Do you guys do rituals during horrible depressive episodes?

[Molded foundation]

I'd like to hear what ritual (coping?) you do during your worst moments in a day/week/month. Whenever I get a horrible sadness spell wash over me, I like to lie on the floor and contract my abdominal muscles and try to purge the sadness with dying noises. I also try the trauma release exercises when it's not enough. Please share if you have one/multiple.

 

[mystique]

When it happens, I get agitated and feel like I need to move around (flounce). I try to contain the panic but I have found out that smashing objects helps a lot. I feel better after doing that :)

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

You know, I feel like my whole day is a ritual, like a tiny ritual expanded over time. My ritual patterns are scattered all over the place, I don't have structure, my room is a mess, my car is practically a survival shelter. I don't have any habits except addictions. Waking up, go to sleep - the time in between is all fuzzy. I watch something on netflix, then play, then watch some more, I eat and watch and really force myself to go to the bathroom. It's always a critical point when I go to the bathroom.

But I don't mind it. Ritualize me all the way. I like fuzzy numbness more than clear dispair.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

I completely understand what you mean, if it's really really bad and I'm alone I also tend to sound like I'm dying. It's pathetic but I think 'maybe vocalizing the pain would help even a bit'. Ha. It doesn't for me, but…whatever. Trauma release, it sounds really good that you do that. Does it seem to help you at all? What sorts of things do you do?

 

[MeltedJello]

When it gets really bad, I end up cutting myself for relief. I don't encourage self harm though, it's just my way of coping. I also calm myself down by reading posts here, or posting in the counting/word game thread.

 

[FuneralCry]

I try to sleep as much as possible. However I have nightmares, so there is no peace even in sleep. I wish I could never wake again. I try to distract myself from my thoughts but that mostly does not work, so I just sit there overthinking everything. Such a pointless empty existence.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Other than chanting "fml, fml" under my breath a bunch of times I don't really think so.