One recent discovery of mine, too, is that for talking about something as large as suicide, I've got to communicate it via a medium that I can take my time and think things through about what to say and how to say them. If it's in a realtime scenario, like in a verbal or text conversation or something, I'm just absolutely fuckin terrible at trying to describe the full expanse (or even a summary of) what I'm going through. I just freeze, have a complete sudden onset blankness of mind, stall out, and then stumble over every single new word that I say in an attempt to stop the dead air from hanging for too long. It feels sooooo much like the scene in It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia where Dee and Charlie try to do stand-up, but can't say a damned thing because they're just too riddled with feeling like they're about to puke.
This video is as relatable as it is hilarious. No matter how terrible I feel, this will never not be funny to me.
