Do you work? (Sorry think this should be in off topic)

[Thoughtforms]

Do you think working / not working helps you?

 

[Xerxes]

I work full time in cybersecurity, it's stressful at times, but it's good stress compared to what I put myself through when I don't work.

 

[muretax]

I was a manager at this store but recently left since this year traumatized me and I needed some change so I switched jobs just to get fired from my new job.

Having a job really helps me, it brings in more stability despite me barely having time to do things I enjoy. It's been about two months now and I'm already all over the place

 

[Louise]

I've been unemployed for decades (am 56). It sucks...

 

[Fucking loving it]

I haven't worked for 16 years. I quit to take care of my dying grandparents. Then I took care of my terminally ill daughter for 10 years. After she passed I am so fucked up. Suicidal. Dissociation really bad. PTSD. Agoraphobia. All other issues. Now I'm on SSI. I will never work again.

 

[Help_Me]

Yea, currently i am working (10 a.m. - 6 p.m) and studying in university (7-9 p.m.). This means i am busy for almost all day long. Still, this does not help me to get rid of suicide thoughts and does nothing at all. I guess another pro-lifer's favorite advice ("get a job !") just smashed into pieces.

 

[Jiva]

I work eight hours daily. But it isn't helping. I think about a suicide before and after it.

 

[ChemicallyCalm]

I'm currently a student and find even that pretty stressful because of all my health conditions, I can't manage a job at all, been let go from a few or quit when my health got bad

 

[sadsoul]

I'm a student (still in school) and it's hell. School doesn't help me at all, it makes me wanna die even more. It's one of the reasons why I want to ctb.
The school system is completely messed up and unless you're mentally healthy and extroverted, you're fucked.

 

[furax53]

I made it 10 that I am unemployed and I started ah have death when my grandmother left

 

[Thoughtforms]

Yea, currently i am working (10 a.m. - 6 p.m) and studying in university (7-9 p.m.). This means i am busy for almost all day long. Still, this does not help me to get rid of suicide thoughts and does nothing at all. I guess another pro-lifer's favorite advice ("get a job !") just smashed into pieces.

I work full time and study to coincide with my job but I'm failing at both due to this. Work is stressful.

But I've been suicidal when I was unemployed about not having a job and couldn't understand why anyone with a job could be depressed.

 

[Thoughtforms]

I haven't worked for 16 years. I quit to take care of my dying grandparents. Then I took care of my terminally ill daughter for 10 years. After she passed I am so fucked up. Suicidal. Dissociation really bad. PTSD. Agoraphobia. All other issues. Now I'm on SSI. I will never work again.

My heart breaks for you I hope you find moments of peace here and there

 

[Thoughtforms]

I'm a student (still in school) and it's hell. School doesn't help me at all, it makes me wanna die even more. It's one of the reasons why I want to ctb.
The school system is completely messed up and unless you're mentally healthy and extroverted, you're fucked.

I had a horrible time at school too due to not fitting in. It can be traumatising. Hope today was better for you

 

[Fucking loving it]

My heart breaks for you I hope you find moments of peace here and there

The only peace I have in life is my ketamine and I'm out for a few more days.

 

[worldexploder]

I never had a real job. My depression and anxiety would make it impossible to focus. I did however work at a cemetery when I was 17 for 2 hours a day, then a elderly center at 18 but that was only to get enough school credits to graduate. I didn't make any money and goofed off most of the time.

 

[ChickenAndPotatoes]

I haven't worked since 2015 and I've been on disability since 2015. In 2016, I was living in my car and driving to all kinds of random places, cities, and towns. Driving/traveling/moving non-stop was a symptom of my mental health diagnoses. I'm still unemployed. I would like to work for the post office; working there for 11 years would make me eligible to draw a pension combined with my 9 years in the USMC totaling 20 years working for the federal government. Plus, you are pretty autonomous in that job. It's one of my dream jobs.

 

[skitliv]

Full time job. Its distracting to a point, but I can't escape my mind anyway

 

[Thoughtforms]

I haven't worked since 2015 and I've been on disability since 2015. In 2016, I was living in my car and driving to all kinds of random places, cities, and towns. Driving/traveling/moving non-stop was a symptom of my mental health diagnoses. I'm still unemployed. I would like to work for the post office; working there for 11 years would make me eligible to draw a pension combined with my 9 years in the USMC. Plus, you are pretty autonomous in that job. It's one of my dream jobs.

They always need staff at xmas. I hope your dream comes true

 

[sadsoul]

I had a horrible time at school too due to not fitting in. It can be traumatising. Hope today was better for you

Not fitting in is horrible, it's so lonely. Today wasn't too bad, thanks for caring.

 

[Trashcan]

I'm a student and work part time like most 21 year olds.

