My ex knew...he was a sociopath who deliberately hurt me knowing I was suicidal. It's almost like he got sick satisfaction from all the abuse, lies, cheating and trauma he caused me...and he knew he was the one driving me to suicide. Maybe normal people don't understand or see it. And I don't think they do it intentionally but a sociopath does.
I think sociopath is a great way to describe it tbh, I just find it so hard to process that people get so much joy out of pushing some one so much, the world's a shit place, well maybe not the word but more some of the people in the world
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I had a sociopathic boyfriend who was Latino, and there are many men in the culture who lie and cheat and intentionally drive women crazy and treat it as a game. This is not a racist statement, this is quite rampant in the culture. With this guy, his father cheated on and gaslighted his mother when he was young and he watched her go crazy, and when his parents divorced he moved in with his dad and ended up hating his mother and treating her like absolute shit. He learned from his dad how to play games with women, cheat on them, play sick mind games. He did it to me and several other girls in high school, would play us against each other, was subtly physically abusive, even kicked me out of the car once during an argument in the evening, left me in an industrial area. When we briefly got back together in my twenties, I didn't know he was living with a woman who he'd played against me in high school, and she called me and told me when he visited me he'd told her he was on a business trip, and that he'd gotten her pregnant and insisted she get an abortion, but he didn't show up for the appointment and the next month she found on the long distance bill he'd called me at that exact time. He used to gaslight me terribly when we were together in high school. He once bought a fake engagement ring and gave it to me, then immediately took it back and said he'd just wanted to know how I would react. For as long as I knew him, he used every manipulation tactic in the book. I think he would definitely get off on pushing a woman to suicide, he was all about the power trips. He wanted to become a cop, but last I heard he'd become a nurse, and I can only imagine how he must have gotten off on covertly abusing his patients, especially the females.