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tor100

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Apr 19, 2019
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I have that feeling all the time, and suicide is like apoptosis which wants to throw me from this world. do you have similar feeling?

 
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myrtaryniel

myrtaryniel

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Mar 28, 2019
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That's exactly what I think lol. Sometimes I think my suicide thoughts are just part of the natural selection because of how fucked up me and my whole family genes are.
 
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favourite

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Feb 15, 2019
191
Im the worst features of my whole family combined.
 
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headinghome

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Apr 11, 2019
205
no..... I feel like something happened and I got switched into a different reality a horrible one where I'm suffering immensely
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
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Yeah that is why I want to kill myself, I am allergic to almost everything I got tested for about 30 foods and am only not allergic to 4 of them, I am also allergic to pollen, dog, cat, dustmites, horse and the list goes on, I am a male but have smaller bones than any other male and my wrists are even smaller than my cousins 10 year old step daughter I have never seen anyone with smaller wrists than me.

I have scoliosis, a back injury so I can never workout again not even run
I am colorblind
Have acid reflux
psoriasis
and the worst is my throat problem so it takes me like 20 minutes to eat a coinoffers cheeseburger from Mc D and my throat problem is the biggest reason I am want kill myself because it ruins my life, I can´t work I can´t socialize or do anything because of it.

So yeah I am the definition of genetic trash if I had a normal functioning body I would give life a chance that is why I envy almost everyone on this forum because I have mental problems and depression/ am apathetic but I have ALL these physical problems aswell so if I had a normal functioning body I could cope with bodybuilding, food, drugs etc. but I can´t because of my inferior body and that is why I am going to kill myself tomorrow fuck this DEFECT BODY!
 
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JadedGray

JadedGray

Life Eternal
Jul 24, 2018
991
Yes, which is why I know that suicide was always my only option. I was doomed from the start. I have more health problems than both my boomer parents put together. I have always been sickly even as a baby. Along with health problems (physical and emotional) my physical appearance is ghastly and I have no skills or abilities. I didn't inherit anything in the gene compartment. I'm a genetic dead end. I'm only glad that my genes will die with me and that I will never breed. I wouldn't want anyone to have to go through what I did because they were cursed with my genes.
 
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Mofreeko

Mofreeko

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Apr 7, 2019
478
Yes. A thousand times yes.
 
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Alan James

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Apr 11, 2019
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I am a bio-waste, degenerate, 100% genetic trash. It's even funny, maybe I should work in a circus? I literally do not consider myself human, biologically. I have at the same time a whole collection of physical and mental diseases, I am a terrible freak, incredibly stupid, it is hard and painful for me not only to walk - it is hard to lie on the bed, I am allergic to many things, I can't do literally anything, I'm even hard to dress and eat. I have a terrible disgusting voice that annoys everyone. When guests came to us, my parents asked me not to leave the room because they were ashamed, once I even had to hide in the closet before the guests left. Now I understand what the word "untermensch" means.
 
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TheFinalCountdown

TheFinalCountdown

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Mar 25, 2019
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Yes, along with at least 80% of the population.
 
lululoo

lululoo

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Dec 15, 2018
558
Yeah that is why I want to kill myself, I am allergic to almost everything I got tested for about 30 foods and am only not allergic to 4 of them, I am also allergic to pollen, dog, cat, dustmites, horse and the list goes on, I am a male but have smaller bones than any other male and my wrists are even smaller than my cousins 10 year old step daughter I have never seen anyone with smaller wrists than me.

I have scoliosis, a back injury so I can never workout again not even run
I am colorblind
Have acid reflux
psoriasis
and the worst is my throat problem so it takes me like 20 minutes to eat a coinoffers cheeseburger from Mc D and my throat problem is the biggest reason I am want kill myself because it ruins my life, I can´t work I can´t socialize or do anything because of it.

So yeah I am the definition of genetic trash if I had a normal functioning body I would give life a chance that is why I envy almost everyone on this forum because I have mental problems and depression/ am apathetic but I have ALL these physical problems aswell so if I had a normal functioning body I could cope with bodybuilding, food, drugs etc. but I can´t because of my inferior body and that is why I am going to kill myself tomorrow fuck this DEFECT BODY!
I think physical problems are actually pretty common on this forum. I've got some big ones too.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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I think physical problems are actually pretty common on this forum. I've got some big ones too.
I don´t know, it would be interesting to make a poll to find out, though I have heard that a few had terrible physical illnesses on here.
 
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lululoo

lululoo

Mage
Dec 15, 2018
558
I don´t know, it would be interesting to make a poll to find out, though I have heard that a few had terrible physical illnesses on here.
I just made a poll. I meant to put it in this forum but I'm dumb and I accidentally put it in off topic so fewer people will see it. I am overly mad at myself about this now.
 
