Discussion do you wish for a different, better life or none at all?

[ketaminekisses]

Honestly, it depends on the day for me. sometimes i cant imagine a single position that i'd be happy in and that theres nothing the world has to offer that would make and keep me happy. other times, i feel like i was just dealt a bad deck of cards

 

[The anhedonic one]

Even people who have fantastic lives will inevitably experience suffering.
Whereas complete non-existence means the absence of all suffering.
Sounds sweet to me.

 

[Vivisection]

For me it switches up a lot, sometimes I feel like a better life would be worth living! sometimes it feels almost in reach too!
other times I very much wish I had never been born to begin with :P I think I have been entirely broken and will never actually be able to enjoy life

 

[redeyepiranha]

Life isn't worth it for me, even though I have a good life according to standards. If life was this ideal, rich and famous wouldn't ctb. Everyone will experience suffering, then die. I work in the medical field, I see death every day.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Yes I wish for a better life but I can't reach it anymore.

 

[ketaminekisses]

Yes I wish for a better life but I can't reach it anymore.

why not? i feel like most people definitely can and its more abt willingness .
i know how you feel though. sometimes things feel salvageable,, but what you think isnt always true. i hope you find peace, whether its in life or death

 

[MiraiShisen]

One good life where I could fulfill few of my dreams have a family and die old and happy welcoming death would be enough for me and then no life would be good option or maybe heaven.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

why not? i feel like most people definitely can and its more abt willingness .
i know how you feel though. sometimes things feel salvageable,, but what you think isnt always true. i hope you find peace, whether its in life or death

Yes your are right up to some point. It's either I lower my expectations to a level and conditions that wouldn't be acceptable for me personally and therefore I still wouldn't be happy but had to do a job I don't like that probably would still make me depressed, or I just do nothing still be unhappy and depressed and prepare for the inevitable CTB. Either ways have the same result in the end for me.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Absolutely no life would make me want to live. No matter how amazing of a life I get. Because losing people hurts too much, and it's inevitable. Everyone is gonna die so you're gonna either lose people or have to leave people. Life is just a tragedy no matter what. And on top of that there's other kind of suffering mixed in.

 

[GettingOut]

Life can actually be very fulfilling and fun imo. Living with what happened in you childhood and the mistakes you have made in the past, makes life difficult enough. Having to deal with a chronic debilitating painful disease is just a complete different ball game that brings me to my knees.

If I could have a life where I could still go to the gym and run to help fight stress and depression, I would give it a go. This one is too much for me.

 

[ketaminekisses]

Yes your are right up to some point. It's either I lower my expectations to a level and conditions that wouldn't be acceptable for me personally and therefore I still wouldn't be happy but had to do a job I don't like that probably would still make me depressed, or I just do nothing still be unhappy and depressed and prepare for the inevitable CTB. Either ways have the same result in the end for me.

O god i meant things feel unsalvageable at times.. jesus. im so sorry

 

[BlazingBob]

why not? i feel like most people definitely can and its more abt willingness .
i know how you feel though. sometimes things feel salvageable,, but what you think isnt always true. i hope you find peace, whether its in life or death

For me it has nothing to do with willingness. I have an incurable, progressive torturous neurological disease that's completely ruined my life and has made it not worth living. No amount of effort or positivity will change it. I can change my perspective which might make it a little more bearable but it won't change the insidious nature of the disease or its progression. Believe me I've tried. I'm doomed and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. What I can do is take my own life and avert more suffering. My doctor said of my disease that it doesn't kill you but makes you wish it did. I'm just waiting on my dogs but lately things have been so bad that I've been entertaining the idea of finding someone to care for them so I can finally break free from this torment. Every minute of every damn day.

 

[MrDarkness]

If I could be treated with love, and told I mattered, I would continue living since I have a goal, I have nothing. I'm a husk, an empty being. I can't wait to die. So I become truly nothing

 

[woh6]

none at all, I feel like wishing for a better/different life would just be depressing and useless as we're stuck with the one we have.

 

[suicidalloser]

I wish to die.

