I hide it from my family.....they know Ive been to therapy a few times. I just don't let them know the extent of my depression or the thoughts I have.
It would hurt them immensely if they had any idea of this. I know they would try to help as much as they could.
If they knew the thoughts & plans I have for ctb,,,,they could more than likely commit me against my will. Everyone would then know it all.....
Friends and coworkers, I hide as well. I don't want them to think of me as someone that needs help or coddling.
My spouse, knows. I dont remember telling them my entire plan, but after a fight one time, they reminded me of what I told them. We had a fight about meeting up with some of my relatives for dinner...I didnt want to go, didnt feel like being around them..... but my spouse wanted to go. My spouse wouldnt take no for an answer but after awhile they understood, or at least I thought. To my surprise. they wrote me a letter and reminded me of ctb plan. I wasn't expecting that.
They tried to use my ctb plans it against me to make me feel guilty for not going to dinner with my relatives. They made it about them in that I was denying them from being social.... and then told me I needed to get help or else.
So I keep it all to myself now. They will all know how I felt after my ctb.
I have made audio recordings that tell everything,