Do you think you ever had a chance?

[slowlystarve]

do you think you ever had a chance of living a happy and fulfilling life or do you think you were born hopeless?

i think there were some decisions i could've made that would've led to a somewhat more pleasant situation than the one i'm in. who knows, though, might've been worse now if i did. i think the only way i could've lived a truly fulfilling life is if i was born into an entirely different environment with a different brain in a different society. if i was, i guess i wouldn't really be me though, so i guess i don't think i ever really had a chance.

 

[Comatose11]

It's possible that I could've lived a fulfilling life, but that chance is gone. My future is bleak from here.

 

[therhydler]

I think sooner or later my mind would have led me to where I am now. Though it could have been a bit later

 

[Anima]

I had every chance at a good life, but bad decisions as well as a crippling depression prevented that. I guess you could say that I stood in my own way.

 

[Eden2k]

Before I turned 6-years. After that-game over.

 

[Johnnythefox]

I don't think I was necessarily born hopeless, but the experiences I endured in childhood did not prepare me for dealing with life effectively.

 

[Severen]

No.

 

[Smilla]

Not a chance in hell.

 

[Jodes]

I don't think I had much of a chance.

 

[ReadyasEver]

Yes, but my 50's dealt incurable physical blows.

 

[Amira]

I did have a chance 3 years ago. But , I blew it.

 

[Severen]

I did have a chance 3 years ago. But , I blew it.

The game was rigged from the start. What made you "blow it" was you being you...

 

[Midnight]

My life is like a failure to launch ... Just not quite there in absofuckinglutely everything. I could write a book about everything that could have been but just nearly missed it. It's ridiculous ... I have no energy left to try even if i knew it would work out for once.

Life is no game so there is no restart. I gave my best for everything i did and handled situations to the best of my ability and knowledge that i had at that time. So i don't regret any of it ... Without pre-knowledge i wouldn't have done anything differently.

 

[15dec]

I think I was genetically predisposed to be more likely to be depressed/cbt, and combined with a pretty bad childhood I was probably hopeless from the beginning

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I was doomed from conception. Both parents are abusive sociopaths.

 

[Amira]

The game was rigged from the start. What made you "blow it" was you being you...

You're right, It was destined for my life to be fucked from the begining. I'm a fool to think it could have been different.

 

[TheNorthernSilence]

Not really, even if things had gone different and I would have done things different. But I didn't choose this body and I really hate the way it reacts to new people. I've tried so much but always failed. I feel like a total disappointment to my parents. I just never wasn't good enough in anything or to anyone. This is me and it's not going to get any better.

 

[Severen]

You're right, It was destined for my life to be fucked from the begining. I'm a fool to think it could have been different.

We are all just actors and actresses forced to play our parts in a movie. Just replace our scripts with our experiences, genetics, family, gender etc. Freedom is an illusion. I can trace everything about my life right now, back to the day I was born. Every decision I made, everything like it was all an intricate plan. Some of us get to play the good parts, most of us get the shit parts.

 

[Lil_Intro_Vert]

Was thinking about this earlier, chances are if i had broken up with my gf, or hadn't moved, or hadn't been born a christian, my life would've been so different, maybe better. But honestly even tho i have just about everything i want right now, i still constantly want to die, so maybe my head is just fucked

 

[Smilla]

I was doomed from conception. Both parents are abusive sociopaths.

Hugs.

 

[Xerxes]

My personality and brain keeps me from living a happy life. I'm unstable, but my life has been fulfilling, I'm just mopey about it and can't stop.

 

[Smilla]

We are all just actors and actresses forced to play our parts in a movie. Just replace our scripts with our experiences, genetics, family, gender etc. Freedom is an illusion. I can trace everything about my life right now, back to the day I was born. Every decision I made, everything like it was all an intricate plan. Some of us get to play the good parts, most of us get the shit parts.

This resonates with me strongly.

I can't tell you how many times I've said to myself that I'm a d-list actress working with a d-list script.

 

[Xerxes]

This resonates with me strongly.

I can't tell you how many times I've said to myself that I'm a d-list actress working with a d-list script.

At least you're an actress...I feel like that awkward 'extra' who just showed up to a party uninvited.

 

[TAW122]

I don't think I had a chance, when I was born with Aspergers and had an strong personality of wanting to win, wanting to get even (as a child), and also my life choices as well as events really sealed my fate. All there is left in my life is to obtain my method of choice, overcome my survival instinct, and an catalyst then it's over. So it's a both being dealt a crappy hand and then experiencing crappy events that ruined and fucked up my development as a human being that results in where I am today as well as just being myself (which isn't always socially acceptable).

 

[Jane Doe]

My lifes been a joke from start to finish

 

[Skathon]

Perhaps, but not in this world and not in this flesh.

 

[Lra888]

I think about this a lot. I feel that my mental illness led to many poor self-destructive decisions, but I also realize that I've tried very hard to have a good life but things went wrong. As a depressed/anxious person it's very difficult for me to get and maintain a job and full-time work is a requirement in this society to have any feeling of mobility and independence.

 

[LifeSick]

I probably had, who knows. But I had lots of opportunities growing up with a very supportive family, so i don't know how would I have a better chance. I guess I could have made better choices or I could have had better genes, whatever. I think I would have had a happy life if i died when I was 14.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

do you think you ever had a chance of living a happy and fulfilling life or do you think you were born hopeless?

i think there were some decisions i could've made that would've led to a somewhat more pleasant situation than the one i'm in. who knows, though, might've been worse now if i did. i think the only way i could've lived a truly fulfilling life is if i was born into an entirely different environment with a different brain in a different society. if i was, i guess i wouldn't really be me though, so i guess i don't think i ever really had a chance.

I agree. I was doomed from the start. Somehow it's wrong to say that about yourself but it's ok to say it about others while you sit atop your moral high horse.

 

[MMNZ91]

I had a chance - sometime when I was (24ish) 25-26 I destoryed it AND now I'm worse than ever before. God help me