I have to say I miss FC's never ending posts about hating existence, I wonder why I don't see them anymore, I know some people were annoyed but I understood her pain and her hatred of existence.
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It seems that funeral cry got banned, does anybody know a reason?
I might be wrong, but it seems that funeral cry got banned or something, her profile isn't available anymore. Does anyone know a reason how did she got 100 percent of warnings? Recently I saw her post where she criticised the recovery section. I agree with that criticism btw, but curious whether...
sanctioned-suicide.net
Auto-ban for too many warnings. The ban may not be permanent though as I think reconsidered after a month
Illegal Preclear
The CEO of CTB
- Sep 6, 2022
- 226
Maybe she successfully CTB'd. I hope she did. Yeah, it always sounds weird to say "I hope this person is dead" but I always prayed she would find the perfect method she was looking for. If someone is truly ready and wants to CTB I'm going to hope and pray they find a way off this prison planet just like I want. I loved her extreme Nihilism. She reminded me of Kefka from Final Fantasy 6. Her big barrier to CTB was that she couldn't find a method she'd be comfortable with. Maybe she got access to a shotgun or some N. I want very much for her to find peace.
Kapsyl
Specialist
- Feb 3, 2024
- 344
The drama on the forum has certainly plummeted ever since 
Tesha
Life too shall pass
- May 31, 2020
- 914
I feel the forum has been much less 'stressed' over the past few weeks. It's been nice to see other people have an opportunity to voice their opinions.
I don't think she was actively looking for methods the entire time she was here, at least she didn't appear to be putting any effort into that. Just venting about it being too hard. And she's in the UK so doubtful she managed to find a shotgun (I think she'd be against that method anyway) and she always said about how she couldn't get N-hardly anyone can now. She was pretty much the least likely person on here to ever CTB.
LaVieEnRose
Angelic
- Jul 23, 2022
- 4,370
Luckily for you you have an almost bottomless reservoir to peruse.
Don't know but it's much better now without the daily attacks telling us how bad the forum is and how most of us shouldn't be here as we are not suicidal enough.
To me, some people are just evil, telling everyone recovery is not possible and everyone should be dead... all whilst carrying on with life themselves though.
To me, some people are just evil, telling everyone recovery is not possible and everyone should be dead... all whilst carrying on with life themselves though.
Minsu
♀️🏳️🌈
- Jan 17, 2023
- 548
Idk but her posts seemed to me like AI generated.. and I've noticed she never answered to people's reactions to her posts so I put her into my ignore list 
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 8,995
There was nothing AI about FC's posts. I disagreed with her on just about everything, except that we each have the sole discretion over our autonomy, and that a better, more peaceful option should be available for those who choose the ctb route. I've gotten into it with her many times. From what I know about her, she had a number of different ailments, including physical, and I'm quite certain, she's living in a "homebound" kind of way, probably closely watched over, and taken care of, by her parents, or guardians. Because of her situation, she has no real means to obtain anything that could help her ctb. Basically, in a prison, if you will. The only "life" she really has, and any connection to the outside world, is through the Internet, hence her constant venting. She's basically trapped in her existence with no means of escape. Her situation should be viewed through the lens of compassion, not ridicule or contempt.
astr4
memento mori
- Mar 27, 2019
- 628
i had my own issues w her but i wish we could all just ignore and move on without what seems to me to be excessive criticism. people say stuff out of anger and grief and sadness and their extreme views are a way of rationalizing their own existence (antinatalism, anyone?). you don't necessarily have to agree but judging someone who's clearly suffering just seems cruel to me.
Saturn_
You're gonna carry that weight.
- Apr 22, 2024
- 487
She is a fascinating character, I do wonder what she's like IRL. What was odd to me was how according to her she never really said any of this stuff to her family so she had some self-awareness not to be negative around them. She seemed so sure of her views and stuck in that mindset I find it hard to believe she didn't tell them what she told us 40,000 times or whatever it was. Defo a hard one to work out our FC!
In a way I feel bad for her as she probably thought she picked the best site for her pro-death views. And I'm sure there is a place for that stuff but probably not here, at least not in the way she pushed that narrative without having any discussions about it. And I would've happily had antinatalist discussions with her but she just wasn't interested in that which is a bit odd on a forum
In a way I feel bad for her as she probably thought she picked the best site for her pro-death views. And I'm sure there is a place for that stuff but probably not here, at least not in the way she pushed that narrative without having any discussions about it. And I would've happily had antinatalist discussions with her but she just wasn't interested in that which is a bit odd on a forum
I once calculated how many posts a day she averaged to get to, IIRC >32,000 posts in her time here. Its was something like dozens a day and hundreds per week, week after week of original posts for years.
