Do you hate life or yourself more?

[LuzurPhagget]

Just curious. I definitely hate myself more. Life ain't too bad. I guess I've been privileged to have had pretty good people in my life who didn't bully me, weren't excessively mean to me etc.
It's fascinating to watch other people. They're funny and smart and interesting and truly enjoy what life has to offer. I'm just a demented, joyless sack of shit and when the limelight's on me for my turn to participate, my autistic ass fumbles and fucks up. It sucks. I realize I don't belong and have no business being here.
I actually wouldn't mind coming back as a ghost. Maybe a lifetime of ghostly voyeurism would prepare my autistic soul for the next reincarnation?? Lol

 

[Revan16]

I hate myself too. For the bad decisions i make, for the impulsiveness (disorders) and for how i treat people close to me.

 

[Kassender]

Myself.
I ruin everything i touch.
Life is a good thing, but im just a fucked up presence here to ruin the fun.

 

[M3W2501]

Myself. With life, the terrible parts come and go. The internal hate for everything that I am is always there.

 

[Blackjack]

I hate myself with a vengeance.

 

[rue]

definitely life. it's annoying and unnecessary. should've just stayed chilling in the void

 

[Nobodysfault]

Myself, life could be beautiful if i didnt ruin every little thing

 

[Rachel74]

More myself as I've ruined but then again I didn't ask for bipolar.

 

[wanttodie]

More myself but life to

 

[a_strange_day]

myself. life could have been beautiful if I was born with what it takes to live it

 

[sadgirl2002]

I hate myself more than life but if life consists of what has happened to me then it would be a tie.

 

[woxihuanni]

Life. I have no grudge against myself.

 

[LuzurPhagget]

Thanks all for the responses. I'd like to say to everyone to try to be less hard on yourselves, but that would be pretty damn...hypocritical? Lol

 

[nothingleft]

I hate myself because I'm not tough enough to survive in the world or deal with life's challenges. I hate that my depression has killed the person I had the potential to be.

 

[Trainwreck]

I hate my body. It's just one disease/condition after another. If it wasn't for my crap physical health, I think I'd be okay mentally.

 

[LuzurPhagget]

I hate myself because I'm not tough enough to survive in the world or deal with life's challenges. I hate that my depression has killed the person I had the potential to be.

Samesies. Like natural selection. I am weak and pathetic. And any trace of my existence should be wiped out.

I don't think I ever had any potential though. I believe everything happened the way it was supposed to; never could be any other way. A loser through and through :)

 

[MichiyoCornell]

I hate my body. It's just one disease/condition after another. If it wasn't for my crap physical health, I think I'd be okay mentally.

I'm in the same situation as you. I'm only getting worse physically and it is getting harder and harder to find a reason to hang on. Only difference is I think about my past and after thinking about it, I do hate myself deeply for the person I've become.

 

[Yorkshire91]

I hate myself more because it's down to me how my life has turned out.

 

[Jolene40]

I absolutely hate life more. My body is a diseased mess but I see myself as something separate ftom this. I am the victim of this other, it's not the true me.
Life is a bastard because things can go so terribly wrong like this with the body.

 

[Emily123]

I hate my body . I want to get rid of it

 

[Shamana]

Myself definitely. I've been unfortunate in some areas, but otherwise I would say that life has been very kind to me.

 

[k75]

I know this probably doesn't make sense, but I don't hate either.

What I hate is my depression, and what I hate even more is the anhedonia it's caused.

 

[hersheybar]

Myself. 100%.

 

[Yorkshire91]

I know this probably doesn't make sense, but I don't hate either.

What I hate is my depression, and what I hate even more is the anhedonia it's caused.

That makes sense to me, depression can destroy everything. Just had to Google what anhedonia means lol

 

[HQTD]

More myself, i try to fit every time, but this world is just to much to me.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Life is to blame for my and everyone else's suffering, so the answer is obviously life. I also hate myself a lot for not being perfect, but that's nowhere near to my hate for this existence.

 

[dreamsofdestruction]

I don't know, neither? I mean that's not entirely true, sometimes I regret things I've done so much that there is some hate, but it's not the emotion that drives me.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Life makes differences. Useless combinations are eliminated. Who can say this isn't savage? It's all about luck. No one can tell me I haven't tried. My father left me and mother was mentally ill. I was a very weak child. Everybody beat me up. In time, I thought it was my destiny. I was blamed for what I was. I had to be somebody else to be loved and accepted. More wild than jungle life. Is life beautiful? I think it's a personal answer. I think it's hell.

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[Astral316]

I hate people... I was okay with myself until they made me question my worth. Now I feel worthless.

Life? ...would be amazing without modern society. Send me back to the days of ancient empires or the paleolithic era.

 

[Dawn0071111]

Wow, now thats a tough one... I actually am surpized reading the comments, I thought "life" would win in the poll over self. Even I, with what I consider to be pretty pathological self-loathing, still hate life more because in my estimate, I would not be this way if life wasn't how it was... I am maladapted to life.... ITS TERMS. Well fuck lifes terms, I am going to die on my own terms.