I said this before somewhere in this site, but I was pretty deeply affected by Etika’s suicide. The thing is, he really was on a downward spiral in the weeks leading up to his death but some of his more toxic fans just ate it up and kept calling him a clown and spamming the clown emoji.
There was that one day when the police showed up at his apartment. Some idiot called them on him thinking he was a danger to himself. He reacted by locking himself in the room and being terrified enough to not want to let them in at all. He even broadcast this live on Instagram. People assumed he was just being crazy and not wanting help but he was also a black man in New York City who had just been reading a lot of articles about “swatting”, the practice of calling in fake swat team calls to people’s houses. People die from those and he was just defending himself and didn’t want to be one of them.
That was just one example of how poorly he was treated. His mental breakdowns were the subject of “Drama Alerts” by other youtubers which just made me sick. To think this all started because he kept getting copyright struck on YouTube and all he wanted to do was watch shows with his fans.
Even though I might be one of the few people to recognize that this was his choice and he had his right to it, I still miss him. As lame as 2020 was, there have still been at least a couple of things he would have been really excited about. For example, every Smash character that came out after his death: Byleth, Min Min, Steve, and Sephiroth were all characters he would have been so excited for and I really just want to know what he thinks of their inclusion...