montanatype
Member
- Nov 7, 2024
- 9
That's it, I'm nobody, I never had passions or opinions or strong feelings about anything.
The only thing I could fully trust was in my dreams, in fantasy, and in changing my mind and identity (physical-style) to be able to adapt in some way to that feeling of being, lately I realized this fact, knowing that I am so fragile destroys me
and that I cannot adapt to this society of slavery, hypergamy, promiscuity, saturation, degeneration, cruelty and insecurity.
Human beings scare me, I don't understand how they can live
With that said, I think I have suffered enough, so much that I can no longer suffer, and that is why it is difficult for me to decide to commit suicide, I still believe that I can find or do something, but it is probably a false hope, since therapy and medications I do not intend to give them a chance.
That's why people believe they have the right to harass me, humiliate me, tame me, because for them I am a simple prey, in this animal society, everyone steps on each other to get to the top, and I do not have enough passion to change that fact, when at the end of the day, everything is regulated by the elites, all our existences controlled, it is not even sad anymore at this point, life is not so important
I don't mind going to hell
"Human beings are like that, though. They'll do the most unbelievably cruel things when you least expect it."
I am grateful for having met Dazai, although I have only read one of his works (I am not a good reader), I felt identified with a lot of his content, although perhaps it is normal, anyone suffers at some point.
I have everything, I think that setting a date and some objectives planned for that moment would be the best, and if I fail in my last bullets, finish everything
The only thing I could fully trust was in my dreams, in fantasy, and in changing my mind and identity (physical-style) to be able to adapt in some way to that feeling of being, lately I realized this fact, knowing that I am so fragile destroys me
and that I cannot adapt to this society of slavery, hypergamy, promiscuity, saturation, degeneration, cruelty and insecurity.
Human beings scare me, I don't understand how they can live
With that said, I think I have suffered enough, so much that I can no longer suffer, and that is why it is difficult for me to decide to commit suicide, I still believe that I can find or do something, but it is probably a false hope, since therapy and medications I do not intend to give them a chance.
That's why people believe they have the right to harass me, humiliate me, tame me, because for them I am a simple prey, in this animal society, everyone steps on each other to get to the top, and I do not have enough passion to change that fact, when at the end of the day, everything is regulated by the elites, all our existences controlled, it is not even sad anymore at this point, life is not so important
I don't mind going to hell
"Human beings are like that, though. They'll do the most unbelievably cruel things when you least expect it."
I am grateful for having met Dazai, although I have only read one of his works (I am not a good reader), I felt identified with a lot of his content, although perhaps it is normal, anyone suffers at some point.
I have everything, I think that setting a date and some objectives planned for that moment would be the best, and if I fail in my last bullets, finish everything
