Do you find it's harder and harder to ctb as you getting older?

[qw3rty259]

Sometimes I envy teens who committed suicide at a young age. I know that it might sound fucked up, but my point is that they didn't put as much effort in life as someone who tried to make a change in their life and still for some reason feeling the same or began to feel this way again. They just left the game almost at the start. Maybe they weren't even fully aware of some things, like the impact of their decision to the others of their family.

When you're older, you better understand what your parents, friends or loved ones would go through if it ever happens.

But the main thing is that it's so frustrating when you try to do something, improve your skills or maybe you've learned another language or how to code or something, had some success but at some point suicide becomes your only option anyway. It just so much harder to threw all that progress and accept the fact that it didn't have much purpose in the end and that you won't open your real potential to the fullest.

The more you live, the more you're becoming tied to this world by different aspects of living, like social connections, work and maybe most importantly effort that you've put in it all.

 

[Document6105]

Nah. I've abandoned everything so I can CTB when the time comes.
I couldn't care less what others think "after", as there is no after for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case my difficulty to ctb is caused by the fact that suicide is purposely made so difficult in this hellish world, there are too many risks and complications involved in trying to die rather than anything related to age.

But I also envy those who managed to leave at a much younger age than me despite the fact that we cannot easily access peaceful and reliable ways to die, as they prevented so many years of suffering, in general I just admire those who have the courage to escape from all the suffering.

 

[ToTheTwillight]

I actually find it easier to CTB when you older for two main reason.

First, even s person who is born with disabilities or is weak, they are more courageous and willing to take risks when they are older, which means less fear of the attempt to ctb, which certainly require courage, and I myself am feeling scared of too I admit.

Second, it's about your life circumstances and freedom you have. It's not too for all, but on average, most people once adult they live independently and have more ways to access resources to find a moment where they can ctb without intervention, or are smarter than when they were to figure such way. For example, when you are a teen, you stuck with your parents and you don't have money, there is so much binding here that makes it difficult for that to seize a moment where they can ctb. This is especially more difficult for harsher parents who are more proxying their teen, especially with therapist professionals and routine monitoring. When you are an adult, you got a lot more autonomy to find your space, have control of yourself, and avoid the scrutiny and for these reasons... I actually think CTB is easier when you get older

 

[HighFlight]

No, I would agree with @ToTheTwillight that it gets easier as you age.

• When you watch your body deteriorate each time you look in the mirror...
• When you spend too much time with various medical appointments because things don't work...
• When you look back over your life with regret of the things you wanted to do, but now it's too late...
• When you have nothing positive, fun, or exciting to look forward to...
• When you have no friends to share life with...
• When you've lost all purpose to exist...

It is often easier for older people to obtain the necessary materials to ctb, even if it's simply buying a handgun.

For the young, I feel there is much more attention given to it when it happens - "They had their whole life ahead of them." Thus the illusion that it happens more often to young people. Nobody really cares that grandpa overdosed on his meds in the nursing home - nobody will missing him.

 

[suicidaleeyore]

when I was younger I had a lot less understanding of how my actions affected others and I was quite impulsive for a period of time. I'd do things to myself without barely thinking it through. I'm not like that anymore, I am fully aware of the consequences of my actions, what I need to actually succeed etc. I have spent weeks to months planning certain attempts

when I was younger I had a lot less understanding of how my actions affected others and I was quite impulsive for a period of time. I'd do things to myself without barely thinking it through. I'm not like that anymore, I am fully aware of the consequences of my actions, what I need to actually succeed etc. I have spent weeks to months planning certain attempts

I wish I died when I was younger though, so badly

 

[loopdaloop]

idk older adults have a higher success rate than the youth due to careful planning, teens and young adults are more impulsive and prone to failure in their attempts