Do you have hope?

[EssenceFocus]

Yes

 

[Deleted member 1465]

If I am realistic, then no. My condition will only deteriorate. If I follow that deterioration to it's logical conclusion, then my death will be the most painful and hideous demise it's possible to imagine. LOL.
So. The only logical conclusion is either suicide (which presents it's own unique issues) or to be wilfully delusional, and attempt to live life as well as I can until my inevitable conclusion.
My only 'hope' would be a benign and treatable diagnosis.
Before the virus and the incipient collapse of society, that was a slim chance at best, and only with my devious manipulation of an already failing health service.
Now?
I believe the saying is 'Pissing into the wind.' Which is strangely appropriate.

 

[Futile]

Sure, hope to die once and for all

 

[elzo5678]

None whatsoever.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I keep hoping that I will somehow die before I kill myself.

 

[YellowSneakers]

I'm occasionally able to delude myself for short periods of time..... If that's what you mean.

 

[Caspers]

Maybe 5%. 10% on a good day

 

[TrailerTrash]

Ha Sorry, just internalizing how low the likelihood of having hope would be in my life. So that would be a no ...

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

Hope is the problem. I keep hoping things will get better. They don't.

I am working on killing the hope once and for all because that is what drags me down when what I hope for doesn't happen. More disappointment, boo!

 

[Disappointered]

Not really and that's part of what makes each 'new' day more and more miserable. Realistically there's nothing I can hope will happen or go well enough to resolve the misery. I'm failed and can't recreate myself now unless I get all my memories erased and have new ones implanted.

"There is a light that never goes out"...which, as others have observed, turns out to be the problem for people truly beaten down by life. I guess all I can do is numb my mind and body every day and try to be as good as possible to my partner before putting myself down and leaving the little wealth I have to her.

 

[Marktheghost]

No.

 

[Lynh]

Ninguna esperanza

 

[XYZ]

I have already lived half of what is a normal life span and things have always gone from bad to worse. I am sure, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that the only way for me is down. Way, way down... There is no hope left. Only the certainty of a worse tomorrow.

 

[lonelymountaingirl]

I have 'hope' written in many different places I see all the time, my SI trying to hang on. Its grip is slipping but I keep them up because what if.