Venting Do you feel envy?

[dioxide]

Do you sometime feel envious looking for people around you?

People happy, in good physical condition, athletic, jumping and doing weights like on the fitness breakfast morning tv show?

People wealthy, driving huge and powerful cars, living in huge beautiful house in wonderful places?

People living their lifes like everyday party, like MTV clips?

People that think their biggest problem is choosing the color of the next sofa' or the size of the next tv?

People that live everyday with their perfect march, going in vacation with her/him, living their life like a love lunapark?

 

[Let'sgetoutofHERE]

Omg yes. I had a friend who literally had everything (smart, attractive, loving family, lots of friends, funny, talented, incredibly confident,...) and I envied her so much and always compared myself to her.

Do you sometime feel envious looking for people around you?

People happy, in good physical condition, athletic, jumping and doing weights like on the fitness breakfast morning tv show?

People wealthy, driving huge and powerful cars, living in huge beautiful house in wonderful places?

People living their lifes like everyday party, like MTV clips?

People that think their biggest problem is choosing the color of the next sofa' or the size of the next tv?

People that live everyday with their perfect march, going in vacation with her/him, living their life like a love lunapark?

Who do you envy?

 

[Jean4]

I don't leave my apartment. I jealous of anyone who has friends or does something as simple as going to a movie.

 

[Let'sgetoutofHERE]

I don't leave my apartment. I jealous of anyone who has friends or does something as simple as going to a movie.

What's the reason why you don't leave your apartment?

 

[Jean4]

What's the reason why you don't leave your apartment?

I could say where would I go? Which is true. But I have oxygen, PTSD, anxiety, stress... and I am too attached to my cat and have panic attacks without him.

 

[Squiddy]

I'm envious of people who don't have mental illness and who are competent and know how to do a lot of things

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Oh yes, I envy them who actually can enjoy life, I had a glimpse of that. It is magical when you get up in a perfect mood and smile appears on your face. When you don't dread another day, you mind is not attacking itself and goodness is in the air.
People who experience it often are truly lucky.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes. All the time, when my friends tell me how great their lives are while I spent my time figuring out how to die.

 

[Girobatol]

I also envy people who dont need to take psych meds to live. I would give it all just to be free of pills for the mind.

 

[terry_a_davis]

I wouldn't say i feel envy but i do look at the lives of some of my peers who have married, had kids, are in employment etc, and wish that could have been me. I am grateful that i did have some success in life years ago before things went wrong.
I feel extra sorry for the people here that seem to have suffered at all points in their lives.

 

[Manja]

I don't I just feel bad about myself...I'm not into material stuff but when I see people well adjusted to society having friends and family and loved by them I just feel so worthless...the weird thing is other people told me that they envied me before they knew me better bc I look like I have great life and not a care in the world, and that's why they were mean to me

 

[Nemeshisu]

I am kind of jealous of people who can lead normal lives without any mental illness. I am jealous of people who have a loving partner. But I suppose there are people who would be envious of me. So I am rather grateful for my life even though it was (and sitll is) very lonely one.

 

[OneBigBlur]

Not envy, just sadness. I passed by a woman walking alone yesterday and she looked so happy, I burst into tears not long after.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Of course. I'm extremely bitter when I compare myself to my little sister and her success/everything she gets to do because she isn't burdened by health problems.

However, I know that not everything/every person is how they appear on the outside so I try to not compare myself in general. For instance my sister is a stone cold bitch.

 

[MysticPerception]

I envy pretty anyone I run into that seems happy and healthy. I also envy anyone who can enjoy milk. It's a petty thing but I can't eat any dairy at all so I can't even enjoy pastries or ice cream or pizza or anything like that. I used to be able to when I was way younger but not these days. It's something I usually try to just kill the moment after it comes up in my head though. Everyone has their demons and their physical problems that you might never learn about. It's not worth comparing myself to others and feeling like garbage because they have something I wish I had or think I deserve.

 

[BlessedOffal]

Not often. It's something I've worked on not falling prey to most my life because it used to cause me so much pain and I let myself suffer for it. I'll catch glimpses of some shiny, perfect people and feel a longing to be them from time to time though. But I try to focus on how I don't know their inner lives. I don't know if they're loved and feel loved, if anything plagues them or if they're just going through the motions and expectations not really feeling all that much.

 

[awfullife]

Every day. The hardest part is that person used to be me.

 

[HereToday]

Definitely. They say money can't buy happiness but it sure can. It can buy you extra time (better healthcare), incredible experiences, activities, vacations, etc, that poor people don't have access to, and that would certainly make me happy. And even if it didn't, I'd rather cry in a ferrari than an old banger. Lol

 

[Quarky00]

Had to look dictionary to understand what's envy (what is it and do I feel it?)

