OP ...you look perfectly fine to me, stop torturing yourself ;) I permit myself this outrageous comment because I also went for plastic surgery twice (2 fails in the end), that didn't help my insecurities. I still am not confident, never been, but slowly forgiving about my aspect. I received some of the loveliest comments from SS members I estimated for their look too, also on some personal hate features (like ugly scar, for some it's charming), whereas before, never a feedback, which didn't help to boost the ego. Beauty is mostly in the mind ...and the eye of the beholder. Thus subjective. It's very harsh to judge yourself while you could be fully accepted by somebody...
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Well, you could look like a chipmunk, I would still worship you for the red hair : massive turn on here! (...all colors - red/auburn/pink/green/blue - the bests in that order. Just not yellow - blondes own the trademark)
it's about the induced appetite, right ? Otherwise, this is the easiest problem solved, if you're motivated. If used to psychological suffering, it can be done finger in the nose. Last year, I was worse than your weight (95-96) then lost 15 kilos in 2 months, by water fasting 4-5 days in a row (yeah, I'm extreme), on & off then rest in between, without much planning (the 2 first days are the most difficult then you don't feel a thing, not hungry anymore - plus when I wanted to crack, I would put plenty of stuff in my mouth for the taste, just not swallow and spit, tricking my organism, which worked well. It's the ingestion which triggers more envy so the word is : discipline, then it's manageable). I didn't regain for a long time (jusqu'à une pire dépression où j'ai volontairement lâché prise pour tout) because my body lost the habit to binge eat as a compensation mechanism to poor life/mental hygiene. I will repeat the operation, starting tomorrow ...plus eventually train, high intensity (méthode Ropers si ça te dit quelque chose)