Discussion Do you have a chronic debilitating condition or just tired of life ?

[Manford]

I'm just trying to get a sense of how many people are suffering from a specific disease ( physical or mental ) or no longer find life bearable for whatever other reasons that may have led to this point. I am in the latter category.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Mix of both. I wouldn't say a particular condition but general getting older, pains starting to pop up. But its more of the latter, I don't have the energy or time to bail out what is clearly a failing world political and economic system.

 

[NodusTollens]

I'm a mix of both as well.

Predominantly, I had issues with my mental health throughout my late-childhood & adolescence, punctuated by minor health concerns. Then in my late twenties I developed an injury that has affected my quality of life with chronic pain.

 

[Deleted member 23885]

I have anxiety, severe depression, BPD & OCD. My diagnosis doesn't help, but I'm also tired of life at this point.

 

[Nymph]

I have both, I have a bunch of mental illnesses that make life harder and I'm also tired of live and suffering with this sick brain. Plus being trans/masc nonbinary in not a very supportive environment is making everything worse. Honestly the worst thing at the moment is how slow everything is when you're relying on health insurance. I'm in a months worth "line" just to be able to talk to the specific doctor but not yet even fix the issue because that will take another many months to do...the process is so slow and the discomfort in my own flesh prison is slowly killing me, I'm thinking of making the process faster.

 

[RainAndSadness]

It's a combination of both. I was diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria, Dysthymia, Depression, Social Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder and Rheumatoid Arthritis. I became suicidal after years of bullying back in school and most of the mental conditions were probably caused by this and neglect in childhood. Thanks parents.

 

[Meretlein]

Does OCD count? It has been the bane of my existence since I was 3 or 4.

 

[DrWh033]

Nerve injury. CRPS that spread. Neuropathic pain. Clean mental history. Kind of a rarity in this forum. Don't plan to stay long. I don't really identify to the vast majority of users here that suffer mostly mentally

 

[Squiddy]

I have bipolar, BPD, PTSD and anxiety (and some problems with eating recently, but not sure if it's anything). My most debilitating out of those is my BPD. I can't stand the constant shifts in my mood. I have shifted so many times in the past few hours and wanting to ctb bad. If I were to ever ctb, it would probably be on an impulse.

 

[patheticpartner]

I'm just too lazy to live. I've never been diagnosed with any mental illness, and I think I could live normally if I applied myself, but my laziness and lack of desire impedes me

 

[Squiddy]

I'm just too lazy to live. I've never been diagnosed with any mental illness, and I think I could live normally if I applied myself, but my laziness and lack of desire impedes me

I also feel too lazy to live too. A part of me wants to go back to college, but I feel I'd get bored and not want to do any work and if I were to drop out, I honestly wouldn't know what to do and I doubt my parents would let me stay with them if I didn't work or do anything productive and at that point, it'd be game over for me

 

[Nicebuddimtim]

Both

 

[jd300100]

both.
severe ptsd, i will probably always suffer with, stemming from long term CSA.
severe chronic migraines that present with stroke symptoms.
was recently in an accident, leaving me with a permanent neck injury & nerve pain.

if i get better mentally i hope i can get a service dog.

 

[WornOutLife]

I have overweight, BPD and extreme anxiety but I guess I'm tired of life.
I could struggle against my "issues" but I just don't feel like doing it anymore.

 

[Intotheflames]

To me they are both sides of the same coin. Melancholy makes me extra sensitive to hardships, and hardships exacerbate melancholy.

 

[Wrennie]

I'm just trying to get a sense of how many people are suffering from a specific disease ( physical or mental ) or no longer find life bearable for whatever other reasons that may have led to this point. I am in the latter category.

My mental state is a disease in and of itself, but as soon as things became physical it really tipped me over the edge. To have both your body and mind fail you... what else is even left at that point?

 

[whywere]

I have 24/7 chronic pain from a car crash that was NOT my fault. Every second of every day it is just plain crappy. Never a second without gut wrenching pain. I have had 2 attempts so far and the darn pain is NOT helping anything.

