Do you feel trapped?

[throwaway123]

In my case I am. I can't do anything. I can't live and I can't die. All I can do is live in my misery and hope for salvation. Someday I will die by suicide. I hope its soon.

This is mostly out of my control and I hate not being in control of my own fucking life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's the fucking people that control my life!!! Someday I will simply stop holding back and kill them all.

 

[suffering]

I am trapped as well. I feel your pain :(

 

[F_ckthisplace]

Trapped in this world that I am not welcome in but not for long

 

[Shorine]

Yup, as a trans person I feel like my life is just one big fucked up mess trapped in a cage. I really want out.

 

[Marawa]

I definitely feel trapped for over a decade primarily due to health & agoraphobia. it makes waking up the nightmare

 

[Ch92921]

Totally trapped. I want excape from this life.

 

[lemmeeleev]

What suicidal person doesn't feel trapped?

 

[DeepSleep]

Perhaps 80% of Yes votes are money related. The rest 20% is - illness, old age, young age, gender dysphoria and inability to get laid.

 

[Jodes]

I'm going nuts, can't CTB yet but can't control anger of being trapped. Something has to give. If my new meds don't help, I'm going to end up doing something really fucking stupid. I'm so fed up

 

[Nihil]

Yup, as a trans person I feel like my life is just one big fucked up mess trapped in a cage. I really want out.

Oh hey, same here. Pretty much why I feel so trapped and screwed. Gender dysphoria can really be a prison-like hell sometimes, especially in most aspects of life. I so badly want freedom, out of this accursed body, and a new better life in the right body.

Perhaps 80% of Yes votes are money related. The rest 20% is - illness, old age, young age, gender dysphoria and inability to get laid.

Yeah, I feel ya. Money and current unemployment account for the other giant part of feeling trapped. It...really sucks when financial struggles imprison you from really living.

 

[Jodes]

Control anger before it controls you

Anger is a normal, healthy response to a threat and may be used for a constructive purpose. When anger becomes uncontrollable or is unexpressed, it may lead to destructive thoughts or actions. Learn how to control it.

www.apa.org

That helped a little

 

[Dead beat dad]

Like a rat in a cage

 

[Cookiedough8956]

In my case I am. I can't do anything. I can't live and I can't die. All I can do is live in my misery and hope for salvation. Someday I will die by suicide. I hope its soon.

This is mostly out of my control and I hate not being in control of my own fucking life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's the fucking people that control my life!!! Someday I will simply stop holding back and kill them all.

Its really interesting how I'm in the same exact spot.
People are so selfish, making you go to therapy and say this and that all so they can get a peace of mind
while my mind is getting fucked up.

 

[Xaphous]

Yes very much so.

 

[AhG]

Very trapped indeed. My chances of ctb are dwindling and it bites, because I'll only one week out of each month if don't do it after my birthday.

 

[TAW122]

In the broad sense and grand scheme of things, yes I do have this feeling of being "trapped" in this life. While I'm currently not at the stage of wanting to ctb 24/7 and dreading it, I do know that one day I will die by my own hands. As far as the anger is concerned, yes I believe it is very valid and even justified to feel angry at the way the world treats the suicidal. I used to (many years ago) wish to kill and take vengeance against those IRL who have fucked me over, wronged me and what not, but nowadays, my anger is focused on the world and each transgression I've endured I've channeled my anger towards reducing my survival instinct and thinking about how much stronger of a "fuck you" I can send to the world itself via my death. (My method of ctb is the firearm, but I choose it mainly for it's reliability and accessibility, not so much of the 'mess' it causes.) (Mind you, if or when I ctb, it won't be solely to get back at the world as I'm past that, but mainly to end my own suffering. Fuck what other people think or feel about me IRL; if my suffering is too much and it's time to go, then it's time to go.)

 

[Deivis]

Yes very much so. Can't find a job, no social life. I want to get a girlfriend and lose virginity. I feel angry because I am trapped. I don't get to ever experience love because I have no social life so I can't even try to get girlfriend. I know it's a rare level of pathetic but I'm genuinely stuck on all levels. Unable to live and scared of ending it so just constant suffering.

Can you sit down and rank your problems (to yourself, not to us) - what is causing you the most stress?
Is it job first? Or the virginity? If its about the money, its more complicated. But if its just to find a female - pfff, thats nothing. Rule no.1: dont be a fucking romantic naive guy. If you spot a female, dont flood her with fancy bouquets and chocolates and other bullshit. Or read some stupid sonnets with her. They dont care and usually take it for granted.
Find an always-horny slut who likes to fuck just for the sake of it.

Rule no.2: Never ever show her your true intentions. Maybe you are a bore but you gotta wear a mask, at least temporarily.
If you keep meeting the bitch without asking or begging for anything (sex in this case), a standard female will open her legs on your fifth to sixth date. On any date, beat your meat before meeting her. Always. That relieves the tension and you can talk about other nonsense with her.

Shit, I can go with that for another 20 minutes of typing, but its enough for now. First hand facts, speaking from experience. Sex is nothing, you gonna figure it out yourself after your first 5 sessions. :)

 

[Xaphous]

Can you sit down and rank your problems (to yourself, not to us) - what is causing you the most stress?
Is it job first? Or the virginity? If its about the money, its more complicated. But if its just to find a female - pfff, thats nothing. Rule no.1: dont be a fucking romantic naive guy. If you spot a female, dont flood her with fancy bouquets and chocolates and other bullshit. Or read some stupid sonnets with her. They dont care and usually take it for granted.
Find an always-horny slut who likes to fuck just for the sake of it.

