Discussion Do you feel the universe is giving you signs to ctb?

[TheSoulless]

I started feeling unusually optimistic some months ago. In the past week everything has gone to shit again. I'm not religious, but I think there might be an evil, sadistic god out there, and he's giving me signs to make me give up.

 

[Tintypographer]

I don't believe in signs to ctb. I believe in God but not signs for catching the bus. I know we all get depression and that it makes us feel pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't believe in any God personally, but I am prone to bad luck, and bad things happen to me that are completely out of my control. It shows that I am simply not meant for this life.

 

[LenkaX]

Actually once upon the time several years ago I was going in a tram to a store where I could buy a rope (my first rope for ctb in my life). In one moment, as I look through the window and I was really intensively thinking about how I will hang myself, I saw someone's hand throwing a used cigarette into a thrash can. I was feeling that the evil and bad god that enslaved me to this shit world, was even giving me a notice in this way, that I should ctb. And truly, nothing has changed for the better since then.

 

[onthelastday]

all the time…

 

[astaeste2021]

The universe doesn't care about our own suffering.

 

[HopeIsLost]

Absolutely. It even feels like the universe is teasing me. Every single time a new opportunity shows up and I gather the courage to chase after it and attempt to improve my life, I fail or the opportunity is taken away from me. It's like the universe is rubbing it into my face telling me that no matter how hard I try I'll never be happy. This is how my life has always been.

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, I think that the universe is not gonna ever give me the answers I'm looking for so, I think "it's" not interested in anything.

I wonder what the hell we really are.

 

[Mizuri]

It's actually quite the opposite with me. An awesome benzodiazepine medication I read a lot about (which was the last thing I needed for a CTB) was banned (it's much harder to get it now) in my country. Then my scales which I ordered online were lost in the post office. And now I made a close friend that wouldn't be able to get over my death. And there were few other things in my life that kinda gave me some hope.

Something really don't want me to die, huh. Weird thing to think about.

 

[PressEnterToExit]

I started feeling unusually optimistic some months ago. In the past week everything has gone to shit again. I'm not religious, but I think there might be an evil, sadistic god out there, and he's giving me signs to make me give up.

Believe me NO. That is what happen : you have a strong hability to reflects your thoughts into reality. You think in suicide, you will open a book and it will be there in the first line.
That is something that cost me more than you think to learn... Very valuable. Because there are people who get crazy cause of that...

 

[Symbiote]

Life will always throw a wrench in your plans and mess it all up. I'm still looking for the person throwing that wrench so I can fuck them up. This has been a shitty month so far, shitty year, and shitty life.

 

[PressEnterToExit]

I don't believe in any God personally, but I am prone to bad luck, and bad things happen to me that are completely out of my control. It shows that I am simply not meant for this life.

You must get out of your mindset and change it you are influencing too your reality with your thoughts
When you are bad everything is worst
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