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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
not one bit, my health gets worse weekly now with ehler danlos and osteoporosis. I try to imagine a future where these can be fixed but the push forward is less medical and has become too tech powered and I feel too removed from any form of privacy in doing social and it gets worse weekly now. I can't imagine a future that is good that doesn't revolve around time travel.
That's not getting into the rise of reactionary politics but even is defeated the genie is out of the bottle with the mass surveillance stuff.


If you're young enough and still yet to go to college you might want to go for it. I only started later when I had no friends or support. Colleges have LGBT groups ect. Sorry if you're older I know there are a lot of younger people here so ignore this if not the case.

Medicine is so slow compared to mass communication/big tech. I wish it was the reverse.
I'm 31. I don't want to be on hormones for the rest of my life and go through 5+ year process only to likely not pass. Plus i would have missed out on being a young woman. I'm going to hop on the bus instead.
 
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Sakura94

empty
Nov 26, 2020
673
I'm 31. I don't want to be on hormones for the rest of my life and go through 5+ year process only to likely not pass. Plus i would have missed out on being a young woman. I'm going to hop on the bus instead.
Same. It sucks. Anyway just do what your body tells you you know yourself better than what anyone could say.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
None
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Losing it little by little. If I can't figure out the cause of my cognition issues and my hope reaches zero, then I think I'll be ready
 
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RagingCat

RagingCat

😾
May 2, 2022
32
Depends. I know I can get a normal job and pursue a medical career to get $ but I don't feel any joy even when I have a decent job and cash so that doesn't really work for me.
Rn the only hope I feel is because of 2 local spots for sn I found.
 
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Sakura94

empty
Nov 26, 2020
673
Losing it little by little. If I can't figure out the cause of my cognition issues and my hope reaches zero, then I think I'll be ready
Yeah I've seen your posts before. Maybe it's something medical underlying it not psychiatric. I had a lot of weird behavior before the medical issues became apparent.
I think we're all fairly doomer here on the psychiatric industry.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Yeah I've seen your posts before. Maybe it's something medical underlying it not psychiatric. I had a lot of weird behavior before the medical issues became apparent.
I think we're all fairly doomer here on the psychiatric industry.
Could be. I have a neurologist appointment next month, but don't know if I'll make it in time as my depression because of it grows
 
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CantGetUp

Member
May 5, 2022
15
At this point in my life, hope is a fucking lie and will only hurt me to have it.
 
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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
I have no belief that I will ever be very happy or even content in life. And my patience is running short, my suffering too great to bear. At the rate things are going for me.... I probably won't last much longer, one way or another.
 
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SKDN

SKDN

Member
Mar 29, 2022
31
Today yes... But tomorow and in the long run, i know i dont.
 
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CantGetUp

Member
May 5, 2022
15
Sorry for the cursing. I get frustrated because people tell me to have hope things will get better... but when?? How long do I have to hold out in misery for this bright and shiny future that's not even guaranteed?
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
Sorry for the cursing. I get frustrated because people tell me to have hope things will get better... but when?? How long do I have to hold out in misery for this bright and shiny future that's not even guaranteed?
I'm sure this is a rhetorical question, but for them, it's a band-aid and platitude to sustain you just so they can feel like they have helped you.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
My only hope personally is to successfully ctb. And not to suffer too much during the process.
 
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Sakura94

empty
Nov 26, 2020
673
Could be. I have a neurologist appointment next month, but don't know if I'll make it in time as my depression because of it grows
Well you're doing a lot more than me anyway. You're trying to hard to get better I hope you succeed.
Maybe keep busy this month until it comes.
 
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CantGetUp

Member
May 5, 2022
15
I'm sure this is a rhetorical question, but for them, it's a band-aid and platitude to sustain you just so they can feel like they have helped you.
I know they think I'll be better some day. I don't think they are saying it so they feel better, but they are trying to convince me to hang on. I understand because they love me and they have hope, so they truly can envision my happiness. I can't fault them for that because I had hope too once but it's long gone now.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
I know they think I'll be better some day. I don't think they are saying it so they feel better, but they are trying to convince me to hang on. I understand because they love me and they have hope, so they truly can envision my happiness. I can't fault them for that because I had hope too once but it's long gone now.
Ahhh, well I meant in general about strangers. For loved ones, it's a different story. I am sorry I misunderstood.
 
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Julgran

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,427
like any?

I know what you mean, and I have absolutely no hope for the future - be it for my own sake or society at large.

However, this can be interpreted as philosophical question, and in that case, there will alwats be a "future" - we might just not be a part of it.
 
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CantGetUp

Member
May 5, 2022
15
Ahhh, well I meant in general about strangers. For loved ones, it's a different story. I am sorry I misunderstood.
It's no problem. It's my fault since I didn't specify. I agree about some strangers throwing platitudes just because they wanna feel they did something even though they aren't really listening and not trying to understand the pain I'm in.
 
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Intelligent_Panic99

Intelligent_Panic99

Student
Jan 4, 2022
114
No. I know the end. Also, hope just hurts.
 
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Murasa

Murasa

"The Great Little Captain"
Dec 3, 2020
1,756
My hope lies in a peaceful and painless death, the best for everyone will be my death.
 
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NotSureToEndure

NotSureToEndure

Professor of not a lot
Aug 17, 2020
114
Right now I'm actually feeling abit more positive. Nothing is perfect sure but I feel way better than I did last week.

Guess I should enjoy it while it lasts!
 
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odradek

odradek

Mage
Sep 16, 2021
557
I do not have any hope for my future. I've been really nihilistic of late. I think I've mostly come to terms with both now.
 
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dontknowwheretoturn

Member
Apr 27, 2022
24
Not at all. Whenever someone talks about their future or something they're excited about I cry.
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,383
Hope for what?
 
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Nolan96

Nolan96

Mage
Feb 12, 2022
506
I force it because anything else would just make things even worse, but I know deep down it's almost certainly ridiculous to hope.
 
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mojabaka

Student
Apr 20, 2022
100
like any?
some people recovered from vaccine injuries like mine, but as far as I can tell it's a small minority. Every stupid forum I go to people are suffering for more than a year already and I will be 1 year soon too. My hope is pretty much at 0 the last couple of months.
 
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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
Ya, I do. I've set a goal to run a hundred-miler. It's just me and my feet. I'm used to folks not believing I can do stuff, I like it. That'll take 18 months to 2 years to manage. We'll see…
 
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