 

[hellispink]

Maybe if I wasn't mentally sick , i would be able to see things differently . But sadly thats not the case i am fucked for life and death is the only cure

 

[deleted442]

I wish for both. Death is the passing of the light.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Only non-existence forever can guarantee that forever I won't suffer unbearable pain ever.

Non-existence forever Will also guarantee never having anything bad ever happening to me like:
other kinds of suffering boredom, diseases, disabilities, pain , suffering, problems , work, chores, bad memories, unfulfilled desires, intolerable pain, grief, accidents, depression, old age 1000 more horrible things

No life for me only non-existence forever and that's what will happen after I die.

I wish I was never born

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

Absolutely not. I wish for nothingness, I really don't see any appeal to living.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Different life. I want to be a privileged AFAB.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

For me it has nothing to do with willingness. I have an incurable, progressive torturous neurological disease that's completely ruined my life and has made it not worth living. No amount of effort or positivity will change it. I can change my perspective which might make it a little more bearable but it won't change the insidious nature of the disease or its progression. Believe me I've tried. I'm doomed and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. What I can do is take my own life and avert more suffering. My doctor said of my disease that it doesn't kill you but makes you wish it did. I'm just waiting on my dogs but lately things have been so bad that I've been entertaining the idea of finding someone to care for them so I can finally break free from this torment. Every minute of every damn day.

If I could be treated with love, and told I mattered, I would continue living since I have a goal, I have nothing. I'm a husk, an empty being. I can't wait to die. So I become truly nothing

Maybe if I wasn't mentally sick , i would be able to see things differently . But sadly thats not the case i am fucked for life and death is the only cure

Only non-existence forever can guarantee that forever I won't suffer unbearable pain ever.

Non-existence forever Will also guarantee never having anything bad ever happening to me like:
other kinds of suffering boredom, diseases, disabilities, pain , suffering, problems , work, chores, bad memories, unfulfilled desires, intolerable pain, grief, accidents, depression, old age 1000 more horrible things

No life for me only non-existence forever and that's what will happen after I die.

I wish I was never born

Absolutely not. I wish for nothingness, I really don't see any appeal to living.

really so many differerent and especially personal reasons. this is truly relieving! we all want to leave this existence for our own personal reasons and decisions and that should be fully respected and suppported by the surrounding society without questioing.

 

[MiraiShisen]

If I could be treated with love, and told I mattered, I would continue living since I have a goal, I have nothing. I'm a husk, an empty being. I can't wait to die. So I become truly nothing

I have been pretty much alone for 5 years, not willingly it was because of my chronic illness and fatigue. I am like in cage for years only be able to observe life of others. But one thing I learned is, I can sometimes enjoy company of myself and eventually I learned to give love to myself. You can love yourself, its most healthy thing you can develop. I know that you seek love from others but people are weird creatures, they are attracted to the energy, if you love yourself people see it and wanna share it with you. Its sad because many broken people would appreciate love more than healthy people but this world seem to operate in stupid ways. Sometimes broken people are most kindest, sincere and real, we just need to give them helpfull hand and they will get back treasure. Too bad that this rare species of humans ( a real humans) is slowly dying. You matter my friend, trust me there are many like you and maybe if you get a little lucky you will find ourself one and can be loved. Try build with yourself a good relationships, talk to yourself, please yourself, pamper yourself and love yourslef. I dont wanna preach you know if you are decided then I hope you will find peace, but if there is a little light at the end of tunnel, try it , not for others, for yourself. Wish you all good my friend I would hug you if I could so I will sent you my hug through space.

