Moldova_3k

Moldova_3k

Member
Feb 5, 2019
11
I will do it on impulse. I feel is easier than planning as with planning I over think it as I feel it is what caused CO method to fail.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,783
I think I have a mutant ability: super-cowardice. I've tried so, so, so many times. But here I am. I think something is going to happen this year, though, that takes the choice away from me. So I'd like to have the means at hand. I keep reading reports that the means I've chosen has a shelf life. I don't want to spend the money to get it if it's just going to spoil in the meantime. Maybe I have to think of it as a "term life insurance policy." I'll just have to keep buying more 'til I have the guts to take the last step.

I had a friend a couple years a go who came to me begging me to go at the same time. I agreed. I spent a lot of money getting us a cabin far away from everywhere where we were going to settle our legal affairs... The day before we were to leave, he made up with his girlfriend. And, suspiciously, $10K of emergency cash I'd brought up with me to the cabin vanished. I think they have a kid and are living somewhere in West Seattle now. ... ...
 
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DontFearTheReaper

DontFearTheReaper

Slowly losing my mind and very ill, help me..
Nov 5, 2018
44
I don't think I will pick a date.

I think it will have to be on an extra bad day, and I will have to sort of shut off my mind to do it. So the shorter the method takes, the better, because it's hard to shut off and pretend you're not doing what you're doing for very long. Too bad there is no button you can press. And too bad some of the overdose methods require taking anti-emetics well in advance.
That time to consider what you do is the worst. And that it seems to be all in slow motion.
 
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DontFearTheReaper

DontFearTheReaper

Slowly losing my mind and very ill, help me..
Nov 5, 2018
44
Wish we had voice channels here to enourage eachother those last moments.
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
I think I have a mutant ability: super-cowardice. I've tried so, so, so many times. But here I am. I think something is going to happen this year, though, that takes the choice away from me. So I'd like to have the means at hand. I keep reading reports that the means I've chosen has a shelf life. I don't want to spend the money to get it if it's just going to spoil in the meantime. Maybe I have to think of it as a "term life insurance policy." I'll just have to keep buying more 'til I have the guts to take the last step.

I had a friend a couple years a go who came to me begging me to go at the same time. I agreed. I spent a lot of money getting us a cabin far away from everywhere where we were going to settle our legal affairs... The day before we were to leave, he made up with his girlfriend. And, suspiciously, $10K of emergency cash I'd brought up with me to the cabin vanished. I think they have a kid and are living somewhere in West Seattle now. ... ...
That friend story WHAT

I mean I guess I can't say shit bc I'm no better than they are
 
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DoneBlonde

Member
Feb 4, 2019
14
I am planning to do it after my 25th birthday which is the 8th of march. I am going away on the 11th for a few days because my best friend planned a trip for me so I am using that as my final goodbye. I am also considering to wait till April just so I can sign my flat over to my partner so he won't become homeless due to my death. I have to get my affairs in order first. Its the least I can do.
 
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bunny

bunny

保管
Oct 3, 2018
364
maybe valentine's day
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,783
That friend story WHAT

I want to make up and post a poll to find out for how many of us constant disappointment in others (really important others) is a major factor behind our suicidality...
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

flower child
Jan 5, 2019
1,643
I want to make up and post a poll to find out for how many of us constant disappointment in others (really important others) is a major factor behind our suicidality...
Do ittt
 
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Sixfeetunder

Sixfeetunder

Specialist
Jan 12, 2019
319
I'm not comfortable sharing what careers I'm looking into. But what I do know is jobs suck. My current job is probably the best minimum wage job someone like me could have (not going to give it away either), and I still find it very stressful at times. I've always hated school and work. I mean, sometimes it seems like being a truck driver would be the best option for me, but my parents would probably be disappointed.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,783
sometimes it seems like being a truck driver would be the best option for me

During one of my suicidal episodes in school, I left campus and started driving across the country. I got to Montana where there was a really bad snow storm then chickened out. I got back home and thought about applying to trucker's school. If I didn't have back pain (and had the cash), I'd have done it...

BTW, I really like how guarded you are about everything. I feel the same way usually: TRUST NO ONE! :)
 
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essbet

Member
Feb 7, 2019
39
March 17 I will have the flat to myself for 24 hours. Hopefully sooner though.
 
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Mort

Mort

No use to know one
Feb 15, 2019
622
Dont know my self but soon i hope i am trying to make it look like an accidentall over does so its better on my folks all so i have a small insurance policy and if looks like an accident they pay out so OD on pain pills and iron and vitamin C tablets trying to fry my liver and kidneys my eyrs are a little yellow now so not long me think's :) YAY
 
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Vaughn

Vaughn

Experienced
Feb 21, 2019
227
I wanted to wait until the summer when all my friends graduate uni but my failing grades have put me on the university radar so lately I'm feeling rushed to do it over spring break
please don't feel rushed - that is going to last a longggg time !
 
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justabouttobedone

justabouttobedone

No Longer Human
Feb 21, 2019
72
I am not planning my suicide yet, but if it happens one day, it will be on my birth day.
 
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iiii5555

Student
Sep 12, 2018
121
December 14, 2019.

It's going to be a big event.
 
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Socrates Augustus

Socrates Augustus

Member
Feb 21, 2019
33
Sometimes its an impulse feeling with me.
 
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favourite

favourite

Student
Feb 15, 2019
191
I'll die when my family dies, I can't disappear unil the last one who cares for me is out of the picture.
 
Struggling

Struggling

Student
Feb 6, 2019
107
I keep picking a date coinciding with something I don't want to face. Never works. However I have my tools and had a few practices.
 
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