Most of the time i feel intimidated by my parents on the rare ocasions i'm with them. I don't react to this since years. It's just the way they act, or if they behaive good and flattern me, it's going to be fake or is just related to material stuff, not who i am. Nobody else ever had the position or the balls to intimidate me, outside of my closest circle of relatives.
Last time i felt that way from others outside of that circle, was a week ago. There were two guys inside a restaurant and they saw me and a friend of mine looking at some address. One of them knows us, so they started to talk about us, speculate what we are doing. Chances are what they saw is still in conversations to many more dumb idiots and will be for weeks, trying to figure out what we were doing there. If it wasn't for my friend, i wouldn't even noticed them. So i sholud return the favor during the next half an year and give them a reason for a real talk.
While working in police, at school - ya it happened all the time. Sometimes i didn't react, sometimes it went violent. But really during the years i learned how to use violence, how much of ti and to whom.
