Honestly, recently I think a lot about Nick Fuentes. American politics is often some years ahead compared to German politics.
The AfD is on the rise. It is the far right party in Germany. In East Germany they are above 40% and we in Germany have a proportional electoral system. Not only two parties but many. This means 40% is really fucking high. The German AfD is compared to other far right wing parties in Europe very extreme. Germany is really good at producing Nazis. It is not unlikely they will try to ban the party one day. Many friends of mine are in favor of that. (Some also want to leave the country in case.) I am not fully sure. I am uncertain. But recently I read an article which nudged me a little bit into considering banning the party. But there are also very good counterarguments.
There are people like Björn Höcke. A court ruled he can officially be called a fascist. He wrote a book many years ago. The party was less extreme to that time point. And members of the party AfD were asked whether these quotes read by a reporter were writen in Hitler's Mein Kampf or in Höckes book. And they were unable to differentiate.
Many serious scientists say the current fascist right cannot be compared to what the Nazis did. They will not be the same. And they probably have a point. And maybe it is a little bit panic. But the development isn't good. When I see what Nick Fuentes is arguing for. He says Hitler is based, denies the holocaust, he openly says he hates the poor. And there is a momentum for Fuentes.
And we have to consider. The Nazis lost their hegemony in Germany 1945. So 80 years have passed. And people seemingly have not learned much. People easily forget unpleasant things. History might not repeat but rhymes.
In case I won't kill myself. Which is very uncertain. Or that I don't die of other reason. My resting pulse is scary. Really scared. The benzos fucked up my vegetative system even more. I might be alive in 2050, 2060, or 2070. Honestly, I doubt I will make it to that age. I almost killed myself last year. And my problems don't become less. Quite the opposite.
You know I get the feeling we in the Western world are not winning. Our societies are losing. People are in panic. People fight to survive. And populists take power under such circumstances by blaming scapegoats. They make the problems way worse. They increase the pace of decline and destruction. There are right-wingers that think this is necessary. The system has to be replaced. And these people gain more and more power.
I get the feeling people like me will get blamed at first. I think I would be a major target if Nazis or fascists would take over the country. I am wasting resources. I cannot work. I don't contribute to society. Sadly, barbiturates won't be legal most likely. So I cannot easily put an end to it by myself. I wonder whether I will one day really fucking regret I didn't kill myself in 2025. So far it was rather good I did not take the SN. The police was on their way, I texted my friends out of desperation. I think it was extremely lucky the police arrived before I took the SN. People here in the forum said they had to learn speaking again? I mean some might say not much happened. I don't read as much suicide discussion as in the past. But its Russian roulette. This is my main reason why I have not attempted yet. Personally, my method is still SN because the damage you can get from other methods sound even more horrifying to me.
Back to the topic. I am male, white but mentally very unwell. I literally would break down if I had to work. If someone took away my medication I would get a psychosis within one day. And I guess people in concentration camps don't get their medication.
I just imagined myself naked, humiliated, spit on in a concentration camp. I read scientifical papers on Auschwitz and they said the staff member of Auschwitz played soccer with a dead baby. I know it sounds melodramatic to say this now. Or to do this comparison. We have a long way to go. The radical development are increasing in pace. Noone knows what will be in 50 years. But there are many dystopias. I get the feeling most societies barely learned anything from past genocides. Everything is repeating in different forms. Maybe my analysis is too pessimistic. It might sound like the human race is damned. But this can also be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Libertarian billionaires like Thiel are into transhumanism. They don't want humankind to survive. They want to end the human race. Well some billionaires survivie. And the peasants will be crushed by climate change, and falling societies. So maybe be careful what you wish for. There has to be some hope. But most people I read are highly pessmistic about the state of the country and the state of the world. Me too...
The AfD is on the rise. It is the far right party in Germany. In East Germany they are above 40% and we in Germany have a proportional electoral system. Not only two parties but many. This means 40% is really fucking high. The German AfD is compared to other far right wing parties in Europe very extreme. Germany is really good at producing Nazis. It is not unlikely they will try to ban the party one day. Many friends of mine are in favor of that. (Some also want to leave the country in case.) I am not fully sure. I am uncertain. But recently I read an article which nudged me a little bit into considering banning the party. But there are also very good counterarguments.
There are people like Björn Höcke. A court ruled he can officially be called a fascist. He wrote a book many years ago. The party was less extreme to that time point. And members of the party AfD were asked whether these quotes read by a reporter were writen in Hitler's Mein Kampf or in Höckes book. And they were unable to differentiate.
Many serious scientists say the current fascist right cannot be compared to what the Nazis did. They will not be the same. And they probably have a point. And maybe it is a little bit panic. But the development isn't good. When I see what Nick Fuentes is arguing for. He says Hitler is based, denies the holocaust, he openly says he hates the poor. And there is a momentum for Fuentes.
And we have to consider. The Nazis lost their hegemony in Germany 1945. So 80 years have passed. And people seemingly have not learned much. People easily forget unpleasant things. History might not repeat but rhymes.
In case I won't kill myself. Which is very uncertain. Or that I don't die of other reason. My resting pulse is scary. Really scared. The benzos fucked up my vegetative system even more. I might be alive in 2050, 2060, or 2070. Honestly, I doubt I will make it to that age. I almost killed myself last year. And my problems don't become less. Quite the opposite.
You know I get the feeling we in the Western world are not winning. Our societies are losing. People are in panic. People fight to survive. And populists take power under such circumstances by blaming scapegoats. They make the problems way worse. They increase the pace of decline and destruction. There are right-wingers that think this is necessary. The system has to be replaced. And these people gain more and more power.
I get the feeling people like me will get blamed at first. I think I would be a major target if Nazis or fascists would take over the country. I am wasting resources. I cannot work. I don't contribute to society. Sadly, barbiturates won't be legal most likely. So I cannot easily put an end to it by myself. I wonder whether I will one day really fucking regret I didn't kill myself in 2025. So far it was rather good I did not take the SN. The police was on their way, I texted my friends out of desperation. I think it was extremely lucky the police arrived before I took the SN. People here in the forum said they had to learn speaking again? I mean some might say not much happened. I don't read as much suicide discussion as in the past. But its Russian roulette. This is my main reason why I have not attempted yet. Personally, my method is still SN because the damage you can get from other methods sound even more horrifying to me.
Back to the topic. I am male, white but mentally very unwell. I literally would break down if I had to work. If someone took away my medication I would get a psychosis within one day. And I guess people in concentration camps don't get their medication.
I just imagined myself naked, humiliated, spit on in a concentration camp. I read scientifical papers on Auschwitz and they said the staff member of Auschwitz played soccer with a dead baby. I know it sounds melodramatic to say this now. Or to do this comparison. We have a long way to go. The radical development are increasing in pace. Noone knows what will be in 50 years. But there are many dystopias. I get the feeling most societies barely learned anything from past genocides. Everything is repeating in different forms. Maybe my analysis is too pessimistic. It might sound like the human race is damned. But this can also be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Libertarian billionaires like Thiel are into transhumanism. They don't want humankind to survive. They want to end the human race. Well some billionaires survivie. And the peasants will be crushed by climate change, and falling societies. So maybe be careful what you wish for. There has to be some hope. But most people I read are highly pessmistic about the state of the country and the state of the world. Me too...
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