
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hopeless08

Arcanist
Dec 8, 2023
449
I'm just at a point in my life where I'm crying everyday multiple times a day. I just feel so defeated and utterly exhausted. I know I'm at one of the lowest points in my life and I want nothing more than to claw my way out of it. I've lost so many people dear to my heart. I don't have anyone that I'm even close to anymore. Everyday is just a vicious revolting cycle of the horrible mistakes I've made in the past couple of months. it's a pain so intense, you know the silent sobbing that is a result of so much emotional pain that it's unbearable, where you're crying really hard but no noises come out. Has anyone else experienced this?
I know the feeling I'm sorry you're going through it. I cry a lot some days but then on others, there are no more tears left to come out. That unbearable painful feeling you describe is the worst, when it hurts so much you can hardly breathe. The emotional pain hurts so much that it becomes physical. We'll know that you're not alone..
 
Hated By All

Hated By All

Death will give me peace
Sep 21, 2022
404
I'm empty on the inside and my father taught me not to cry because it's weakness he said, so I don't cry.
 
AnonymousL

AnonymousL

Specialist
Apr 5, 2023
347
There was a time i cried multiple times a day for weeks and at some point I was just dried up. No tears were coming out anymore.
 
arnxxx

arnxxx

Student
Mar 8, 2024
167
I cried maybe 1 or 2 times a year but now its multiple times a day. I always hope it makes me feel better but unfortunately most of times it doesn't
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
2,426
No, I can't cry even if I try to. I feel like I should be crying to denote how miserable I am but no tears will flow down my face. Perhaps I'm just numb?
 
arnxxx

arnxxx

Student
Mar 8, 2024
167
I used to, a lot. But not any more. Not since my decision. Am done feeling sorry for my self, am done asking why, am done mourning my life. Am just done with all of it!
What decision did you take?
 
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LaVieEnRose

Illuminated
Jul 23, 2022
3,403
I did when my chronic ailment was at its peak. Now I wish it would return to that level of painfulness because it would be quite motivating.
 

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