If the costs of hosting SanSui is related to the number of posts, IIRC she was by far the biggest post expense. (Maybe she was the biggest donor too? Rhetorical.)
If the costs of hosting SanSui is related to the number of posts, IIRC she was by far the biggest post expense. (Maybe she was the biggest donor too? Rhetorical.)
Z-A
Let me go
- Mar 3, 2024
- 351
Getting banned sucks, especially in a place that means a lot to you. But rules are rules. I hope she'll find a way to pass the time.
not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 10,572
Just my thoughts....
I never had any problem with funeral cry. I agreed with many things she said. I hate life and I wish I were dead.
I didn't see everything she posted. I'm not always on here though.
I think everyone here has the right to their opinions. There really isn't a need to argue.
None of us know what others have been through. Some of us are in different places in our existence.
If she was attacking others. I didn't see it.
If it's her own threads... We are not forced to go into them.
I think we need to remember where we are. Most of us probably aren't in the best mental health.
If we were, we probably wouldn't be here.
I never had any problem with funeral cry. I agreed with many things she said. I hate life and I wish I were dead.
I didn't see everything she posted. I'm not always on here though.
I think everyone here has the right to their opinions. There really isn't a need to argue.
None of us know what others have been through. Some of us are in different places in our existence.
If she was attacking others. I didn't see it.
If it's her own threads... We are not forced to go into them.
I think we need to remember where we are. Most of us probably aren't in the best mental health.
If we were, we probably wouldn't be here.
dreambound
Student
- Dec 14, 2021
- 110
...without getting overly analytical about it, I find i miss her presence here, even if i don't
read all the posts
read all the posts
That's what made me think FC was a chatbot or used (was augmented by, as Englebart would say), a chatbot.
Illegal Preclear
The CEO of CTB
- Sep 6, 2022
- 226
Shit, that really, really, really sucks. That's my ultimate nightmare. I'm in a similar situation with my family due to my Schizoaffective status but I'm imagining it's not as bad as FCs situation. I'm at least allowed to be left alone. I understand her posts a lot more now, if she was in that nightmare scenario of literally having NO WAY to CTB. Folks need to keep in mind a lot of the users here are Disabled, and some of those Disabled people are in really, really direly horrible situations. I'd be close to FCs situation literally if I just didn't have an iron railing over a doorway in my house and a family that enjoys vacations.
I know she could be argumentative, but I really hope she finds a way off this dumb ass prison planet.
persimmon
Student
- Jan 21, 2024
- 148
FC is training in the Rocky Mountains preparing for her comeback. Morning sees one-armed press ups and bowls of bone broth. 30-mile afternoon hikes are common. She shits in the open air and communes with nature. At night she is chained to a wall and fed raw steak by villagers. In the brief hours she sleeps she dreams of her return and wreaking vengeance on her tormentors.
nembutal
everything will be okay in the end
- Jul 14, 2022
- 334
isn't that the person who's been spouting antinatalism on this thread for years yet doing nothing about it eyeroll
Oh she doesn't want to die. She just wants You, and everyone else to die. Her CTB-ing has close to zero chance. And I don't believe half of what people assume about her life. She could have easily been just a sadist that just enjoys people falling like flies on this site. Notice that she was on every goodbye thread?
And yes, while she accuses everyone to be pro-life, she is the one that is pro-life. Pro-her-own-life that is. Everyone else is not important in her one person universe. People wonder what she might be in real life. Well, absolutely pathetic. She is really not aware of other people, able to understand different viewpoints, or interested in anyone's opinion. Notice that all her post are monolgs, no interest in what you think or what you have to say. Her interest in you is to the extent that you die. If you die, she will consider you a good little soldier. If you have opinion, she will consider you pro-life (but of course you should still die), if you consider recovery, she will consider you an abomination, and will propose the whole forum should be taken down, but of course you should still die. Her viewpoint is so simple, not sure why people have this cult mentality and trying to make her out more than she is. Everyone should die if they are not her, simple simple simple
fallintotheshadows
Member
- Oct 23, 2023
- 66
I believe this to be the hopeful case. Considering how active she was with posts and would even make super long posts of her own about how terrible life is, I would assume someone who has said such terrible things wants to ctb. Hopefully they did indeed find their way
ijustwishtodie
I have finally found my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
- 5,796
This is my favourite comment here. Despite you disagreeing with her views, you still have understanding of her situation and also compassion for her overall. You're completely right about FC. She isn't an AI, she isn't somebody who merely wanted others to ctb without dying herself and she doesn't want attention.
