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minamin
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- Jun 3, 2021
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So for me, I really don't like venting publicly or to other people. Especially because if you tweet "I hate my life", what is anyone else supposed to say? If you tell your friend out loud you want to CTB, they go "Noo, don't do that". And while that's a very nice sentiment, it does not change the fact I want to CTB. Someone offering to "help" me after hearing a fraction of how I actually feel doesn't make me feel better because I don't want help, I want a way out.
So then okay, if I can't vent irl, I'll vent in my diary. Pages and pages of thoughts. But that still doesn't change anything. It doesn't make me feel less miserable, just makes me reread it and go "Yup, still depressed"…
And then here is SaSu. There are tons of venting threads here. I guess this thread in a meta way is venting too. But it's almost the same thing as writing in my diary… I don't feel better after and I end up deleting what I say almost 100% of the time.
And what's weird is… Despite saying all this, and despite knowing that it won't help me, I still think "God, I want to tweet that I'm miserable! I want to hang out later with a friend and tell them I'm super depressed". Even though I KNOW that I wont get any benefit from it. That it won't make me feel better and will just make me feel worse. But I still… want to vent!!!
I guess what I'm wondering is, does anyone actually feel better when they're getting things off their chest? And is there a reason the human mind is so paradoxical like this? I surely can't be the only one who feels this.
(Also editing to say: I'm not trying to be rude to anyone on here who vents. If it helps you, all power to you. I'm just talking about my person experience with it.)
So then okay, if I can't vent irl, I'll vent in my diary. Pages and pages of thoughts. But that still doesn't change anything. It doesn't make me feel less miserable, just makes me reread it and go "Yup, still depressed"…
And then here is SaSu. There are tons of venting threads here. I guess this thread in a meta way is venting too. But it's almost the same thing as writing in my diary… I don't feel better after and I end up deleting what I say almost 100% of the time.
And what's weird is… Despite saying all this, and despite knowing that it won't help me, I still think "God, I want to tweet that I'm miserable! I want to hang out later with a friend and tell them I'm super depressed". Even though I KNOW that I wont get any benefit from it. That it won't make me feel better and will just make me feel worse. But I still… want to vent!!!
I guess what I'm wondering is, does anyone actually feel better when they're getting things off their chest? And is there a reason the human mind is so paradoxical like this? I surely can't be the only one who feels this.
(Also editing to say: I'm not trying to be rude to anyone on here who vents. If it helps you, all power to you. I'm just talking about my person experience with it.)
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