Then it hit me - "do you feel envy", "envy is an emotion which" :) No, too empty too feel. Good for them running people, I don't care.

 

[mediocre]

Absolutely I even envy my 2 sisters. I look at how much they've achieved and how little I have. The rare time I am out and about in town everybody looks either happy or OK. I feel niether. Everybody is at least decent looking, fashionable, high on life. Not me. Guys have normal deep voices. I have voice problems. I hate to use this word but I am often triggered. Better to just stay home and weep.

 

[Quax]

No, I'm not envious.... I had and still have that kind of life which seems so desirable. But today I know it's just an illusion. I learned that it is worthless. Why? Because there's no sense in all that! Having more and more, piling up money, owning a house you don't need, having friends (when are friends,friends?) didn't satisfy me. Money doesn't buy you happiness... and believe me, most of these happy people out there aren't what they seem to be... they are ......... just illusions......For me the big questions are.... is there a deeper sense (I guess - No) and what is happiness? Can one be really happy? And again my conclusion is no! So being envious is obsolete.

 

[mediocre]

Definitely. They say money can't buy happiness but it sure can. It can buy you extra time (better healthcare), incredible experiences, activities, vacations, etc, that poor people don't have access to, and that would certainly make me happy. And even if it didn't, I'd rather cry in a ferrari than an old banger. Lol

you sound like my kinda person I completely agree.

 

[freefrommybody]

I have bits of envy every so often, but I usually just wonder at people who are doing better than me. I think, "Wow, they're really living. Good for them. I'll watch my mouth so I don't poison them with my philosophy."

 

[porfin1234]

Envious... more sad that i could have been what they were if I had just my shit together sooner, not screwed around with men, and had stayed where I was instead of sabotaging everything I was finally building.

also confused as to why I am the way I am, why I've been so ridiculous and delusional and living in a reality separate from the people around me that are healthy
why i behave like a desperate 12 year old child or emo goth
And how I would take it all back if I could just go back in time to before I quit my awesome job and home.
now god knows what's going to become of me.

 

[Let'sgetoutofHERE]

I have bits of envy every so often, but I usually just wonder at people who are doing better than me. I think, "Wow, they're really living. Good for them. I'll watch my mouth so I don't poison them with my philosophy."

Omg your last sentence, this is me with pretty much everything I think lol

 

[BabyYoda]

I just don't get why people can handle the same pain I'm experiencing better than I do. Some people go through life having 10 failed relationships and I would've killed myself before the third person leaves. Social media is a goldmine for those it gets better bullshit posts.

I don't deserve a better life. I don't deserve to be happy. I don't deserve to exist. Of all the human beings of the world, why me? I am nothing but a speck of dust in the universe. It fucking pisses me off when some people claim that life will eventually be rainbows and sunshine for everyone. I do NOT have value in this world. I was only made to stay at home and chill with 2D characters. Why can't people fucking see the reason I want to kill myself? They're better off without me.

Happiness isn't for me if that means facing disappointment when it is gone. So basically I don't want to be happy anymore. Sometimes I self harm as a form of punishment.

Alright, maybe I should stop comparing myself to others. It is a bad habit of mine.

 

[Final Escape]

Not anymore. Sometimes. But as of late I just don't care if someone has it better than me. I've been trying to adjust my expectations from life and gratitude for what I have. It's too easy to compare yourself to others and it will make u feel bad. You have to change your perspective if you are constantly feeling insecure and envious of others. Life sucks for everyone at some time or another. Doesn't matter how awesome they look from the outside.

 

[TheEndof]

Not so much. I'm numb to the lives of others. I've never experienced being well adjusted and normal, so I find it hard to feel anything. Maybe some sadness because I'll never know what that's like, but that's lessened over the years. I think I'm always very aware that everyone is going through something. At least that's what I tell myself because I can't imagine not being miserable on some level.

 

[Flume]

I'm just disappointed I got left in the dust, not so much about others peoples success.

 

[notjustyetagain]

i used to want what some people had (e.g. talent, intelligence, skills, beauty), but not for decades. i still often compare myself with successful people, but instead of envy i just feel shame for not being/doing better. i feel like an insect compared to others. i'm also terrified of successful people -- don't know why. but, if i get to know a successful person and they're nice, my shame fades and i can feel happy for them, and grateful that they want to talk to me. if they're successful arseholes, i hate them more than unsuccessful arseholes, because i don't think people who are mean/bullies/cruel/etc. deserve success. unfortunately, in the workplace there's a tendency for psychopaths to be more successful.