 

[JayDog]

Mostly just tired of life. Even on very good days (there aren't many) I want to CTB because then I am aware how rare those good days are, and how it can only go worse from that point. Also I start to think how many shit days I need to go through till I have good moments again so why not CTB while you are on top.

 

[sweater]

Absolutely a mix of both for me. I don't think I'll ever be a" functioning member of society" and I fear that if I keep living I'm going to end up residential and not be able to live outside of a treatment facility. My brain is screwed up and I'm just so tired of having to keep taking part in life and pretending that I'm okay and that I want to do any of this.

 

[Keto]

It is a combination of both, mental and physical.
I tried everything possible: medication, psychiatrists sessions, traveling, sun, exercise, pray...etc. It seems they don't have lasting effects.
I feel extremely tired every morning, although I sleep more than 6 hours.

 

[Natty]

I'm fairly certain my mental state would likely now be diagnosed as something severe or debilitating if I managed to see the correct professionals to get a diagnoses. Other than the intangible disease that rotting the space in my skull I don't have any other disabilities.

I just can't do it anymore.

 

[Sakura94]

Transwoman, klinefelter's osteoporosis, and asthma progressively worse. But on top of that I just dont think I could enjoy life anyway because it just keep becoming more technocratic with widening disparity, authoritarian with draconian lockdowns (what happens with future more deadly viruses). Bad stuff happened to me as a child and a teen too so I have little trust or regard for society but I could let that go if culture didn't feel so fake and in your face. I could think up some ideal scenarios but they are just dreams.

 

[Good4Nothing]

Both. Mood disorder, personality disorder, broken brain, broken spirit. Getting old. Tired of being life's punching bag.

 

[Johnjohn1]

I'm suffering from Levaquin antibiotic damage and possible Lyme disease. , prior to this I was pretty happy and functional. Levaquin ruined my life

 

[Defenestration]

Tired to fight mental illness

 

[TerminallyAlive]

My mental afflictions are a huge part of the reason why I'm tired of life. I can't enjoy anything anymore. Who wouldn't tire of a life of zero enjoyment?

 

[demuic]

I also feel too lazy to live too. A part of me wants to go back to college, but I feel I'd get bored and not want to do any work and if I were to drop out, I honestly wouldn't know what to do and I doubt my parents would let me stay with them if I didn't work or do anything productive and at that point, it'd be game over for me

This is the situation with me.. I used to be good at playing the school game as a kid but my spirit broke and I become disillusioned now and now I don't see the point in college. It's such a scam. And the kind of shit they "teach" these days, smh. But I don't have any skills in life so I'd at least need a degree to get a job that's not minimum wage.

My parents would probably let me stay with them but I'd feel like shit because I do want to be independent.

Sadly I've already taken out a ton of debt and some in my parent's name so I don't feel like I can just quit. Even though idk how I'm gonna go on doing work when I feel like absolute shit and that what I'm doing is pointless busy work and time wasting.

 

[pen]

chronic debilitating condition called life​

 

[Uninstall]

I started off in the first category and it fed into the latter. Throughout puberty I struggled with socialization and severe anxiety which has severely stunted my development. I picked up mathematics as a hobby and was able to get into some of the advanced mathematics/physics classes later in high school, which became a kind of cope for my lacking social life. I was going to major in Computer Science and hopefully fall back on a well paying career to keep me afloat but living with this dysfunction comes with consequences and my brain had finally reached its limit and I nose-dived straight into depressive hell. I've been told I have Asperger's, a non verbal learning disorder, and avoidant personality disorder all by different health care professionals but I personally feel best described by schizoid personality disorder. Regardless, my life in regards to family, friends and everything external to myself would have been mostly positive were it not for the fact that my condition is next to impossible for them to understand and I feel very isolated from them. Thus, life seems very tiring and pointless.

 

[NightmareTour]

Both, but my neurological condition definitely takes front seat at the moment.