Do you think if I stopped my antidepressants cold turkey i would finally get the courage to ctb?

[lopbunny]

So I'm currently on anti-depressants, I still feel like shit all of the time and hate my life and have suicidal thoughts and all that jazz but I don't have the courage to go through with suicide because I'm afraid of the pain. I've overdosed on medication once (was able to play it off as not a suicide attempt, I didn't take nearly enough anyway cause I chickened out) and it was terrifying, the heart palpitations and tachycardia and tremors are something I never want to feel again. But i remember before that i stopped taking my meds for like a week. Do you think if I were to stop my antidepressants cold turkey, I would get the courage to commit suicide? I know my brain off antidepressants was like 10x worse than what it is now and its already bad so
Thoughts?

 

[Lostandlooking]

Getting off antidepressants made my suicidality worse in the past. I got really big urges to just drive into a tree and that kind of stuff. Hard to say if it would actually make it easier or if you'd get the courage. This stuff has a different effect on different people. For me, I think it possibly could push me over the edge but I'd rather not go through that again. Things might get that bad on it's own and that's when it'll happen. And if I still can't do it, it's just not my time. Nothing fun about that, no solution or comfort to be found. But that's just the way it is.

 

[Trisolaris]

It might make you feel worse or cause irreversible damage. Things getting worse is not a guarantee, trust me.

 

[ZardozOmega]

Don't. It will fuck you up.

 

[booray]

I think your survival instinct will kick in regardless of whether you go off your anti-depressants.

 

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

Don't. It will fuck you up.
how

 

[virtualoctopus]

You'll most likely go through very unpleasant withdrawal. If your goal is to make your life more unbearable then I suppose, yes.

Personally, I would spend time researching how to achieve a more peaceful end rather than trying to make my life so untenable that I am forced to make an impulsive and brutal escape.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

Definitely. I once did that.