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Nameless101

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Apr 25, 2019
10
Yes. Terrible feeling.
 
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elcade

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Apr 13, 2019
59
ooh yes ... so much
 
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Escaper Boy

Escaper Boy

累坏了...
Apr 11, 2019
245
I refuse to transfer my DNA to next generation. Even though there's nothing defective about my gene, I despite my family with passion. I hate my racial background. I hate the fact my body was made from someone that I hate.

I feel so disgusted. This disgusting DNA must perish together with my death.
 
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Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,073
Yes, that's how I feel about myself.
 
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TheGoodGuy

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I just made a poll. I meant to put it in this forum but I'm dumb and I accidentally put it in off topic so fewer people will see it. I am overly mad at myself about this now.
I hear you I try and sneak as much into the Sanctioned Suicide as possible since otherwise nobody will see it.
 
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headinghome

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Apr 11, 2019
205
I don´t know, it would be interesting to make a poll to find out, though I have heard that a few had terrible physical illnesses on here.
yes… There are two reasons that people contemplate suicide one is horrible physical and one is horrible mental… I can tell you coming from the physical side that if you can't move your body if you've lost your independence if you've lost your abilities… If you can't even walk or drive…or do any of the things that you used to love that this is a living hell…
I know how it is to try to reason with your brain… And it's not always easy… I think when you're younger ...you think that everything is always going to be awful..... but nothing in nature stays the same and for those of you who have all of your physical abilities I encourage you to just try to have at least one second of peace or joy… And be glad that you're not physically impaired… Because this is the worst this is hell this is torture this is horribly unfair
 
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TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
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yes… There are two reasons that people contemplate suicide one is horrible physical and one is horrible mental… I can tell you coming from the physical side that if you can't move your body if you've lost your independence if you've lost your abilities… If you can't even walk or drive…or do any of the things that you used to love that this is a living hell…
I know how it is to try to reason with your brain… And it's not always easy… I think when you're younger ...you think that everything is always going to be awful..... but nothing in nature stays the same and for those of you who have all of your physical abilities I encourage you to just try to have at least one second of peace or joy… And be glad that you're not physically impaired… Because this is the worst this is hell this is torture this is horribly unfair
I sometimes daydream about if I had a normal functioning body for just one day like one of my childhood friends who has a strong body, no allergies, no physical or mental problems and imagine how amazing that day could be there would be so many possibilities.
 
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throwaway123

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Aug 5, 2018
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yea one of the main reasons why I want to die. If it wasn't for that I might even try to live.

I sometimes daydream about if I had a normal functioning body for just one day like one of my childhood friends who has a strong body, no allergies, no physical or mental problems and imagine how amazing that day could be there would be so many possibilities.
I do that all the time.
 
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soda_pressed

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Apr 8, 2019
231
Allll the time. Mental health problems run in my family, and it's one of the reason's why I'm never having kids. Don't want to pass on my defective genes
 
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favourite

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Feb 15, 2019
191
I'd kill for genetic recombination giving me at least half-decent face, but I turned out ugly as SHIT, lol.
 
Gooseygoes

Gooseygoes

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Apr 9, 2019
20
I don't think of myself as trash, instead I tend to view most of humanity in that light. Most people have no idea just how unexceptional and awful they are. I'm f*cking fabulous which is the reason I don't belong on this earth.
 
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HelensNepenthe

HelensNepenthe

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Jan 17, 2019
835
Feel more like a woman but the situation of me ever transitioning would never happen. I've never felt like a man in my life.
 
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spanishguy22

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Apr 9, 2019
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I don't think of myself as trash, instead I tend to view most of humanity in that light. Most people have no idea just how unexceptional and awful they are. I'm f*cking fabulous which is the reason I don't belong on this earth.
We share the view.
 
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Alan James

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Apr 11, 2019
408
It is disgusting and unfair that we cannot choose our own body what we want, its gender and characteristics. How in general should live those who lost in the genetic lottery? It's like a sentence before birth, a life sentence for crimes that you did not commit. And how the hell will a person with bad genes live if he cann't work, can't do anything and suffer every day, but doesn't receive any welfare? What should he do? With all this, there is no euthanasia and assisted suicide. This is terrible.

If there was a virtual reality indistinguishable from our reality in which it would be possible to choose any body and live in it (completely disconnected from my body and its sensations), then only I could try to live.
 
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noonetoo

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Mar 7, 2019
386
I truly hate who I am. And I'm not surprised of all the people I've made hate me along the way. I can't wait for the darkness inside of me to fully consume me and take me away.
 
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