Discussion Do you plan on leaving a suicide note?

[rozeske]

I am torn between leaving a note or just catching the bus with out leaving a note.

Do you all believe it makes moving on better for the ones we leave behind if they get a suicide note? What about you does leaving one make you feel better and at ease?

 

[Darkover]

i won't leave a note because of what i would i put in it would be blaming my family for why my life failed like they never took me to the dentist and giving me weed from age 11.

it just depends on what you put in your note to them whether it helps them move on or not

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Most likely no bc I don't know what to write / say anyway, except I'm finally relieved form all agony and pain and all the unsolvable problems I had that cause me agony and pain.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

I would just tell my family how happy I am to be finally free, and that they should not feel sad because this is exactly what I want. They should be happy for me, and I would wish them well for whatever their future holds.

I don't like those overly emotional suicide notes, that contain too much drama. But I also don't want people lying about my state of mind when deciding to ctb - because too many people use this as propaganda to scare other people and demonise the act. I would want my thoughts and state of mind to be crystal clear and incorruptible by any dishonest people.

 

[cold_severance]

not exactly a note, but more like contact info to try to pit one pos against another.

 

[IWishToDie]

I am torn between leaving a note or just catching the bus with out leaving a note.

Do you all believe it makes moving on better for the ones we leave behind if they get a suicide note? What about you does leaving one make you feel better and at ease?

Yes, I think leaving a note is worth it. Just something basic, a thank you for the good times and to let them know you'll always be watching over them even if you don't believe in an afterlife. The people left behind will be here for another 20-30 years so it is worth easing their mind in your absence.

 

[Antoine_Roquentin]

I am not sure yet. I want to come clean and make my reasoning known. On the other hand, I am not sure if a few pages are sufficient to let anyone know why I really had no other way out. I feel that whatever I might write, it will be never enough or adequate. So I might let the act speak for itself.

 

[Slow_Farewell]

No need, i think. Just instructions about the chores I couldnt finish on time, but if everything goes according to plan, then I might not even have to leave that.
I'd rather gather them up for dinner or something right before, under the pretext of im going away for a while. Make it sound like im going to relocate or something and that it might be difficult to reach me.
Then i'd have a nice recent memory of them before I go.

 

[FuneralCry]

If I had a reliable method plan I'd just write one to explain that to cease existing is what I wished for and how now I'm at peace eternally free from all suffering. I believe notes could be a good idea if one wants to make it so those left behind are less likely to be left with as many unanswered questions or for them to have some sort of farewell or explanation, not that suicide ever needs to be justified in the first place anyway.

 

[nathan.melikov1@out]

if i do leave a note i'd probably just write something incredibly racist, i feel like that would be fun

 

[suicidesheep31.1]

I will only write the telephone number of my mother. So that she just knows it.
I will tell that there is enough money on my account to pay the eventual funerals.
And that's it.
Maybe adding a Sorry, and wish you all the best.

 

[Reuthry]

I will just leave a small note, telling that I have decided to ctb without being pressured to it and it is my decision and there is no one else to blame than myself. I may also write that I am in peace now.

 

[none_of_your_biz]

I personally am choosing to leave a note, aswell as a letter directed to my best friend who lives very far away i would ask my parents to send to them per post, in my note. Because if i didn't they would most likely not find out i died. It would be cruel to leave someone you've known for over 2 1/2 years now, wondering why i'm not responding to messages or posting, until they eventually either assume i abandoned them or they figure out i have died.
However i will not be sending a goodbye-message, as that would give them not only the chance but the responsibility to call an ambulance and or police to my home.
I also find it important to tell the people around my why i decided to end my life, and give everyone a personal apology for doing so.
And i would also like to express my preferences as to who i wish to attend my funeral and that i wish for my organs to be donated if possible.

 

[Adûnâi]

What point would there be writing a note in my case if nobody here can read English anyway? I guess, I would do it online - but nobody reads my blog anyway lmao.

 

[Shimidori]

Suicide note? I have a suicide book written by now.

I just have too much to say to every single person in my life. Too many deeply buried feelings, too many frustrations, but also too many thanks to share, a lot of which I would never be able to say out loud to them. When that inevitable day comes, I want them to see, just for once, the true "me", the real person that I am, the real person I always was. First of all, beginning at how melodramatic I truly am...

