Do you put on a painted smile?

[broken-soul]

Through times of worry and lacking money
I put on a painted smile
Through endless distress and loneliness
I put on a painted smile
Through pain and sorrow and feeling hollow
I put on a painted smile
Through years of struggle and so much to juggle
I put on a painted smile
Through agony and tears and facing fears
I put on a painted smile
Do you realise with your own eyes
That I'm dying behind my smile

 

[Silent.Tears]

Naa I'm not a good artist. Mine is printed, laminated and used a permanent glue to stick it to my face. Hired a bouncer to punch me in the face right after I put it on and right before the glue dried, for extra protection, you know..

 

[broken-soul]

Naa I'm not a good artist. Mine is printed, laminated and used a permanent glue to stick it to my face. Hired a bouncer to punch me in the face right after I put it on and right before the glue dried, for extra protection, you know..

Well least you haven't lost your sense of humour. It made me smile though ❤

 

[TraurigerClown]

Through times of worry and lacking money
I put on a painted smile
Through endless distress and loneliness
I put on a painted smile
Through pain and sorrow and feeling hollow
I put on a painted smile
Through years of struggle and so much to juggle
I put on a painted smile
Through agony and tears and facing fears
I put on a painted smile
Do you realise with your own eyes
That I'm dying behind my smile

I do the same again and again!
But its getting harder by the day and as soon im home...i can finally be what i am. So im just staying more and more cuz its easier that way

 

[broken-soul]

I do the same again and again!
But its getting harder by the day and as soon im home...i can finally be what i am. So im just staying more and more cuz its easier that way

I hear you. Literally just want to shut the curtains and hide so I can just be me without the world seeing how I really am. It's exhausting keeping up with the lie of pretending to be ok. ❤

 

[Lone_Traveler90]

I did the same for past 3 years, but recently I can't smile anymore. I am numb, I kinda feel like I am not in my body but floating above as observer.

 

[broken-soul]

I did the same for past 3 years, but recently I can't smile anymore. I am numb, I kinda feel like I am not in my body but floating above as observer.

I can totally understand that because it gets harder and harder each day to smile for me too ❤

 

[Rational man]

Poetic verse, beautifully written.❤

To add, i have never carried a facade and that may explain why in life i had just a few trustworthy friends and not multitudes of acquaintances. Sadly our world pretends to be ' happy' otherwise be judged failure.

 

[Searching2023]

Still way too often, yes. But it's getting harder and harder to do by the day. I guess everyone's physical capabilities have a breaking point and once you're there, you automatically care much less about putting up façades to the outside world.

 

[lost&lonely]

Although I laugh and I act like a clown
Beneath this mask I am wearing a frown
My tears are falling like rain from the sky
Is it for her or myself that I cry?

I am sick and tired of people asking how I am and having to force a smile and tell them I'm good. I think my fake smile must look pretty convincing at times especially when seeing doctors or in front of people I don't really know.

 

[Destiny Calls Me]

Through times of worry and lacking money
I put on a painted smile
Through endless distress and loneliness
I put on a painted smile
Through pain and sorrow and feeling hollow
I put on a painted smile
Through years of struggle and so much to juggle
I put on a painted smile
Through agony and tears and facing fears
I put on a painted smile
Do you realise with your own eyes
That I'm dying behind my smile

I could barely keep it up as time went on. I dont even try anymore. Especially since everyone around me knows Im depressed and suicidal. This poem speaks volumes. This is going on my signature. Thanks for sharing

 

[broken-soul]

I could barely keep it up as time went on. I dont even try anymore. Especially since everyone around me knows Im depressed and suicidal. This poem speaks volumes. This is going on my signature. Thanks for sharing

No problem ❤
I often write poetry just to unload it all from my mind. I find it hard keeping up the facade and when I'm alone I need to let the frustration out so I write it all down and turn my thoughts into poetry.

 

[TimetoGo!]

Through times of worry and lacking money
I put on a painted smile
Through endless distress and loneliness
I put on a painted smile
Through pain and sorrow and feeling hollow
I put on a painted smile
Through years of struggle and so much to juggle
I put on a painted smile
Through agony and tears and facing fears
I put on a painted smile
Do you realise with your own eyes
That I'm dying behind my smile

your damn right I do........every single day

 

[Exiled spirit]

Yes, sometimes I have to smile. It's sad and exhausting.

 

[outrider567]

Through times of worry and lacking money
I put on a painted smile
Through endless distress and loneliness
I put on a painted smile
Through pain and sorrow and feeling hollow
I put on a painted smile
Through years of struggle and so much to juggle
I put on a painted smile
Through agony and tears and facing fears
I put on a painted smile
Do you realise with your own eyes
That I'm dying behind my smile

'Agony and tears, dying behind my smile' that's me also

 

[Szinuus]

Sometimes, on uni.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have forced myself to fake smile many times before in my existence and every time I've done such a thing it's always felt so wrong. I cannot remember ever genuinely being content with existing, of course such a thing would be impossible for me. Every waking moment of mine has always been spent not wishing to be here and something so useless and terrible as existing could never be worth it under any circumstances for me. Just being conscious and aware of this world is such an unappealing thing and it makes so much sense for me to feel that way.

 

[broken-soul]

I have forced myself to fake smile many times before in my existence and every time I've done such a thing it's always felt so wrong. I cannot remember ever genuinely being content with existing, of course such a thing would be impossible for me. Every waking moment of mine has always been spent not wishing to be here and something so useless and terrible as existing could never be worth it under any circumstances for me. Just being conscious and aware of this world is such an unappealing thing and it makes so much sense for me to feel that way.

It definitely does feel wrong, I feel like I'm lying to everyone and myself. I can't imagine the pain with feeling like you do all your life. I remember the happier times and I long for them, or to be able to go back in time at times. Just feels right now and has felt for a long time that those happy times are never gonna be coming back. The world is a hell hole.

 

[Wannagonow]

Painted on smile. You betcha. Started wearing that years ago. In my world, people would rather see the smile than an emotion they don't want to (or can't) deal with.

 

[broken-soul]

Painted on smile. You betcha. Started wearing that years ago. In my world, people would rather see the smile than an emotion they don't want to (or can't) deal with.

Exactly this!! I mean I do get there are people who genuinely have a hard time and struggle with other people's emotions and some that just look clearly uncomfortable. But it's bloody hard trying to force a smile day in day out and tell people that yeah your fine when your literally dying inside.

 

[Ineedtodie]

Noabody really cares. It's all appearances. Society is a cruel place for kid to survive in. It's all luck. No more. We have little free will as it might seem. Peace to you. Sorry if this is irrelevant. I'm just saying we have little control but people drawing a picture of meaningless nonsense. Maybe there is hope. I don't know

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's more of a grimace to be honest... Can't say I act 'happy' or 'normal' all that convincingly but I don't show the full scale of what lurks beneath.