Do you think you were doomed from the start?

[ultrasharpy123456]

For example, I don't know anything about getting a job or a career. I'm still waiting for my mom to sign me up to college and hopefully I can make money from there. In my life however, even if I did get a job I probably would've been fired due to my suicidal nature and my destructive tendencies. I also talk to myself outl oud so that may have weirded other employees out.

 

[Darkover]

i think life follows a somewhat determined path from birth with choice our parents and we make leading to our demise or fortune

 

[OceanBlue]

Of course, all of it is predetermined.. life situations and how your brain will react to them. I was doomed from the start.

 

[thecolourgold]

I was definitely doomed from the start, personally. Put in the worst circumstances and my only choice has always been CTB. I've had chronic suicidal thoughts since single digits.

 

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

being born with ASD, potentially ADHD, and having a confusing childhood, I think so.

I think all those factors lead to me doing regrettable actions and because of that, I'm constantly suicidal. At the very least, maybe had I had better parents, or better knowledge on the consequences of actions when I was younger, I probably would not be like this right now.

 

[Ambivalent1]

The quality of your parents determines the rest of your life. If your parents are gluttons who shun reading and academics in favor of smart phones and tv, then you probably won't fall too far from the tree.

 

[imissmykitten]

probably, due to my parents choices

 

[Unwr!tten]

The quality of your parents determines the rest of your life.

I Can relate to this so hard. I had a very hard and traumatic childhood and because of that, I've had a really hard adult life, and I'm really trying to get to the point of wanting to continue living, but it's sososo hard, I cry so much and I have SN and Zofran and knowing i have that option helps me so much.

I honestly don't want to die. If I could, I would live, but life is so difficult for me that I don't know how much longer I can bare it and though I don't want to die, I see suicide as a viable option when I've exhausted all my other options. I know my death will devastate others, but when I'm finally at the end of my rope and ready to let go, I will have to be selfish.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I Can relate to this so hard. I had a very hard and traumatic childhood and because of that, I've had a really hard adult life, and I'm really trying to get to the point of wanting to continue living, but it's sososo hard, I cry so much and I have SN and Zofran and knowing i have that option helps me so much.

I honestly don't want to die. If I could, I would live, but life is so difficult for me that I don't know how much longer I can bare it and though I don't want to die, I see suicide as a viable option when I've exhausted all my other options. I know my death will devastate others, but when I'm finally at the end of my rope and ready to let go, I will have to be selfish.

We were cursed.

 

[GasMonkey]

Yep.
The cause is always the same: Genetics + Environment.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course, I was doomed as soon as I was forced to endure this burden. Existing truly is something hopeless and futile, it's a punishment to have the ability to exist in this world where there is unlimited potential to suffer. Existing in this reality truly is something undesirable because as humans we are slaves to suffering, slaves to this decaying flesh prison in such a harmful world filled with endless risks. And it's so dreadful how we cannot just easily exit in peace, I feel so much despair when I think of potentially being trapped here for many more years.

 

[StolenLife]

Yes. I've always been sensitive from a young age, and felt different. I am suicidal since I was 12. I got abused badly by my classmates which gave me distrust in people. I am not exceptional in anything, and despite being only 23, I already look like I've "hit the wall". There's only more misery awaiting for me.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

Nope. In school I was actually very promising in both the academic and athletics department. Unfortunately I was born to one of the most neglectful and abusive fathers in existence so my upbringing got messed up and now am contemplating on ending it.

 

[Deadweight]

With my parents, if I were born neurotypical female, l might have had a chance? ADHD male with autism? No chance.

 

[Kerock]

I would kinda agree that I was doomed from the start. The beginning of 2019/2020 things kinda started to get better and I thought I had a chance. But then covid and quarantine dashed any hopes for me. Aswell as some external events just sealed my fate and now I'm just looking to graduate from community college and then CTB or just CTB right then and there

 

[silent star]

I don't know about other people but I definitely was

 

[henry22]

Yes, I think I was doomed from the start. As I grew into a young adult, I vowed to not let my upbringing drag me down. I didn't want to be a victim. It seemed to work. I made the best of it. As life went on though, I realized just how much pain could be traced back to things that cannot be undone and sometimes no amount of coping helps. I thought I was over what happened in childhood but it comes back.

 

[unnormal9]

I dunno who 'we' is, but no. Shit just happened that caused pain for me.

 

[endofafoxtwo]

For example, I don't know anything about getting a job or a career. I'm still waiting for my mom to sign me up to college and hopefully I can make money from there. In my life however, even if I did get a job I probably would've been fired due to my suicidal nature and my destructive tendencies. I also talk to myself outl oud so that may have weirded other employees out.

I didn't even cry when I was born, I was so joyful and full of love for everything.
I could have had a good life if I was born to different parents. I had potential.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

I was.
Imagine being autistic and having that withheld from you, your whole life. I hate life.

 

[Embalmer]

For example, I don't know anything about getting a job or a career. I'm still waiting for my mom to sign me up to college and hopefully I can make money from there. In my life however, even if I did get a job I probably would've been fired due to my suicidal nature and my destructive tendencies. I also talk to myself outl oud so that may have weirded other employees out.

I probably was, I was a really troubled child even back when I was only like 8 years old and was already thinking of suicide even though my home life wasn't that bad at all. As privileged as I was compared to others it does seem like I was doomed from the start and overall just too mentally weak for this world.

 

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

I was.
Imagine being autistic and having that withheld from you, your whole life. I hate life.

I wasn't even diagnosed until I was 17 so that definitely could have been important knowledge for my parents if I was diagnosed much more younger.

 

[Disappointered]

I think I was fabricated by two dupes whose fashionably forward thinking veneer fooled a few people and silenced most of the others around them who were loathe to be viewed as retrograde or otherwise politically incorrect. The genetic soup wasn't great but if I'd been adopted by healthier parents I would've probably had an okay middle of the road life. But that's not what this evil world had in mind. So I suppose I was indeed doomed from the start. Cursed.

 

[tams]

With the brain I have, definitely.