Do you hate your own life or this whole world?

[020x]

What made you decide that you need to ctb?

Was it your personal life that got destroyed by mental illness or some traumatic experiences or memories or are you someone who's in good shape but just hate this world because of how it is..?

 

[bedhead_baby]

Both. Both is good.

 

[thebookofdisquiet]

Existence itself, couldn't agree more with FuneralCry.

 

[Darkover]

i hate the universe and life for never giving me what i would want out of life
like infinite computing power

 

[AllFoxedOut]

I hate myself

 

[Gibbygobster]

I often fantasize about the world ending. Actually, I had a crisis moment a few years ago and told myself I should kill myself or change my life completely. And I said not even the world ending can change my mind.....then COVID happened. Needless to say, I wasn't unhappy that the world "seemed" to be falling apart. I was sort of happy it was, honestly, I was stoked it was

 

[myusername890]

All three

 

[StarlightDreamer]

I've got serious philosophical qualms with anyone who hates existence itself. In my view, I've met enough people, and seen enough of this world to know that it's really a wonderful place in some respects. I just hate how my own life turned out.

 

[Sweet Tart]

I often fantasize about the world ending. Actually, I had a crisis moment a few years ago and told myself I should kill myself or change my life completely. And I said not even the world ending can change my mind.....then COVID happened. Needless to say, I wasn't unhappy that the world "seemed" to be falling apart. I was sort of happy it was, honestly, I was stoked it was

It felt right to me, too, when the world stopped because of COVID and everything became bleak and uncertain. Felt like I was finally in harmony with the world.

 

[doneforlife]

Neither of the 3. I just hate forced existence , not existence in general. One should have every right to decide if they want to continue with life or not and should have legal access to painless exit. The only time this right can be overriden is if you have dependent children.

 

[dumpsterfire]

What made you decide that you need to ctb?

Was it your personal life that got destroyed by mental illness or some traumatic experiences or memories or are you someone who's in good shape but just hate this world because of how it is..?

I try to better myself and i try therapy and i try any self help bs i can find and yet i fuck everyone else's life up. im stuck in a perpetual cycle that i cant break, and im done trying. i want out.

 

[wanttodie]

i hate my own life

 

[outrider567]

Just hate my life--Its a waste of time to hate the whole world

 

[Archness]

honestly h8 both... But moreso this meaningless, pointless modern world of nihil.

Also self h8red /w all these defects etc.

 

[Nephis]

I hate my own life, I think you can genuinely find a way to enjoy a life in this world, in fact I know that if it was due to a couple of issues in my life, I'd be perfectly content and or happy, I wish that for my next life I can enjoy it for longer.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I hate the human world (society in general) and I hate it that I'm alive in it. The natural world itself is kind of miraculous. Beautiful and ruthless. I'm not sure if it's right to condemn the whole world and every creatures existence because it seems cruel sometimes to me. I can't make that decision for anything else- I'm not a God.

I guess though- ideation for me is because I've failed to fit in to this world but- neither do I have a desire to.

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

The simple answer is Yes

 

[Euthanza]

"I want perfect body, (I think) I have sufficient soul (If that's even real thing, but I'm a creep"

Yep, that's me. When I'm travelling I can see the world much better but god (I'm an atheist) I hate it so much whenever I remember where I come from, how things are going on in my own home country; The only good thing as far I can comprehend is, I can buy SN here online easily.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I can't vote for anything here. I neither hate my life nor this world nor my existence. I could say: I don't like/ I hate the circumstances that make we want to ctb because I don't want to endure them (and I don't find a way that is suitable for me to change this) but that doesn't necessarily mean I hate my own life/existence.

 

[020x]

I can't vote for anything here. I neither hate my life nor this world nor my existence. I could say: I don't like/ I hate the circumstances that make we want to ctb because I don't want to endure them (and I don't find a way that is suitable for me to change this) but that doesn't necessarily mean I hate my own life/existence.

Makes sense. Should've added another option lol.

 

[Alltheywanted]

I just hate being alive

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course I despise existence itself as it's the true problem, it's the ultimate source of all suffering and harm, I could never see suffering as being acceptable and I find it tragic how anyone has to suffer.
I only see non-existence as being desirable as one cannot be harmed by non-existence, existence repulses me, it's just a cycle of senseless cruelty and endless suffering that has caused so much torture to be experienced all throughout history. I see it as being such a terrible burden having the ability to exist here.