Do you wish you could just will yourself to die

[xonnia]

As i lay on my couch with 2 good friends asleep in my bed... i can't cut or anything to cope with a breach of trust that happened tonight.. i just want to bleed and I can't right now.. I wish i could just will myself to sleep and never wake up.. it would be so nice.

 

[I've waited so long]

sure do.

 

[Jaded]

Yes. Eternal peace is my dream.
No going out, no thinking, no anxiety, no suffering and no hurting myself.

 

[Couchking]

I say that if I would press a button and have my heart stop instantly, I would 100% do it.

Which tells me I do not want to be here and the only reason is bullshit, a.k.a irrational survival instinct.

So Fuck this body. It needs to die. Keeping me prisoner....

 

[wanttodie]

yes i do

 

[Rocky M]

Of course

 

[Trashcan]

Yes. I wish I could just command my heart to stop and that would be the end of it.

 

[Miro]

Yes.

 

[bigj75]

That would be too easy. Too kind.

 

[Lra888]

Yes. I think about this often while lying in bed. Just shut my heat/brain down. Would be so nice.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

Yes

 

[friendly99]

Every night when I go to sleep I just wish I never wake up

 

[Jen Erik]

Yes. It is the last thought before I fall asleep; and disappointing failure to do so is always my first thought when I wake up.

 

[Final Escape]

Every miserable day I'm just like, please a deadly accident or unusual sudden death. Or just not wake up from sleep. Fuck even a deadly quick killing cancer, then u get all kinds of attention towards the end lol!

 

[xonnia]

Every miserable day I'm just like, please a deadly accident or unusual sudden death. Or just not wake up from sleep. Fuck even a deadly quick killing cancer, then u get all kinds of attention towards the end lol!

ha! i've had that thought, like go to the doc, sorry you have 3 months to live maybe 12 if you do XYZ, i tell folks nope i'm going to not work and enjoy my last 3 months, go visit a few places/people then check out near the end when the pain/sickness takes over.

 

[Zaynaldeen]

When I ride my bike I always hope a car just rams into me so obviously yes.

 

[Tragoedia Vitae]

Oh goodness yes, wouldn't that be wonderful! It puts a smile on my face, just thinking about it. If only I could spontaneously lose consciousness permanently....even just falling asleep for all time would be so nice. There is a pedestrian overpass at my campus and whenever I walk across it, I always look down at the cars driving past underneath and idly wonder what would happen if I suddenly decided to jump off the overpass and plunge to my death amid the cars. But at the same time I don't want people to write off my death as an unfortunate accident---it would be better if there was a sense of disquieting mystery about my death. Yes, I think that would be an appropriate fate---living and dying obscurely.

 

[project77]

Yes

 

[sadsoul]

Yes, of course. I sometimes wonder how many people would ctb if it were that easy. Hundreds of millions, maybe even more? Just think about how apocalyptic that would be and how much pro-lifers would freak out lol

 

[Maravillosa]

Yes, oh yes. I would make sure that I was in a state of grace first, however. I do not want to end up in Hell -- that would defeat the whole purpose of dying prematurely.

 

[His GIrl]

As i lay on my couch with 2 good friends asleep in my bed... i can't cut or anything to cope with a breach of trust that happened tonight.. i just want to bleed and I can't right now.. I wish i could just will myself to sleep and never wake up.. it would be so nice.

Every damn night, I go to bed thinking the best thing not only for me but for every one in my life who I'm a burden to, would be to never awaken from my slumber. I mean let's face it, its for sure the best way to go, peaceful, blissfully unaware you no longer have to live in this hellish torturous God forsaken world, living a continuous nightmare day in day out!

 

[Essie]

I've honestly tried. After what has me crippled for 3 years first happened, my body was weak and frail and entirely bedridden, and I thought I might be dying from pain/shock alone, so I tried to will that to happen. I even researched it to see if anyone has had that happen or made it so. Evidently, it might work in the classic case of old people where one dies and the other goes a month or so after from grief. But they are also old. I am under 40, so I guess all the pain, shock and trauma I endured was not enough strain on the organs that give that heart attack or stroke.

Now I am being absurd enough to try the opposite: will the body to heal. And I am likely going to get the same results: nada.

 

[starcrossedfate]

That would be very convenient.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I wish I had permission. I feel like I'm not allowed.

Being OCD, I'm big into rules. It should not be against the rules to kill myself. It really isn't, but it still feels like it is. That's what I must overcome. The best way to overcome it will be when the physical and mental torture will combine to be too much to continue.

One day, I will want to die so badly that nothing will stop me. My entire focus will be on death. Right now it's dispersed with other bullshit. Too dispersed. One day all lights will shine on a big gun to blow my brains out with, and the rest of the room will be dark.

 

[Blowba]

Hell yeah thinking about it all especially these recent years wanting to be able to flip a switch before I sleep to just go out

 

[faex42]

I love the concept but I don't see how it is possible.