throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
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I agree so much... For me the best way would be to be shot. If we're talking about the same psychological pain, of feeling trapped, humiliated, powerless, like being 2 people in one body, one willing to be free and the other one a demon who clings to life no matter what, like one is betraying one's very essence of being.. well then.. that's probably the worst feeling in the world. It took me months to recover. And by "recover" I mean to come back to a comfortable state of illusions, distractions and to find some resignation and peace.I'll never forget the pain from my failed hanging attempt. To this day, the sensation of that pain is still engrained into my psyche. Unless a suicide method is: one moment, you're alive, and in the next second you're dead, I can't bring myself to end it. My grandfather died last year from his COPD, and being with him...seeing him slowly suffocate to death as his lungs failed him, well...yeah. No matter how bad life may be, that survival instinct is what still forces me to live. Dunno how to overcome it, unless it's an instant death that isn't terrifying. And for me, the only method that could work is firearm suicide. However, I can't bring myself to pull the trigger if I for sure know I'll be shot. Therefore, Russian roulette is the only thing that could work for me, and isn't all that terrifying to me. One of these days, I won't have to be playing this game anymore.
Care to elaborate on your failed hanging?I'll never forget the pain from my failed hanging attempt. To this day, the sensation of that pain is still engrained into my psyche. Unless a suicide method is: one moment, you're alive, and in the next second you're dead, I can't bring myself to end it. My grandfather died last year from his COPD, and being with him...seeing him slowly suffocate to death as his lungs failed him, well...yeah. No matter how bad life may be, that survival instinct is what still forces me to live. Dunno how to overcome it, unless it's an instant death that isn't terrifying. And for me, the only method that could work is firearm suicide. However, I can't bring myself to pull the trigger if I for sure know I'll be shot. Therefore, Russian roulette is the only thing that could work for me, and isn't all that terrifying to me. One of these days, I won't have to be playing this game anymore.
Yes, otherwise their is no deep reason to be alieve. Its irrational/subconsciousnessMost of us would have already ended our lives if it wasent for the survival instinct. It's what keeps humans alive, the natrual impulse to survive.
Care to elaborate on your failed hanging?