Do feel bad/ have a guilty conscience for using this forum?

  • Yes, often

    Votes: 6 10.2%
  • Sometimes

    Votes: 16 27.1%
  • No, never

    Votes: 33 55.9%
  • Maybe. Can't decide

    Votes: 4 6.8%

  • Total voters
    59
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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
5,177
Some people told me that in private messages. I have a guilty conscience because longterm members of this forum are described as monsters by the media. This guilty conscience contributed to me posting A LOT of recovery resources in the past. But I am too suicidal to continue that.

I think I go with "Yes, often" I am obsessed what people think of me and most average people would judge me for being on here I assume.
 
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Nobody Special

Nobody Special

Member
Jun 4, 2024
83
no
 
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PoisonedOxygen

Member
May 20, 2023
76
Yes because Its an alert for me that things are not going well for me mentally, and I feel bad for sitting here instead of doing something to bring it up, it's so addicting tho.
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,087
No.

I have no reason to feel guilty
 
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LostinTime24

LostinTime24

Discharged&Defeated
Mar 26, 2024
55
Nope only place where I can go that I'm not pretending.
 
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sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

Arcanist
Dec 14, 2023
456
Not at all. This is the only place where I can talk about how I'm feeling.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,194
No. I don't feel guilty for being a member of a such a great community.
 
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MyChoiceAlone

MyChoiceAlone

sleep deprived and/or drunk
Jul 23, 2023
1,205
guilty for what?
 
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sash

sash

f/uk seeking partner to vanish with
Oct 1, 2023
203
No. This place is the most real honest thing in my life.
The one thing that helps. The one thing that makes sense.
That helps.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,973
I have too many other things to feel guilty about which is partly what drives me to this forum in the first place. The only part I would feel guilty about when using this site is the fact that I know if most other members here only had my problems instead of their own then they'd be much happier with their lives. I'm probably better off than the average user and yet I still can't find a way through and I still feel the need to be here.
 
drearysunrise

drearysunrise

Member
Feb 3, 2024
44
Occasionally, but not because of the site itself. I just sometimes catch myself fixating and reading about other people all day as a way to avoid things when my own problems are too much for me to handle
 
Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
Why would I feel bad about connecting with people who are also tortured by this horror show?
 
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BruhXDDDDD

BruhXDDDDD

Student
Feb 18, 2022
166
Sometimes I do out of a strange sense of obligation, but I remind myself that I still agree with the site and need to stop letting other people have so much control over me.
 
_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

(they/he)
Mar 4, 2024
554
Sometimes. Mainly because I keep it as a secret from my partner. I tend to be open about everything else, so sometimes I feel like I'm doing something wrong.
 
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thenamingofcats

annihilation anxiety
Apr 19, 2024
453
Anyone that has a problem with members here can get a life. Funny coming from me and this lot.
 
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abchia

abchia

Student
Aug 28, 2023
177
No, this place brings comfort. But no one that knows me irl knows that i'm here so i feel safe and protected here.
 
sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
No, never. Why would I feel guilty? I don't feel guilty about anything tbh
 
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wCvML2

Member
Nov 15, 2021
455
No, there's nothing wrong with using this site. I don't care about what the media says because they tend to be extremely biased. People can have suicidal ideation for decades, so it makes sense that there will also be long term members who stay alive but still deal with ideation.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Visionary
Sep 9, 2018
2,975
Very occasionally, but not because of other people per se. I'm guilty of sometimes thinking that ctb is a young person thing - that you're supposed to have dealt with and accepted the crap in your life by the time you're my age.

I know that doesn't tell the full story, of course. There are health issues and financial problems and all kinds of things that affect older people. But I do feel like a bit of an irrelevant dinosaur sometimes.
 
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Agon321

Agon321

I use google translate
Aug 21, 2023
1,526
No.

I think I do worse things every day (from a society's point of view) than belonging to this site.
I don't feel any guilt and I don't understand why I should feel remorse.
 
HereTomorrow

HereTomorrow

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
504
Kinda?

