Do you have depression?

[Hope:-)]

Is it depression if you have specific reasons to do it as opposed to just a general malaise? I don't think I'm depressed. I'm just scared, but I don't feel all that depressed. I don't think I've ever really been depressed.

What about you? Do you think you have depression or is your desire to ctb something quite separate from this?

 

[Painless_end]

Depression back many years ago got cured later

Now just general unending sadness and existential misery

 

[hellispink]

Yes. I have deal with depression since I was 11 years old. I also have a personality disorder (bdp). I also have a bunch of other stuff unrelated to my mental illnesses

 

[MelancholyMagic]

I'm confident a shrink would say I'm depressed. But depression is a vacuous term which signifies nothing. Anyone who is averse to life could easily receive a depression diagnosis.

If anyone has the time, I would highly recommend this video about the mental health industry, and how being diagnosed with depression doesn't mean much: (Video Name: Psychiatry & Big Pharma: Exposed - Dr James Davies, PhD)

 

[FuneralCry]

I want to ctb as I simply hate existing and I do not see life as being worth living. Existing is a form of torture and I would like to be free from the prison that is the human body. I think that being depressed can be perfectly rational in a world like this, I am not mentally ill, I am seeing existence for what it is. The rest of my life will be only suffering and it makes sense to want to escape it. There is no point to existing until old age just to die anyway. Non existence is objectively better than life, if I am dead then nothing can hurt me.

 

[xo777]

Yes and bpd

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

For several months I was clinically depressed… Felt like a medical condition… Was only sleeping about an hour or two a night and my head was in a fog… Now I'm just emotionally depressed… Life circumstances have left me trapped…

 

[Foresight]

No, I don't. I have no idea what it's like to have depression. I just observe and listen from the outside. I have PTSD and a personality disorder.

 

[Emmie]

Depression back many years ago got cured later

Now just general unending sadness and existential misery

Yes, this exactly. The depression of my twenties where I couldn't get out of bed or eat or shower is long gone, now there is just a deep melancholy that pervades everything.

 

[Darkover]

i was depressed back when i was 18 to 22 for a number of years mainly due to the realization that we are in fact nothing forever but i've got oven that now, i'm still depressed now but for differnt resaons mainly due to brain injury

 

[8evergo]

has had depresions since childhood but i didn't know what was going on then i always thought of the family next door how well they were doing and so i felt a little better when i was younger i had lovesickness for years struggling with it and now i am healthy so stricken that the deperions were so bad I don't want to live anymore

 

[ISeeDarkness]

Depression back many years ago got cured later

Now just general unending sadness and existential misery

So...depression. You're depressed.

 

[wanttodie]

me to I want to ctb as I simply hate existing and I do not see life as being worth living. all want die a i have to deal with depression

 

[Hurt]

Yes. I've been depressed for years. It's an everyday fight with my own mind. Tiredness and hopelessness.

 

[Painless_end]

So...depression. You're depressed.

The feeling is different. I know the difference because I have felt.

 

[jandek]

I've been diagnosed with dysthymia. That said, I also think I have rational reasons to be deeply depressed and unhappy; it's not simply "imbalanced brain chemistry," as the annoying cliché goes.

 

[Jupit3rs]

I have dysthymia and It's a very exhausting experience, however, my reasons to die are purely existential, nothing makes sense to me, reality seems like a big joke.

 

[Onasis]

Yes and it's basically ruined every part of my life for the last 7 years. Life has passed me by and it's becoming too late to change course. I don't have much to look forward in life besides watching everything go to shit.

 

[pleasehelpme]

I don't think I am depressed, I think I am a realist... But society would probably call me depressed

 

[eternalflame]

Well i think most people on this page are depressed to be honest.

 

[ISeeDarkness]

The feeling is different. I know the difference because I have felt.

There are different types of depression. It doesn't all feel the same.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I AM depression. And also anxiety.

 

[splashofvanilla]

Never been diagnosed as clinical as that sounds.

But for the majority of my rational life i have felt that there has never been a meaning to life and its all suffering.

I was raised by parents that never loved me and that abused me (emotionally and phisically but that part is debatable my mother never had strength even thouh they didnt hurt they still hurt)
So that has shaped my view of the world.
But my death is not about them i never want to live a life for another again but i dont want to live my own life so ctb is the way.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Yes since age 14. I'm 29 now

 

[lifehalffull]

Yes. It's quite a lot better right now compared to how it's been for the majority of my life, and I attribute that mainly to sleep apnea treatment. Also, I've also been using creatine supplements, which have been shown to improve depression.
Although I feel better, I'm only more suicidal than before. I suppose it's because the same improvements that allow me to better attend to self-care and other responsibilities also enhance my ability to plan out, and perhaps carry out, my suicide. We'll see.

 

[outatime_85]

I was never professionally diagnosed.

I do think because of the way I was brought into the world (a father who never wanted me, never recognized me as his, a mother who was never around),

My upbringing (latchkey kid), and the things that were done to me in my youth, etc.

I think it is safe to say.

Yes, I suffer with depression and possibly other mental health issues.