 

[Johnnythefox]

I've been out of work for four months now, I've managed to convince myself that work is a con. Which is not a good idea when you've got a mortgage, I'm sick of being exploited and hearing the same old bullshit about having to be flexible (meaning we expect you to work your days off). When working I give it my best, otherwise there would be no point in doing it. I had no problem getting a job up until about eight years ago when I started looking for something new. I've applied for jobs and been for some interviews the past four months, the confidence is gone as well as the self esteem. I had to endure one interview with three Nuns and one guy, it was surreal and unpleasant. I would like to be in employment were people respect each other and equality is paramount. Not working means I have too much time to think which isn't healthy. I've not applied for anything for a while, but then I've not done anything else either except vegetate. I should really get my act together and get looking but it's not proving easy.

 

[deflagrat]

I have been a reclusive hikikomori all my life, and even if I had the opportunity to work I would probably ruin it with my poor mental health (schizophrenia).

 

[Idorus]

I was born to embrace the walls which were never closing in on me. Walls were so much better than dealing with the hierarchy in any controlled environment. I got fired or suddenly decided to sneak out during breaks to never come back - within a week as usual. I liked doing it. It was the result of 11 years shitty compulsory school under which I suffered terribly. Limit reached and time to get unleashed at age 15. The only thing to put up with was being my own boss for 6 years. Health problems put an end to it. Fighting as hell to get my money and embrace walls again was my only goal then. I finally won and got declared fully and durable unfit to work.

 

[IfHeDiesHeDies]

Working definitely helped me to take my mind off stuff. I have been working for over 20 years but I was unable to continue about 2 months ago due to my deteriorating health. Now I just sit at home rotting and waiting to be dead.

 

[Weeping Garbage Can]

I'm a student (still in school) and it's hell. School doesn't help me at all, it makes me wanna die even more. It's one of the reasons why I want to ctb.
The school system is completely messed up and unless you're mentally healthy and extroverted, you're fucked.

I'm a student as well, and completely agree with you. The grades, the never ending assignments and tests, the group projects, the constant noise of commanding teachers and loud students...it's unpleasant to say the least.

 

[Eden2k]

I left my job as an offender manager for the probation service, in 2013. Reason for leaving was down to deterioration in mental health. I started hearing "voices" and severe depression, shortly after starting the job in 2008. How the hell was I suppose to work with offenders, produce reports, undertake prison visits, attend oral hearings etc, when my "voices" were always telling me to kill myself and mood fluctuating. Never been great at taking meds. It is just a reminder that I have a mental illness. On one occasion in Dec 19th 2008, I couldn't resist the "voices." By this point, I had only been experiencing "voices" for a few months and had not told anyone about them. I was mentally and physically exhausted by this point. Trying to resist what the "voices" were and still are ordering me to do. I went into the ladies toilets at work. Took out a scalpel and cut my wrists. Wtf I know! I just wanted the "voices" to stop, as they said they would if I did what they asked. Lies of course. I stayed in this job until 2013 while still struggling with this illness and dealing with the aftermath of what I did on that fateful day in the ladies toilets. I'm now on disability benefits and receive my occupational pension early on medical grounds. I'm studying at college at the moment, although I've taken a few weeks off. I know I'm not going to finish course as I'm not going to be here much longer. Not the life I had and not the way I thought my life would have turned out, but hey/ho, that's the way the cookie has crumpled. Shit sorry for the long frecking post.

 

[Darrenloses]

I work in retail as a sales assistant and I'm 28, almost 29 years old, how embarrassing is that lol.. I have no degree or anything to show for my age. I left school early due to having no friends and being bullied and my grades were terrible anyway.

When I was 17 I did a year in college studying Art however at the end I couldn't think of a career path so I decided not to take it further to Uni. I'm just a waster anyway.

 

[Thoughtforms]

I work in retail as a sales assistant and I'm 28, almost 29 years old, how embarrassing is that lol.. I have no degree or anything to show for my age. I left school early due to having no friends and being bullied and my grades were terrible anyway.

When I was 17 I did a year in college studying Art however at the end I couldn't think of a career path so I decided not to take it further to Uni. I'm just a waster anyway.

You could try getting a job in customer service and then maybe admin if you would rather a desk job?

 

[Darrenloses]

You could try getting a job in customer service and then maybe admin if you would rather a desk job?

I recently applied to 2 posts at telecommunications, didn't even get an interview. But yes a desk job would be alright.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I don't think that's pathetic. I think that it shows ur stronger than u know. I have a degree & I still am operating at >5% of my potential. I've a plan set, so no point in making any changes. I'm checking out soon. But I think your tuff for continuing to show up & do your job, despite your feelings.