takuyangel
[ communist daughter ]
- Feb 19, 2025
- 96
i've had a note saved on my phone from when i tried to kill myself all the way back in 2023. embarrassed to say, i can't believe it's been so long. it's honestly pathetic. though it wasn't even a real note really, just a message meant for the girl i'd loved at the time. at the same time i'd tried to record a video of myself to post before i'd died as a last message but i broke down during it and couldn't do it. as of more recently though, i don't even know if i'd leave one. maybe just specific final messages to some certain people. i can't see a meaning in anything past that. i'm not gonna cram a sob story down everyone's throat as a final attention plea, you know? why i feel the need to die is my business alone . people are already gonna assume whatever they want about it as it conforms to them, so be it, i think it's better off that way.