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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
Unfortunately yes, it's more as in whatever problem I'm facing be it big or small, or stress for an upcoming event or whatever it's this thought that pops up like hey, you don't have to do this, you don't have to care at all, you can just end it right here right now and the world keeps spinning. It's a very freeing thought honestly.
Yes freeing but guilty about family
 
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TheBestFisch

TheBestFisch

Member
Apr 7, 2026
18
yes
 
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HFK40000

HFK40000

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
43
I think about it consistently. The only thing I think about more is my ex.
 
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groovygoober

groovygoober

Member
Apr 1, 2026
36
For the past 9 months, yes . Its been on and off for 6 years,but its been getting worse day by day .
 
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needtofindrightway

needtofindrightway

needtofindrightway
Jun 15, 2025
42
Yes I do. First thing on my mind when I wake up and last thing on my mind when I wanna go to sleep.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
845
Yes. It will be like this every day until I die
гифка о самоубийстве
 
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taker_of_insulin

Student
Aug 22, 2025
153
Everyday. Especially when I'm facing a problem I don't want to confront. Which is multiple times a day. This job is going to kill me. But I need insurance.
 
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danielplainview

Member
Mar 22, 2026
83
Every hour
 
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idk3210

New Member
Oct 26, 2025
2
Yes
 
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badtoad12314

badtoad12314

Member
May 4, 2026
15
If im not distracting myself yes its the thing that will eventually completely seep into my mind. its very rare for me to at least not think about it at least once a day. It doesnt matter the context its always there.
 
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Oiled Sandwich

Oiled Sandwich

Lazy Aspiring Demonolator
Jun 10, 2026
94
Very much so, yes.
 
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failedmind

failedmind

lonely
Oct 31, 2024
217
yes, all day everyday
 
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StupiderJuniper

StupiderJuniper

Overqualified Dog
Jun 21, 2026
28
Usually everyday, but I had a short and pleasant period of my life where I barely experienced it.
 
Serena 2026

Serena 2026

Student
Jan 15, 2026
113
As my "expiration date" approaches, I've been thinking about it daily... I want to get everything in order: I've already made my will, paid for the cremation, and printed 3,000 photos as keepsakes for my young grandchildren; I'm distributing cherished possessions to loved ones and setting up scheduled farewell emails; and the final step will be choosing a location or hotel...
 
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current93

Member
Jun 4, 2026
21
yes, daily for the past few months. before that, it was just scattered episodes.
 
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outrider567

Illuminated
Apr 5, 2022
3,033
More than that
 
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softfur

softfur

sweet dreams my angel, at last goodbye
Mar 22, 2026
75
yeah. i'm so boring. i wish i had a hobby or something normal but everything is a chore to care about. at the bottom of everything suicide is the only interest that defines me
 
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whocaresabouttrans

whocaresabouttrans

she had become like they are
Jun 23, 2026
19
More like 4 days of week tbh, more if my mood swings due to BPD
 
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never mind me

Experienced
Nov 7, 2022
235
Currently yes. It's ironic, because I felt quite good for several years and had no desire to ctb for quite a while. Thinking about it I realize that apart from short stints of suicidal ideation that didn't last longer than a few weeks I probably wasn't really suicidal for the last 15 years. But now health problems stop me from doing almost everything I enjoyed. I just want this situation to end.
 
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TakeMe2RainbowBridge

TakeMe2RainbowBridge

All of the stars have a reason
Sep 20, 2020
7
Yes
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,596
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passthisnote

passthisnote

Member
May 6, 2026
34
yes i mean it's no different than how other people think about their futures this is just what mine is
 
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