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weni

weni

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I don't self-harm a lot, but I've realized it sometimes helps me calm down. I got caught by my parents before, and it was awful…They didn't even care tho

Lately, I've realized that the thigh area is good. Where do you SH? In what way?
 
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trashisland

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Aug 5, 2025
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when it gets too bad I cut my face and my neck bc it keeps me isolated since I dont want anyone seeing me until they heal. more commonly I starve myself as a punishment tbh, its easy for no one to notice but I feel the hunger pains
 
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EvisceratedJester

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Oct 21, 2023
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Used to cut my wrists, forearms, and behind my knees, but now I cut around my lower pelvic and mons pubis area since it makes it easier to hide. I also sometimes hit my leg until it bruises.
 
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weni

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when it gets too bad I cut my face and my neck bc it keeps me isolated since I dont want anyone seeing me until they heal. more commonly I starve myself as a punishment tbh, its easy for no one to notice but I feel the hunger pains
Do facial scars fade easily? I'm just worried you might suffer from them later
 
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trashisland

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Aug 5, 2025
140
Do facial scars fade easily? I'm just worried you might suffer from them later
I do them with a crappy knife I bought online with not much pressure so they're barely scratches even if they bleed. they fade very fast for me in three or less days
 
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soon4good

soon4good

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Dec 2, 2024
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I don't self-harm a lot, but I've realized it sometimes helps me calm down. I got caught by my parents before, and it was awful…They didn't even care tho

Lately, I've realized that the thigh area is good. Where do you SH? In what way?
I sometimes (nowadays rarely) cut myself, mainly on the forearm and I do it only when drunk or just having a really bad time and have nothing else to self-soothe with I guess. My main form SH I would say is just polysubstance abuse to an extreme with no regards for anything.
 
weni

weni

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Jul 9, 2025
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I sometimes (nowadays rarely) cut myself, mainly on the forearm and I do it only when drunk or just having a really bad time and have nothing else to self-soothe with I guess. My main form SH I would say is just polysubstance abuse to an extreme with no regards for anything.
Are there any side effects?
 
PrincessSaturn

PrincessSaturn

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Aug 6, 2025
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I keep it classic with some very methodical horizontal cuts to my wrist. I use different blades with different levels of sharpness depending on my mood. (I work as a teacher so I don't want kids or coworkers to see my scars). Not only does it calm + ground me, but I personally just love drawing very neat and organized lines on my skin. It's become somewhat of a nightly routine for me lately.
 
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INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
210
My SH looks like:
- Punching or slapping myself in the face
- Punching or biting my hands or arms
- Punching my legs
- Scratching myself

I did recently buy a 3-D "ouchie" toy with spikes that you squeeze down on and that hurts without actually puncturing or rupturing the skin. It works well when I can remember where it is.
 
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soon4good

soon4good

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Are there any side effects?
To substance abuse? Withdrawal symptoms, addiction issues, my mental health has certainly taken a beating and I feel like my brain just gave up at some point and I'm no longer really even able to function in society. I can't focus on anything, I can't remember things even remotely as well as I should and I would say I used to have great memory, I go on multi-day binges of being awake on too high doses of stimulants (overamp nearly every time) and don't eat, drink water or take care of myself for days then crash and "recover" from the lack of self care only to either do it again or if I ran out I'll just start drinking heavily while taking benzos and whatever other chemicals that I might have to just have a moment of not being sober so I don't have to face my problems and can feel ok. Hope this makes any sense lol..
I also do hit myself sometimes when I just feel like It.

Tolerance is a bitch and the cause of much of any substance abuser's misery.
 
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weni

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To substance abuse? Withdrawal symptoms, addiction issues, my mental health has certainly taken a beating and I feel like my brain just gave up at some point and I'm no longer really even able to function in society. I can't focus on anything, I can't remember things even remotely as well as I should and I would say I used to have great memory, I go on multi-day binges of being awake on too high doses of stimulants (overamp nearly every time) and don't eat, drink water or take care of myself for days then crash and "recover" from the lack of self care only to either do it again or if I ran out I'll just start drinking heavily while taking benzos and whatever other chemicals that I might have to just have a moment of not being sober so I don't have to face my problems and can feel ok. Hope this makes any sense lol..
I also do hit myself sometimes when I just feel like It.

Tolerance is a bitch and the cause of much of any substance abuser's misery.
Wow I'm really worried about you… How do you manage social life? Maybe I'm being too nosy? If so, I'm sorry. I just hope you get even a little better
 
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soon4good

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Dec 2, 2024
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Wow I'm really worried about you… How do you manage social life? Maybe I'm being too nosy? If so, I'm sorry. I just hope you get even a little better
I don't really socialize in real life anymore and have been doing so less and less for years now. A lot of the time I will go most days out of the week saying not more than a few sentences at most to another person. I've just gotten so numb to it all and generally just find it so difficult to get myself to believe that things can get better when they've never been good and it just feels like too much to deal with.
 
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soon4good

unfinalized
Dec 2, 2024
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that's one of my methods as well, the morning after is hell.
That's true. It's like the worst kind of feeling of either total emptiness or extreme anxiety and impending doom with paranoia.
 
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kagebunshin

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Dec 17, 2023
132
Classic cuts to the wrist/forearms. Since becoming a neet who lives alone, I've go no one to hide them from.
 
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vile samsara

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Feb 26, 2024
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nothing feels as good as slamming my head til it bleeds, but the concussion afterwards aren't fun to deal with. I've tried cutting decades ago during my school years but it wasn't close to the euphoric feelin that smashing my head gives me.

I also drink myself til I'm pissed drunk, or misuse my stimulants when I feel the guilt and shame of being too useless overwhelms me. The only reason I consider my use of drugs as SH is cause I end up pissing myself from being blacked out drunk or from being too wired from speed to notice. Also the liver damage from it ofc.
 
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