People have called me FC's number 1 fan/supporter and I feel like this is because I understand FC more than other people do. Just like her, I have autism too and I think that I have autism to a similar level as hers. I don't have any chronic health conditions and I'm lucky to be okay physically health wise but I know that FC had to deal with a bunch of physical ailments as well as with autism. However, I am like her in the sense that I can't ctb become I'm homebound. I believe there's another factor that gives me and FC more obstacles to ctb and that is our executive dysfunction caused by our autism as well as getting easily overwhelmed at the slightest amount of suffering. I understand how trapped she is because I'm trapped too. I genuinely think that, with all of her conditions, she would be eligible for euthanasia but sadly euthanasia is a thing at all in the UK
It's relieving to find somebody else here who understands FC. I get that it's difficult for people to understand those who are autistic but I didn't think that it'd be so difficult to where an entire suicide forum would fail to understand her. Then again, I guess it takes one to know one hence why I can actually understand her
derpyderpins
I'd like to leave the world as a better place
- Sep 19, 2023
- 2,107
This is why, even though I definitely don't align with FC, I continue to be in favor of letting her back. People who don't get her can use the ignore feature, but people who relate and benefit from her posts can't replace them if she's gone.
While I don't agree with her, I do wish she would engage in more back and forth. I'd like to dig deeper into the philosophy, no judgment at all, and come to more of an understanding.
pthnrdnojvsc
Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
- Aug 12, 2019
- 3,496
Good points. A lot of people agreed with @FuneralCry . she got at least 93,000 likes. Many of us thought we were crazy for having these kinds of "pessimistic" thoughts. She put our thoughts into words making many poor suicidal people that were already suffering extremely . people that were previously made to feel alone , crazy... now could be validated in their thinking and at least felt not so alone not so crazy.
if users didn't like what she was posting they could put her on ignore instead of following her to her threads trying to get her banned. those of us that need more deprogramming from the matrix could then read her posts.
I need deprogramming from the matrix. I think many of us need the deprogramming from the matrix everywhere we constantly see many lies , " life is good" we constantly see that lie everywhere directly and indirectly stated.
etc. DNA based life has tortured trillions of sentient beings and billions of humans. but it's praised everywhere all the time.
how many adults even really really understand that they and everyone will die anyway? do they act that way? not imo. no most don't even fully understand they will die , how bad pain can be, how bad old age is 100's more things . And that one truth above all others that we all are going to die is the most fundamental truth ... if most don't even understand that then many are in need of truth. Because many people don't know a lot of truths is why ridiculous illogical things are allowed to happen for example that all adults are denied guaranteed methods of suicide like nembutal, suicide booths, cyanide capsules ( take in case of danger / emergency) , suicide kits , others assisting you in suicide.
of Course Steve Jobs understood That we are all going to die but he was steve jobs. that this has to be a quoted image further shows that imo most adults don't even really understand that:
We are in the matrix . I've only touched on some of the lies in this post or on this forum. in the matrix "life is good / beautiful / sacred/ important" .
in reality life has tortured trillions of sentient beings and billions of humans. but it's praised everywhere all the time. life is the only function that causes unbearable pain and suffering and torture in the universe . life is not good
@FuneralCry said the truth in a lot of her anti-natalist, nihilistic , pessimitic , or promortalist posts.
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locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 8,995
The only thing(s) I disagreed with her on were her antinatalist and nihilistic viewpoints that she wanted to impose on everyone - her idea that if she can't have a good life, then nobody should - which I find repugnant. She once told me that if she had a "button" that would destroy all of life on earth, that she wouldn't hesitate to press it. That she should have "god-like" powers to decide for everyone. I'm an atheist and I don't believe that anyone, even a god, has, or should have, that kind of power. I think we ONLY have the right to autonomy over ourselves. Generally, though, I liked her and still do.
Tesha
Life too shall pass
- May 31, 2020
- 914
I don't necessarily disagree with all of her views, and I do have compassion for her situation. However, I will not silently sit back and tolerate insults.
Many people who have views and medical conditions similar to FC have demonstrated that they can put forward their opinions and beliefs without belittling others. So, it is possible. FC sadly became a parody of her own arguments - she lacked compassion (except when people agreed with her); she deliberately wrote provocative posts (based on reading what others on the forum were talking about); she treated others badly.
Everything she hated in humanity and others, she displayed herself. I do not believe she was unaware of any of this. Her interactions demonstrated she knew the impact she was having.
I genuinely hope she's found another way to manage her feelings, without negatively impacting other people.
Many people who have views and medical conditions similar to FC have demonstrated that they can put forward their opinions and beliefs without belittling others. So, it is possible. FC sadly became a parody of her own arguments - she lacked compassion (except when people agreed with her); she deliberately wrote provocative posts (based on reading what others on the forum were talking about); she treated others badly.
Everything she hated in humanity and others, she displayed herself. I do not believe she was unaware of any of this. Her interactions demonstrated she knew the impact she was having.
I genuinely hope she's found another way to manage her feelings, without negatively impacting other people.
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