Do you see yourself making it to the end of the year?

[Sylveon]

Unless a miracle happens, I think this year is gonna be one for me.

 

[dimgobaith]

I don't think I'll see another spring

 

[tary]

I don't think I'll see another spring

This, it's next winter at the latest for me.

 

[abhi3000]

Nope...I don't even wann see my birthday, which is on aug.got my SN (500gm) a week before....today got ondansetron tablet(antiemetic)...just waiting for a perfect day and timing to CTB....all I needed is mental power to execute it properly without backing off..gonna follow pph instructions, wish me luck guys...see u there...toodles

 

[Daryl72]

Unless a miracle happens, I think this year is gonna be one for me.

No, with impending homelessness and no help or improvement for my severe OCD and Major Depression, I don't see me being around past August. Just with no means to carry it out, I don't know how I will finally be free of all this pain.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

Not sure

 

[Amish]

No further than July for me. I still have to find the equipment, either EB with hydrogen or SN.

Today I put an EB on my head, with no hose, just an elastic cord around my neck to see if I could do it...not sure, panic sets in quickly.

 

[Traveller12724]

I don't think so, I think I have lived my last spring

 

[pocket7]

I hope I will have the courage to end it this summer

 

[LostinTime24]

Facing becoming homeless sometime in sept/oct unless some other financial problems occur sooner. Holding out it I can somehow get my old job back and see if my va claim gets me service connected. If those workout I can maybe give it another year and see where I'm at.

 

[WorthlessMoron]

I want to say no, but I know deep down that I still can't get past my survival instincts. I'm really hoping I can just say fuck it and catch the bus in 2025. I dread thinking that I'd still be alive a few years from now.

 

[Agon321]

Unless some magic happens, then no.

In my case it is a matter of several months.
Maybe July, maybe August, maybe September... I don't know.
I'm not sure when I'll hit the wall.

Theoretically, I have all the resources.
The only thing I'm a little concerned about is the antiemetic because it's expired, but it should probably be fine.
Even if I wanted to order, I don't currently have a source, but I don't think it's a huge problem.

Generally I can CTB at any time.
This year will most likely be my last.
I can't imagine any other scenario.

 

[prisonerofexistence]

My method is amitriptyline OD and it requires me to be alone for at least 24hrs that's the hard part.If I was alone i'd probably did it sooner or later.

 

[astrichaoz]

Yeah, probably. I plan to be here till March or April, as much as I'd like to leave now. By the time I get my SN (so long as everything goes smoothly when I order it, I'm hoping, i dont know if I can still order via PayPal) it'll be close to around the holidays I'd imagine, and I don't want to ruin the holidays for my family. My sibling has a birthday in Febuary, so doing it in Febuary is a no go too. So sadly I got to wait a while, as much as I want this year to be my last

 

[Roadrunner]

Every single Xmas I think to myself "I'm shocked to be seeing another one" been suffering with anxiety and varying degrees of depression for 30 years now, yet here I still am. One day I will decide "enough is enough".

 

[maidens]

yeah. it's a stupid reason, but a game I've been really excited for is coming out in 2025, so I'm gonna live until then for that

 

[everythingoes]

yeah. it's a stupid reason, but a game I've been really excited for is coming out in 2025, so I'm gonna live until then for that

it's not a stupid reason at all. i hope you enjoy the game when it comes out i'm also staying till the end of this month to see the season finale of my favourite show

 

[Mywill]

I'd love to tell myself this joke when I am dead.

 

[rozeske]

Nope. Atleast I hope not but I don't know....I was so sure of being dead 6 months ago and am still here.

 

[Ironborn]

Not sure, I quit working after my first attempt, just living off my savings now, I think once they are gone or close to gone I'm going to try again, just depends really.

 

[Felodese]

Too ambivalent to really know

 

[cujoh]

Likely not. I'm due to return to my education in September after being away from it for many months and doubt I'll be able to handle the pressure and will probably spontaneously CTB. I'm mostly in passive ideation atm, I'm just waiting for something to set me off, I have a method and everything prepared for when this happens. My get out of jail free card!!!!!!!!!
The only reason I'm around right now is because I get to lock myself inside and drown in my own sweat for hours a day and it's certainly better than nothing.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Unless a miracle happens, I think this year is gonna be one for me.

hope i can narrow my focus,decide on a method and get it done before the dreaded Jan 1 2025. don't want to see 2025 plus my substances are getting much too old anyway. but i should've done it 5 years ago with LW SN or ordered N from A / D in 2019. i blinked 5 years passed . need to get to work on my suicide method 5 years passed like a blink me on this site , now have to make 5 hours count every day working on my suicide and 5 months to non-existence the ulitimate bliss . Why i put that image there years ago. it's like that only they have me programmed to do thousands of those arrows every day when i only need to focus on a 1 arrow or at most a handful but one main one hours per day . i hate existence . the monsters are banning SN in the U.S. the congress will pass a law soon showing again why this world is a pure evil abomination whoever would want to stay here has got to be heavily programmed