I feel guilty for hiding my true feelings IRL and placing it here, not nesscarily using this forum in general. My participation in SaSu is a reflection of society's failure of how they treat the suicidial, often with forced treatment and traumatizing experiences at people's lowest points.

I wish for a better culture and a punishment free discussion of suicide and mental health, but for now, I'll be here.
 
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kyhoti

kyhoti

Looking for fair winds and following seas
May 27, 2024
293
Well, it's something that I hide on the the regular, simply because of the reaction I have gotten when I bring it up. So thats shame, the close cousin of guilt, coupled with fear...
 
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HarryCobean

Member
Apr 12, 2024
63
Only in the sense that I feel a bit bad about not really contributing. I mean, I joined a suicide forum and I hardly post on suicide even though I think about it a lot. I seem to spend all my time in the Offtopic section.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,722
No, I don't feel guilty for using this site. It's a place that has kept me going against all odds. If my rl was bearable enough I feel it would have helped me keep going for longer but there's only so much this site can do. What other people think of this place and their potential judgement towards me for using it is not my concern, they never walked in my shoes after all. They can never fully understand what this place means to the lot of us. I just make sure they don't find out and make my life harder than it already is.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,415
Not really. The closest I get is feeling concerned that minors could be on here. I'm not convinced it's the most balanced environment if someone is vulnerable or impressionable- not to say that all minors are and all adults aren't but I guess there has to be set limits.

But then, I'd disagree that this site encourages suicide. It simply doesn't discourage it as strongly as other places. I don't think I encourage suicide either. I think the majority of people here have good intentions. We try to be there for one another because we are all effectively in the same (sinking) ship.

That said, I'm not sure if I'd be happy if people in real life knew I was on here. A part of me thinks I would be ok with it. As a society, I think we should be talking about things like this. There again, I guess I can see why people might feel shocked that the site could be connected to young deaths and I still participated on it. Still, I imagine things like Facebook and Instagram were the platforms for bullying that caused some young deaths though so- people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.

I suppose personally, even if I knew about sources (which I don't,) I maybe would be hesitant about sharing something like that. That feels more like directly assisting a suicide. Still, I know how hypocritical that sounds because I did once put out a request to confirm a source I thought I'd found. Now gone- IC.

But, I largely try to avoid the people who hate the forum. I do feel bad for them- if they have lost loved ones but I wish they'd realise what this place means to the people who use it. It's quite possible that their loved one also found a lot of sollace and compassion here too. Still, it takes someone incredibly strong to see that I suppose. There was a mother once who came on here after her daughter CTB and was actually grateful that her daughter had found care and support here. She was amazingly brave.
 
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Crash_Bash_Dash

Crash_Bash_Dash

Nothing what I used to be
Apr 23, 2024
66
I only feel guilty about using this site if it takes my whole time of the day to hang around here because I feel I should still engage in something that's even a little uplifting.

It is a shame we cannot be open about topics and feelings expressed on this site about suicide and everything related to it. It feels so darn wrong that this is the only place for most people where they can freely and safely express themselves about the topic without fear of judgement or in the worst scenario, getting locked up in a psychiatric institute for saying these things out loud. It is utter carbage we aren't heard or even vaguely understood by the majority of population!
 
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sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

Arcanist
Dec 14, 2023
456
Very occasionally, but not because of other people per se. I'm guilty of sometimes thinking that ctb is a young person thing - that you're supposed to have dealt with and accepted the crap in your life by the time you're my age.

I know that doesn't tell the full story, of course. There are health issues and financial problems and all kinds of things that affect older people. But I do feel like a bit of an irrelevant dinosaur sometimes.
I don't know how it looks in general, but in my country the risk of someone CTB increases with age. The most common age group that choses to CTB is people over 85. So it's definitely not just a young person thing.
 
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Orange Cat

Student
Oct 19, 2023
142
I don't. I haven't done anything to feel guilty about. I don't think there is anything wrong with using the site if it helps you.

I don't care what the media says. They don't know anything about me . They can't make a fair judgement about someone if they have never even talked to them. I don't waste my time worrying about what strangers think about me.
 
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