Absolutely, and it's like when I try to talk about this with people, they're so deep in deluding themselves that everything is fine, so deep in denial they don't even understand. Even the last therapist I spoke to, when I talked about how the past few months it felt like the happiness I was experiencing was fake, like I was living the Truman Show, cause I haven't cried for a long time and that's a sure sign I'm suppressing emotions cause I know this based on previous observations about my past self... and she tried to convince me it was real happiness. I could tell she was suppressing her own emotions as well. Her smile was fake. Eyes glassy. I guess a lot of therapists have to do that these days to even get through their day with climate change and all... you have a job to help people cope with a dying world in which there is literally no solution. We're all going to die.
This just... constant clinging to hope that doesn't exist. Pretending that everything is fine. My mom's the worst example of it, literally never looking at news anymore, getting all her news from my dad and the church. Acting like god wouldn't let the world warm up so it must be fake news. Ugh.
There's so much greed, corruption and suffering that I think a lot of people have to live neck-deep in denial just to stay sane. I get it, in a way. But I've changed my view on things a lot. I don't run from the fact that we're all going to die. I definitely know I'm going to die sometime this year, hopefully soon. As a result, these past few months have been some of the happiest I've experienced in... well, forever. Even if it does feel fake, like I'm just doing my dishes and making a warm meal while the world is on fire outside.
It makes me appriciate this forum all the more. It's the first place I've found in a long time where I can just be open about this and not have twenty people with some cult-like mentality try to convince me that noooo life is worth living and I should just be happy :D :D It's not so bad!!!!!!!1 (it is)