 

[pagedelight]

For one of my previous attempts, I wrote a suicide email and set it so that it would go off at a certain time. Since the attempt failed, I've gone back and reset the timer.
Writing the letter was incredibly difficult to do. Not just because it was sad, but because I genuinely had a difficult time trying to figure out what to say and how to explain my actions.

In a way, I feel like explaining your decision to someone else almost takes away the power to follow through with it, if that makes any sense?

 

[Clive]

I contemplated just saying "sorry" or smth, but I don't want a lie to be the last thing I leave behind. I'm honestly not sorry at all, which is more a personal fault than anything else.
Nothing feels genuine to leave behind, so I just gave up

 

[Adûnâi]

In a way, I feel like explaining your decision to someone else almost takes away the power to follow through with it, if that makes any sense?

Whenever I write something down, I tend to forget it :3

 

[Abyssal]

It'd be cruel of me not to. I owe those who care an explanation.

 

[F@#$]

I plan on leaving a note just to cause more pain for whoever, fuck'em the whole fuckin world.

 

[notherenotnow]

I wouldnt have anything to say in it. It would be just a waste of paper.

 

[viljalauss]

Suicide note? I have a suicide book written by now.

I just have too much to say to every single person in my life. Too many deeply buried feelings, too many frustrations, but also too many thanks to share, a lot of which I would never be able to say out loud to them. When that inevitable day comes, I want them to see, just for once, the true "me", the real person that I am, the real person I always was. First of all, beginning at how melodramatic I truly am...

same.. i mean i haven't written anything but i know it will be really long. and i'm pretty sure most of it will be directed at one person, and the rest to no one in particular. i am also worrying whatever i write is gonna end up being really melodramatic, so i think typing it out might be a good idea? but also i fear that might make it less authentic. i know that even those i trust with all of myself don't know just how horrible things are without them and i hope showing them helps them understand why i ctb'd and that it isn't their fault.

also i have a lot i need to write in terms of logistics :') what to do with my creative work, where/how i want to be buried, etc.

 

[almaPerdida]

I will leave a note to make things a bit easier to my family and friends. It's 9 pages long so far and i think i wrote everything that i had in mind hoping they at least understand why i took this decision and reassuring them it's not their fault. I think it's polite to leave a note behind, but i completely understand those who don't.

 

[Salmon can't swim]

l put "yes", but I'm not sure if texting "I love you", sending my favorite songs, and telling them not to blame themselves or try to find a reason counts as a note. I've tried writing notes, but nothing I say seems to be quite right, so I end up crumpling them up.
I also have journal entries I've accumulated over the years (despite losing a lot of them), and I'm torn between leaving those behind, and completely destroying them along with myself

 

[Redacted24]

Not a suicide note per se, but leaving something to let anyone that comes looking that I've voluntarily left for new opportunities, prefer my privacy, and am going off the grid.
That should be enough to deter authorities or others from spending too much effort trying to find me, and leaves the question of dead or alive much like Schrödinger's cat

 

[Catch-22]

I think about this often but then I realize that no one would even read it. I'm sure it would get thrown away in the trash and my ashes would probably get put in a box somewhere in a garage.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

Yes. I already have one written. Once I get ready, all I have to do is sign it.

 

[baabbaabbaab]

Really no ID. I want it to be clear to avoid any complications for my family. I want to give exhaustive meaning to my suicide for whoever is interested : I don't want my extended family or my parents' friends, neighbors... to peddle the false idea that I was depressed or out of my mind. I want people to know I loved and cherish life but that my suffering was unbearable.

But on the other hand, I want to leave just as I've lived : alone. I want to remain a sad and tragic mystery.

 

[Neverfeltdeader]

I worry about not leaving a note. I procrastinate a lot and one of the hardest parts of preparing to ctb is the note. I freeze every time I try to write one, but I certainly want to leave one explaining why I did it, how much I loved everyone in my life, and also try to get people to understand that's what I wanted all along.

 

[rozeske]

73 votes! it's almost equal but inclining a little towards leaving a note. Thank you all for participating