Discussion Do you feel like you’re a bad person?

[RepressedMind]

I felt like I was a horrible person for quite some time, but recently I am seeing it under a different light. I was paranoid a bit that I might have hurt people from my past, but speaking with them gave me a different perspective. Did something shitty that makes it hard for me not to feel like I am a bad person, but at the same time I haven't hurt anyone.

 

[Rn110bg101]

i traumatized the only person who ever gave a shit about me. i told them horrible things i feel physically sick over.

i am, irredeemably, a bad person.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

i am, irredeemably, a bad person.

I don't believe anyone to be irredeemable.

 

[WinterFaust]

A few weeks ago I would have said yes. And I'm sure I will think that I am again soon lol.

I was running around, detached from reality for a while and became everything I hated. The shame, guilt, and regret was too much so I started planning to ctb. I thought I was complete garbage. I mean, that had to be the case right? Because after knowing people for years, it couldn't have just been my sudden manic behavior for them to all just drop me like that. If I wasn't a monster, they'd know all that shit I did while manic wasn't me. If I wasn't a bad person, I wouldn't be alone.

It's been a year now and I'm finally starting to accept that I was deeply ill and my behavior was beyond my control at the time. I was proactive about my treatment and apologized and took responsibility where I could but they never came back around. It still hurts but it is what it is. I'm definitely not a saint by any means but I'm not a bad person.

 

[lostangel]

I'm not sure because I care for animals but my mother makes me out to be a bad person.

 

[Susannah]

No. An unlucky one. Sad to see how many think they're bad. Truly bad people don't usually care to label themselves as bad

Exactly! Thanks for this reply.

I'm not sure because I care for animals but my mother makes me out to be a bad person.

Caring for animals is a typically "good person thing". Mothers can not be trusted. They always make us (especially daughters) feel awful.