Rule no.2: Never ever show her your true intentions. Maybe you are a bore but you gotta wear a mask, at least temporarily.
If you keep meeting the bitch without asking or begging for anything (sex in this case), a standard female will open her legs on your fifth to sixth date. On any date, beat your meat before meeting her. Always. That relieves the tension and you can talk about other nonsense with her.

Shit, I can go with that for another 20 minutes of typing, but its enough for now. First hand facts, speaking from experience. Sex is nothing, you gonna figure it out yourself after your first 5 sessions. :)

I can make money but having a respected position, not much chance now. Finding a girlfriend with no social life, and being used to having none for over 10 years.. my mind is mush when it comes to anything social. I'm not socially retarded so that's a plus but I feel I might have aspergers or something. I'd probably end up saying very little and just creep her out.

 

[Deivis]

I can make money but having a respected position, not much chance now. Finding a girlfriend with no social life, and being used to having none for over 10 years.. my mind is mush when it comes to anything social. I'm not socially retarded so that's a plus but I feel I might have aspergers or something. I'd probably end up saying very little and just creep her out.

If there was a chat, I'd have proven you wrong, destroying each of your misconceptions. You can PM me your throwaway IM acc, or just join the chat here on forum - tons of people would tell you the same... You want to solve a tactical problem: get laid. Not plan ahead for years about marriage and all that nonsense, so what the hell !

PS: What do you mean by "a respected position"? Are you some CEO or what?

 

[Umbra]

No, I feel I can leave whenever I want.

 

[lemmeeleev]

No, I feel I can leave whenever I want.

That's one of the things that make us not feel as trapped (for most of us).

 

[GeorgeJL]

Yes and no. Ultimately I feel like I am heading down a dark path, but at the same time I have hope that I can figure it out and see through the deceptions and illusions of life and overcome.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Yeah. For so long as I don't have a way out yet I'm pretty much trapped in this shithole of a life.

 

[I am ___________]

Yes I have felt trapped for the vast majority of my life and still do, that is why I will forcefully remove myself from this shitty game called life. I will finally be able to do something for myself, in all honesty fuck society and life. I reject life and society with my entire being, I abhor it. The rest of the drones can go on without me, there is no place where I belong and no where to call home. The only home I have ever had was the cold embrace of death and the endless tranquility it brings.

 

[Ch92921]

What suicidal person doesn't feel trapped?

There are three people who voted no

 

[justabouttobedone]

Yeah, I feel trapped. I'm an idiot in general, a socially retarded, an impatient prick and most importantly a coward. I cannot overcome any problems in my life anymore. It is now extremely difficult to even get out of the bed without feeling pain. I cannot focus on things and cannot learn or remember anything. My social life has always been shitty, but at least I could learn much faster than average children of my age. Now I don't have anything to rely on to maintain a decent life. I'm totally trapped in this fucking life, but I don't have enough courage to end it all.

 

[martha]

definitely yes! I feel trapped.
I am suffering from severe depression and it is not the first time in my life. It is sheer hell, I am sure I don´t have to explain, as there is many of you in my situation.
This is why I ordered N.
Since the order went through, I started feeling better. It is regaining a bit of self control, knowing, when I cannot bear it any more, it will be ME, who decides and no one else.
At least a little relief and a tiny bit of dignity.

 

[Fucking loving it]

YES. I feel so trapped. I have a son that is very attached to me. My daughter passed away at age 10 from a terminal illness. We all watched her take her last breath. My son was 8 at the time. He has issues from that trauma. I've been hospitalized many times for addiction. Detox. Once for a month for the worst mania I've had to date. Then i went back after a few weeks i went back again with a 3 week stay. Then a week after another two week stay. After that I lived in a group home/ residential for 3 months. My son became very cold towards me. Didn't trust me. Now he's very attached again.
My second reason for feeling trapped is being dx bipolar type 1 rapid cycling. I am considered treatment resistant as I have tried so many options and combos of meds. I'm in a pretty severe mixed episode now and it's hell. Idk what to do. I feel I'm going to snap in one of my black outs and suicide. Idk. This is a wall of text. Thanks for reading if you made it through.

 

[Psilo]

Life cornered me all around, I can't escape other than ctb, that the only door available.
I can't live, I don't want to and I'm desperately giving my best to meet death, without ending like a vegetable for the rest of my life or get forced into a psych facility once more.

 

[martha]

My second reason for feeling trapped is being dx bipolar type 1 rapid cycling. I am considered treatment resistant as I have tried so many options and combos of meds. I'm in a pretty severe mixed episode now and it's hell. Idk what to do. I feel I'm going to snap in one of my black outs and suicide. Idk. This is a wall of text. Thanks for reading if you made it through.

Thank you SO MUCH for sharing.
I know and feel exactly what you talk about.
It is a relief to find people who are honest and open about it.
Whenever I talk to others about my feelings I get suggestions how to cope with bp, usually they talk about medication and psych ward.
I´ve experienced both.
I am sick of people trying to get me "functioning" in the sense of matching into the expectations of others. I want to be respected in whatever I decide to do.

All my respect to you!!