Discussion Do you hate yourself or other people more?

[ijustwishtodie]

I already know qualitatively that most people here hate themselves more (though I don't know why) but I'm interested in it from a quantitative perspective. I'm curious as to the ratio of people here who hate themselves more to those who hate other people, society, the system, the world etc etc. If you don't hate yourself or other people/society at all, vote the third option.

Also, you don't have to but, if you want to, feel free to write as to why you chose what you chose

 

[Rocinante]

I don't hate myself, I hate my circumstances

 

[pilotviolin]

my hate for others mostly comes from hate of myself. i try not to let it show but i feel like an air freshener of bad vibes anyways lol

 

[rozeske]

I love myself, too much. I don't hate others, some just annoy me.

 

[leloyon]

That's a hard one, I would say I'm the individual I hate the most, but I hate other people as a whole more. It feels like as many faults as I have, it feels like other people made me this way. I could have been saved if people didn't constantly kick me down. I wouldn't have been nearly as bad if not for the people around me.

 

[cowboypants]

I hate myself more i think. Had i been good i would have made it despite whatver the societys drawbacks are, like not everyone wants to die. Also a lot why im here is the chain of events that happened in my life and the way i dealt with it.

 

[N33dT0D13]

my hate for others mostly comes from hate of myself. i try not to let it show but i feel like an air freshener of bad vibes anyways lol

Real as fuck, I can't sustain anger for others and it just reroutes into more self loathing

 

[sserafim]

I don't hate myself. Why would I hate myself? I find that dumb and stupid. You are yourself, so you should love yourself. I hate other people, society, and the world

I don't hate myself, I hate my circumstances

I hate this prison planet and evil world. I also hate society, humanity and other people

 

[Final_Choice]

I don't hate myself, I love myself. Which is why I don't deserve to live in such a painful and cruel world. I also don't really hate people, most people are in similar situations with varying degrees of severity. What I don't like are the people who explicitly make the rules that cause our society to be how it is.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't hate myself. Why would I hate myself? I find that dumb and stupid. You are yourself, so you should love yourself. I hate other people, society, and the world

Exactly! The only person who we can even rely on are ourselves. Other people aren't trustworthy and can betray you whenever they want to. This is typical normie NT behaviour. Actually, out of curiosity, what do you think is worse: hating yourself or loving others (i.e. strangers)?

 

[sserafim]

Exactly! The only person who we can even rely on are ourselves. Other people aren't trustworthy and can betray you whenever they want to. This is typical normie NT behaviour. Actually, out of curiosity, what do you think is worse: hating yourself or loving others (i.e. strangers)?

I think both are equally bad. Hating yourself is illogical and irrational to me, and loving others is the same. Why would you trust strangers enough to love them? You don't even know them

 

[derpyderpins]

Hate is wasted energy. Love is the answer. I've gotten rid of most hate in my heart aside from hatred of those who specifically aim to hurt others.

 

[Heartaches]

I hate myself and the world I was forced to live in

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Nothing will ever beat the eternal flame that is my hatred for myself. I have virtually no redeeming qualities but I've come to accept that. On the brightside, I don't find that my self-hatred hurts me as much anymore. I guess it's because I've learned to just accept it rather than feel bad about it.

 

[wCvML2]

the way I view the world is that I'm supposed to try to fit in and adapt to it and not the other way around so when I have hate it's directed at myself. and yeah, I hate myself a lot because I can't adapt and I'm worthless but it's an old feeling so I became numb to it.

 

[noname223]

Why only one if you can have both?

 

[EternalShore]

hehe~ I've always been surprised how people tend to hate themselves more than other people, especially here~ irl, a lot of people view others as being naturally good and all, but it's just weird to me~ Almost all the time when bad things happen to me, more often than not caused by others rather than myself~ >_< unless doing everything I can for others is suddenly deserving of me getting abandoned by them~ :/

 

[Forever Sleep]

I rarely feel emotions as strongly as hate towards either myself or others. I have hated myself in the past but I think I've become more forgiving of my faults. Maybe even started to blame others for how I've (maybe) inevitably turned out. Again though, I don't exactly hate or blame them either. I think maybe we all messed up in some ways. Maybe we were all selfishly motivated but, not exactly malliciously.

The closest I come sometimes is in relation to the person who first made me feel suicidal in the first place. Maybe a part of me hates them. More so that we were ever put together perhaps though. I'd rather be able to forget about them completely. Plus, I suppose I know they suffered too. Doesn't really make me willing to understand them though to be honest. Or, feel all that much pitty for them. They made my life hell.

I guess I'm more angry at the world in general and I'm utterly furious with God if there is one. I suppose I do hate God- even though I would be damned for that- no doubt. Again though, it's this weird and utterly useless frustration/anger at something abstract. Maybe that's the worst part of it. There's no specific place to put it.

I'm angry I was born but I also love my parents too much to truly hate them. I hate capitalism/consumerism but I'm not interested enough in politics/economics/sociology to particularly care what could replace it. And asides from some clear villains that pop up now and again- CEO's of companies who ignore safety warnings in preference of profits and get people killed, who do we really blame for it all?

I think I'm too tired to be all that angry now. That said, I watched a documentary once on a psyche ward and a doctor there said all suicidal people were angry. I think maybe there is truth in that. Resentful at least- at something or other. Even if it's life itself.

 

[BlackMoon]

I hate many things about myself but when it comes to the final reasons I want to CtB, it's clearly because of our society and other people.
I'll never be myself, I'll never be accepted for who I truly am. All I can do is faking who I am or leave this world. And I'm tired of faking.

 

[mikuhappy]

I hate myself so much

 

[lemonbunny]

i have a lot of emotional resentment, but on a rational level idk what i truly want. i just feel like i shouldn't exist

 

[carac]

Yes I hate myself, what is there to like? Ugly, useless, boring failure.

 

[CatLove56]

I hate myself for tolerating mediocrity for so long but I also hate society for being the total clown show that it is

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I don't hate myself, I hate my circumstances.

 

[ImTelling]

Killing myself is based not killing myself is cringe I am cringe there for killing myself is based

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I hate myself the most. It would be pretty hypocritical of me to hate pretty much everything wrong with society/other humans when I also embody most of these traits in myself to varyingly worse degrees. Everything people usually hate about other humans is embodied by me and that's why I consider myself the most hateable.

I also hate myself for how I've directly ruined my own life whether it's by being lazy, cowardly, stupid, or some combination of all three.

 

[Lady Laudanum]

Now I feel even worse about hating myself and even more ashamed of having chronic low self esteem and pervasive sense of worthlessness. Thanks guys.

 

[SpamMusubi]

I don't hate anything, jus tryna clock out.

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

I don't hate any individual people, I hate this current version of human culture/civilization. It's a worldwide system of maximizing suffering for the people on top to enjoy sadism and greed. I have no reason to hate myself.

 

[Kavka]

I guess I'm just not much of a hater. I feel like I generally just skip the hate and anger and go straight to feeling disappointed or frustrated. Although maybe this is just alexithymia and semantics. The fact that I don't really believe in free will probably also helps, as it makes blaming and hating kind of pointless.