 

[Jolene79]

I would give anything on earth for my physical condition to improve and I would love life with open arms. I have someone I need to be here for but it's getting harder. I prey to the sky every night even tho I'm not religious in any way. I prey and beg and would give anything

 

[The anhedonic one]

I have been pretty much alone for 5 years, not willingly it was because of my chronic illness and fatigue. I am like in cage for years only be able to observe life of others. But one thing I learned is, I can sometimes enjoy company of myself and eventually I learned to give love to myself. You can love yourself, its most healthy thing you can develop. I know that you seek love from others but people are weird creatures, they are attracted to the energy, if you love yourself people see it and wanna share it with you. Its sad because many broken people would appreciate love more than healthy people but this world seem to operate in stupid ways. Sometimes broken people are most kindest, sincere and real, we just need to give them helpfull hand and they will get back treasure. Too bad that this rare species of humans ( a real humans) is slowly dying. You matter my friend, trust me there are many like you and maybe if you get a little lucky you will find ourself one and can be loved. Try build with yourself a good relationships, talk to yourself, please yourself, pamper yourself and love yourslef. I dont wanna preach you know if you are decided then I hope you will find peace, but if there is a little light at the end of tunnel, try it , not for others, for yourself. Wish you all good my friend I would hug you if I could so I will sent you my hug through space.

Thank you for this beautiful post

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't see existence as being desirable at all, I've only ever wished for permanent non-existence where I cannot suffer for all eternity, only nothingness is acceptable for me, I see the existence of life as being a tragic, horrific mistake.

 

[alonely]

I feel like to stay I would want and need a partner that I fully loved and accepted, and they fully loved and accepted me. Someone that I got along with perfectly well. Probably a lot of other things on top of that would help like a loving family and friends and hobbies that I enjoy and more enjoyable work and more vacations and stuff, but for me I think the base of it would be a partner. But I am completely and totally alone, literally don't have contact with anyone in real life, and it has been that way for many years and I see no way how it could change. Building up a relationship like that takes more time and energy than I have left. I have tried so hard so many times just to end up more tired and alone at nothing. So, I wish for a better life, but realistically, I see no way how that could ever happen.

 

[Meteora]

I wish for a better life but that is not gonna happen. Lost faith and hope in the past four years.

 

[Nephis]

Honestly, it depends on the day for me. sometimes i cant imagine a single position that i'd be happy in and that theres nothing the world has to offer that would make and keep me happy. other times, i feel like i was just dealt a bad deck of cards

I do wish for a better life, even after I die I wish I could be in the body of a woman who is treated kindly, a loving family, a fun childhood, friends, a future. I hope that is what I find at the end of all this, it may or may not happen. But for me I will continue to hope and I will hope to see light at the end of all of this, some may call me insane and very well I may be, however, I will relish that insanity and will push forward anyway, I will see it happen no matter how absurd it may be

~For you and me, I hope, a new life

 

[sayire]

Honestly, it depends on the day for me. sometimes i cant imagine a single position that i'd be happy in and that theres nothing the world has to offer that would make and keep me happy. other times, i feel like i was just dealt a bad deck of cards

I had a good life, achieved what I wanted to and then due to things I cannot control lost everything. life was good when it was, now I know it cannot be put back on track and eternal peace is pretty much the only option left to end this utterly sad existence.

 

[Jolene79]

I have been pretty much alone for 5 years, not willingly it was because of my chronic illness and fatigue. I am like in cage for years only be able to observe life of others. But one thing I learned is, I can sometimes enjoy company of myself and eventually I learned to give love to myself. You can love yourself, its most healthy thing you can develop. I know that you seek love from others but people are weird creatures, they are attracted to the energy, if you love yourself people see it and wanna share it with you. Its sad because many broken people would appreciate love more than healthy people but this world seem to operate in stupid ways. Sometimes broken people are most kindest, sincere and real, we just need to give them helpfull hand and they will get back treasure. Too bad that this rare species of humans ( a real humans) is slowly dying. You matter my friend, trust me there are many like you and maybe if you get a little lucky you will find ourself one and can be loved. Try build with yourself a good relationships, talk to yourself, please yourself, pamper yourself and love yourslef. I dont wanna preach you know if you are decided then I hope you will find peace, but if there is a little light at the end of tunnel, try it , not for others, for yourself. Wish you all good my friend I would hug you if I could so I will sent you my hug through space.

I believe there are some of the most genuine, loveable people on here. Because of the extent of suffering it really can bring you to a place of becoming so much more genuine and compassionate for others.