Yes, one of my cats is like my shadow, she follows me everywhere and cries for me
(yet she runs away when I try to grab her lol, playing games).
She is such a baby, spoiled with love, she gets jealous when I give attention to the other cats (and that's a first for me! No human is going to be jealous of the same where I'm concerned).
I talk to her and the rest all the time, because I usually have nobody else to converse with.
I do feel bad for all my pets that are still alive and may feel dependent or bonded with me, though I suspect that it may also be me projecting, they could very well be perfectly fine without me and transfer all their animal affection onto someone else, which is painful to think about, but I can't wait for them to pass away, I need this to be over.
Luckily they are not technically all owned by me, so I don't need to hand over ownership before I ctb, I simply just won't be here and I worry that they will think I abandoned them or mistakenly believe I'm coming back.
I selfishly also do not want anyone I dislike to have free access to them, I just want one fucking thing to remain unsullied and (somewhat) my own.
I had the opportunity to get another pet but I turned it down, I can't take on any more and neither can this household.
(Even with one of our pets recently passing away..such a good boy too.)
Plus, it would be shameful of me to bring another animal into this home and then evaporate into thin air.
It's weird that I don't feel the same misgivings or guilt when it comes to any humans "in my life" (I use that statement generously), I guess it's because pretty much every single one of them doesn't give a rat's ass about me or why I suffer.
