Do you see CTB as a way of taking power back from life??

[Finalnight]

I often see it this way, I'd like to know if anyone else sees it the same way as well.

 

[sewycidial]

Yeah, so many things aren't going my way and so many things i don't have power over in life. but having the option to kill myself feels like some type of power/control

 

[Aim]

I can understand that you see it that way, I wish i did to., But i cant say that for myself. I feel the opposite actually. That its more the survival of the fittest, and i didnt have the strenght to measure up to that.

 

[x_x]

yes. it is the only coherent act in a sea of chaos. the denial of the will-to-life is an act against nature, of which is the only act that can be said to preserve true autonomy.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I do. I'm powerless in almost everything in life. I'm more powerless than others. However, if I were to bring my own death, I'd be powerful again as I'd manage to kill myself despite society's efforts making sure that I don't die and my parent's effort at being strict and supervising me.

Nonetheless, I'm not powerful at all. I'm weak and hence I can't kill myself. Those who bring peace to their own lives are strong and I'm not strong

 

[donsie]

Taking power back would imply I ever had power to begin with. Life is pain, death is peace.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I do. I don't feel willing to wait and watch my body slowly fall to bits. Screw that. I'm hoping I can take charge of the situation and spare myself that indignity.

People may see it as being unnatural or against God but I'd say- nature doesn't give a shit when I die. In fact- the sooner the better. All I'm doing is consuming this world's resources and polluting it.

Humans aren't very natural either. Why are we ok with things like IVF and surrogacy that intervene artificially to create life yet, we're not ok with ending it on our own terms? Plus- we're very good at ending life if it suites us. Wars, genocides, capital punishment, factory farming and mass slaughter of animals, euthanization of pets at a vets or shelter. We're very good at getting rid of unwanted lives or, uselful lives we can eat!

As for God- well- I think it was sadistic to give us this level of consciousness/ self awareness and watch us suffer. God (if there is one) already realises I feel this way about them- so- there's really no saving me- no matter how I die.

Some people would say it was cowardly but I'd say- how do you define bravery? Bravery is all well and good if there is a cause. I do actually think someone holding on to life to see their children or grandchildren grow up and be there for them is brave. Someone just doing it to pay into a system that exploits and doesn't give a shit about them though? That sounds like stupidity and gullibility to me!

That's not to criticise those that want to do that. They surely have their reasons but- it isn't for everyone and we shouldn't be made to feel like it is. (Of course- it's more complicated than that. That notion would effectively destroy the modern world- if people no longer felt compelled to contribute to it. I think that is why a lot of us want out though...)

It's like the following scenario: Someone who jumps in to a lion enclosure to save a child that had fallen in I would say was brave. Someone who jumped in to get a selfie with the lions I'd say was an idiot. Same action, different motivation- different assessment of their action. Not everyone has the same motivation to stay alive.

 

[lotus11]

Yes absolutely. Life is completely unfair and uncontrollable. Even the strongest if humans do not really have power, but as a small thin white woman with an eating disorder and a 'nice' personality that people walk all over I feel completely powerless and it is true that taking my life would give me a moment of control and power.

 

[perfect_stranger]

Suicide is the ultimate act of self determination (if there even is such a thing) in my opinion. It's very poetic.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do see suicide as the way to take control over the inevitable, preventing all future unnecessary suffering as a result, it's the way to take control over an existence that was so cruelly imposed. In fact I see suicide as the solution to suffering, I see suicide as very logical to escape from this futile and undesirable existence, I just wish it wasn't so inaccessible and difficult to cease existing on our own terms.