Discussion Do you have posts you want to write, but have no energy to? Also replying to others' posts.

[NutOrat]

I want to discuss quite a few things, but my head is mush and my limbs are barely moving half the time. I wish I could write more freely, faster, not take upwards of an hour to write a single post. Aside form posting, I envy creative people who are depressed and suicidal but still pump out work after work, I can't imagine how they have all that drive.

Also replying to other people's posts. I wish I could do it more, but often all I can do is read and leave an emote. It's not just lack of will, it's often having trouble finding words and fearing they might come off the wrong way. How about you?

 

[darksouls]

my brain is damaged by the sepsis and a lot of medication and it is much more difficult for me to express myself in English than in my native language

 

[loakms8]

same, i cant even get out of bed

 

[FadingSnowFake]

A bit low on energy these days, yes. I also feel almost guilty for having been here longer than expected, saying hello and goodbye as members come and go. But very much appreciative for a place to come to, where even reading and emoticons can make my day.

 

[Irisse]

Sometimes I feel this way also, I want to help but I don't know how to put what I want to express into words. And I often find that somebody else managed to express what I wanted to say much better so I don't bother.

 

[Greyhawk]

I'm exactly the same. I'm somewhat critical of myself so I'll often end up writing writing posts but then deleting them. That's why I have done most of my posting after I've been drinking. But most of the time I don't even have the energy to start typing because I'm not very good at articulating my thoughts and English isn't my native language.

 

[NutOrat]

Actually, even just reading and leaving emotes is exhausting. I want to interact with people, but it's like draining. Every little action I do is draining me more of any energy or will to do anything. I'm too fucking lazy to just get up undress and go to bed. Even the 10 second rocket launch countdown method doesn't work anymore. Please move please fucking move

 

[GreaterThanLessThan]

I wanted to make a 100% Orange Juice thread but I doubt anyone here plays it

 

[Grimlock]

I come across posts I want to reply to but I end up getting a little frustrated for a few reasons. Sometimes I have the right Idea but it is poorly structured or worded and in the end it would just be hard to read or nonsensical. Another reason I end up avoiding replying to threads/posts is the lack of a unique or original response, saying something everyone else has already said. The unoriginal reply thing bothers me more because I just end up thinking of that gif with all the buzz lightyear toys on the shelf and then I feel like crap. I think even this reply would fall into that category, not that everything needs to be unique and stand out all the time, it is just that it often feels pointless to me.

 

[Pluto]

 

[nobody_oac]

This entire thread! Since I have been here, which hasn't been long, I have contributed next to nothing. I see so many things I want to respond to, but am ultimately afraid of offending, coming off wrong, etc. I have written and deleted more on this site than I have anywhere else.

I remember one post I had typed up four paragraphs of something I thought was important or germane. I thought it was carefully constructed, beautifully articulated, and just a well thought out contribution.

I deleted it all. Erased it. "No one cares what I have to say. Never have, so why would they now. I'll just go back keeping my mouth shut."



Edit: After thinking about it for a moment. I may not have the courage to convince myself of it, but I can sure as hell try to help.

This is a community of decent people fighting a hard fight. You deserve to be heard, your feelings matter. Not everything is gold and putting yourself out there is hard.

But this random person on the internet will listen to you and does care.

 

[Manaaja]

Billions.

I like to start talks, but I hate to finish and continue them. Saying "Hi, how's it going?" takes no energy or strength. It's like throwing a ball once. But continuing a talk is like a tennis game. I can do it when I have energy, most of the time I don't have energy, and when I do, I have a million other things to do that are more important.

Especially, since we live in times when I can say "I used to like X but I don't like it anymore because of reasons" and a million people will attack me for not loving Y and another million will hate me for "hating X for no reason and never giving it a chance".

I fucking hate school and teachers. They always told me that I have zero reading comprehension while 99% of class and the world will read "I love dogs" and think "Oh, so you hate cats?!". Those fucking pedoschools and pedoteachers should stay the hell out of people's lives.

You are probably great at so many things, and you were just gaslighted by teachers and school system to believe you are not.

This is what my notifications look like. No, I don't have energy to do anything about it, until the situation with that abusive bastard gets better.

 

[NutOrat]

I fucking hate school and teachers. They always told me that I have zero reading comprehension while 99% of class and the world will read "I love dogs" and think "Oh, so you hate cats?!". Those fucking pedoschools and pedoteachers should stay the hell out of people's lives.

You are probably great at so many things, and you were just gaslighted by teachers and school system to believe you are not.

So, so, SO fucking real! Still, I do often doubt my intelligence, I was always mentally a few years behind all my peers, but it is also likely that these thoughts were planted in me by grownups who thought they could just do whatever, not thinking of how it would affect people later in life.

This is what my notifications look like. No, I don't have energy to do anything about it, until the situation with that abusive bastard gets better.

I don't know what your situation is, but I hope you're safe.

 

[ScaredCutter]

getting the right words out is such an annoying struggle. its either coming off as bland, empty and inconsiderate or just the wrong wording for something, i make such incoherent replies and rambles (on other stuff) i usually need to correct myself because i'll make no sense.
persuasive texts has and will always be my biggest struggle because of this

 

[trying ungracefully]

I'm the opposite, I have the energy to type a lot most of the time. I have so much to say that I end up deleting posts half way through on here because I get anxious that people will think I'm weird for sharing so much. I also think that I ramble when typing and like no one cares to read it. I'm updating a thread for my social anxiety exposures every now and then and it's mostly for myself but every time I post in it I think im weird to others.

 

[stardewwindceres]

I want to discuss quite a few things, but my head is mush and my limbs are barely moving half the time. I wish I could write more freely, faster, not take upwards of an hour to write a single post. Aside form posting, I envy creative people who are depressed and suicidal but still pump out work after work, I can't imagine how they have all that drive.

Also replying to other people's posts. I wish I could do it more, but often all I can do is read and leave an emote. It's not just lack of will, it's often having trouble finding words and fearing they might come off the wrong way. How about you?

I wish I could post all that I want

 

[corpse]

I have the energy to read and respond to threads, but not to post my own.

 

[NutOrat]

I have the energy to read and respond to threads, but not to post my own.

Do you think it's energy related? Maybe you're afraid of making your own threads for certain reasons? When I make threads I feel more pressure and like there's higher risk of judgement. I don't know how to explain it.

 

[corpse]

Do you think it's energy related? Maybe you're afraid of making your own threads for certain reasons? When I make threads I feel more pressure and like there's higher risk of judgement. I don't know how to explain it.

I would like to write my own threads, but summarizing my thoughts in a text is incredibly exhausting.

 

[Tiny Little Tree]

yeah

 

[somewhatdeadly]

same i hardly breathe atm.