Does anybody who joined this forum early feel more pressure to ctb?

[I want to end it]

I joined this forum in April, so I'm one of the earlier members. I'm feeling a bit of pressure to ctb, seeing earlier members like sonnenblume, tiredman etc. who have all ctb'd and I'm still here.

I do have legitimate reasons, mainly practical reasons. But there is always the argument "if you really wanted to ctb, you would have done it already".

Does anybody else who joined this forum early relate to this?

 

[Tiburcio]

Nah

If they succeded, good for them

I just chill until my time arrives.


Well, all what I can chill with the stupid anxiety attacking me.

 

[skyofAuroras]

Kind of. I've also been here since April, and I do feel a little jealousy towards earlier users who have already ctb. There is the thought of why am I even on this site if I'm not sure about wanting to die. But I know no one will think ill of me if I decide to stay around, and no one here would ever force someone into suicide.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

Yeah, kinda. I still remember the original SanctionedSuicide sub lol.
I've been around for way too long, twiddling my thumbs and overthinking my method while others actually get their shit together and ctb. Eh, I can't even kill myself properly >.>

 

[typx]

I'm not sure. I'm more shocked that I've lasted this long. I guess I wish I'd pulled it off but I don't feel bad about it. Personally frustrated, yes. But it's something we do in our own time I suppose.

 

[Aponia & Ataraxia]

There's only 3 reasons for why one would not carry out their entropy-given task:

1. they desire an event(s) in the future, aside from their exit

2. they have not fully-processed their emotions and risk: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Postponement_of_affect

3. they know that their method does not "hold water" --something is not quite right, or is just plainly unappealing/unsafe ("survival instinct")

 

[acher]

Things have been going downhill for me more rapidly and now I'm considering it way more seriously, so in that regard I at least feel more desire to end it. I would say that I do feel a bit of pressure, yes.

 

[DF90]

I've never felt more pressure to ctb by being apart of the ss community. If I am being honest I'm still alive because of it.

 

[Comatose11]

I'm not one of the original members but I have never felt pressure to ctb. I like how pro choice this forum is. Not pro life, not pro suicide, but pro choice.

 

[acher]

It's not caused by anyone here, just seeing other people ctb makes me feel guilty. I hate myself so, so much.

 

[Ashton]

I wouldn't worry about it , you'll go when you're ready.

 

[QueenEtna]

I've been with the sanctioned suicide reddit for a year before it got shut down so no I don't.

 

[anna]

I'm almost from the beginning and I did not feel pressured
neither would allow anyone to do it